Ha so i am broke and get to go nowhere on my vacation. I suppose that is a good thing b/c there are tons of things i need to get doenhere. Like use my insurance so i can get my head straight and my lungs, wrist etc.. that list of ailments goes on. i was so pampered living off the university's insurance where i could keep a check on my health like a ( Read more... )

thanksgiving was a joke. I spent it with noone. Though i was with cole's family and they are kinda lame. I ate adn i purged. I know it's terrible, i was jsut so overwhelmed this unexplained sadness and i felt so full of shit*literally* so i just went to the bathroom and truned on the faucet fully aware of what i was about to do. grabbed my ( Read more... )

I have a crush on agirl * sigh* for the first time in many mnay years she is beautiful and wise and great taste in music and clothes.Yes i am engaged but i can have a secret crush that nothing is ever gonna come of it. Just wanted to put that out on the proverbial paper. *ding* bong hit gotta go.... hehe jsut kidding but i do got to smoke i just ( Read more... )

so this is gonna be short b/c noone really reads this, my name is just not cool enough an di talk in paranoid stints and phrases making no sense to anyone but me, and maybe fellow potheads not sure.I am sure peopel have read and was like woah this girl is into strap on's and tranny's that's mucho weirdo. And i am like whatever i am high kiss my ass ( Read more... )

Okay have no clue what i was talking about in the subject, i am sure i had at one time something of prfound importance to say however that is not the case now. Ia m not being left for a tranny, but finacee who is committed to me, likes me alot and cares alot about me doens't know how to or what love is. I need a vacation, anyone have an open room, ( Read more... )

So the evening finalied with me singing another song, and being carried off stage by my friends. it felt like old times, but we all know how old times are... GONE it's sad but true nothing ever goes back the way it used to. Time is a bitch and i hate to oblige. I went to the flea market today and had blast, i got a green label magical mystery tour ( Read more... )

So i am off stage now, it went really well. I was nervous as hell, i haven't sang on stage in like 3years. i really wish they hadn't made me sing an original song too. they said coem sing with us one last time and do your rendition of the doors People are strange. they tricked me into singing Karma's Bitch. *sigh* but it is done and over with and i ( Read more... )

So.... as for my outburst the other day i am still thinking deep in my mind about it. He says they make him feel uncomfortable(his trnny friends) but he keeps going over there. This last tiem i was invited but he left without me. And said for me to call him and he would come and get me, but he lef this phone here. i am supposed to be happy he is ( Read more... )

So here is it all alone. My boyfriend soon to be husband maybe, is out with some tranny's. Don't get me wrong i love all walks of life but he is out with tranny's. He has a fetish for them, he baught me a strap on for christmas if they gives any gage on how much of a fetish he has. I am not playing innocent on it either, i have always wanted to try ( Read more... )

So i just wanted to welcome myself back to livejournal after all these years i found my screename again but everything else has been purged, which i suppose is for the best since it was all about dying. So if any you old friends notice i am active again and you are still striving to starve yourself to death please don't note me, i am recovering ( Read more... )