Ohmiya- Confusion 2/2
Title : Confusion 2/2
Author : Nani_va
Genre: Angst, romance, R-Rated.
Pairing : Ohno Satoshi x Ninomiya Kazunari
Summary : Nino is starting to realize how he really feels but then She comes on a surprise visit!
It was strange how Ohno poped up in Nino's head all the time.
How he for some reason had become more attractive, how he suddenly started to give Nino this chills.
Ohno pulled his arms around him as they where sharing a coffee at Ohno's place.
The older one placed a kiss on his mouth, Nino smiled at him. Once again did that feeling spread inside of him. Another kiss. A touch. They ended up there again, in bed. It felt good and this time everything felt right, very right.
As they were laying there caching their breathes, Nino turned towards Ohno gave him on off his kind signature smiles. "I think I know how I feel now" he said and Ohno's eyes got big and looked worried as he was waiting for Nino to say something he didn't want to hear. Nino kissed him and pulled him close.
"I love you Ohno Satoshi and I want to be with you" he then said "It felt so right today" Ohno smiled at him and his eyes looked blank, like he was going to cry.
Nino let a loving laugh out and ruffled his hair. "Let's just keep it a secret for everyone" Satoshi's smile disappeared a little. "Why?" He ask Nino pulled away from him and sat up. "Just for now, not forever" Kazunari said and sat up too.
Ohno looked at him without saying a word. Nino maybe thought of this at nothing serious just some sort of game, or comfort after his breakup.
Again Ohno felt uncertain, he crawled out of the bed and put a bathrobe around his body and walked out of the room. "Where are you going?!" Ninomiya screamed after him. "Bathroom!" he screamed from the other room and Nino could hear him slam the door shot. Nino laid back into the bed with a big sigh.
When Ohno came out from the bathroom, Nino was standing outside.
"Do you like listing to people when they go to the bathroom?" Nino gave him a look. "Yeah I love it.." Nino said sarcastic. "Satoshi.." Nino stared but Ohno stopped him. "Nino I really hope that you meant what you said before, that you liked me?" he said with a serious look. "I don't want you to do this to me if you don't mean it." Nino was shocked over the seriousness he saw in his friends eyes. When Nino gather himself up he took Ohno's hand and looked him straight in his eyes. "I'm serious" he said "I really like you and are not saying this just because.." Ohno looked down on the floor. "Believe me!" he said once again trying to get eye contact with Ohno. They were both quiet for a while before Ohno looked up at Nino "I believe you" he said and gave Nino a smile. Nino smiled back and they kissed again.
"Let's make something to eat" Ohno said "I'm starving!" Nino laughed.
"Let's get take out!" Nino said and pulled his arm around Ohno "I want McDonalds or maybe Mos Burger" Nino then said as they went into the kitchen. "Or do you want to make me some hamburgers?" Nino asked him as they entered the kitchen and Ohno put on the water boiler. "No, I don't feel like it" he said and sat down on a chair facing Nino. "Why not?!" Nino said pouting "I really want homemade hamburgers" Ohno just looked at him and gave him a lazy smile. "Make them yourself" he said and got up to make some tea. "Wow how romantic of you.." Nino said and sledded down a bit on his chair. Ohno put a cup of oolong tea in front of Nino and then sat down with his own cup. "I made tea, just like a housewife would have done for her husband" Nino looked down at the tea and then at Ohno.
"Bravo.." he said and took a sip of it. "Can you taste the love I put into it?" Nino jumped a little as the very hot tea hit is tongue "Yeah, it so much love in this tea it hurts" he said and stretched his tongue out "Yeah it's truly burning with love from me"
Nino and Ohno looked at each other for a while then laughed.
They kept meeting secretly, giving each other looks at concerts, at their TV-programs and joked around at bit more then usual to satisfy the fangirls.
Met secretly at the toilet and made forbidden love as they could hear the other members and stuff walk outside. It was thrilling Nino thought. Everyday was exciting since they became this close. But she was still on his mind.. Hunting him.
Nino opened the door to his apartment and walked inside.
He walked into the kitchen and took out a water bottle and started to drink out of it.
The note he got from Ohno was still laying on the table since that day.
Ninomiya liked looking at it as he came up in the morning and when he came home.
He sat down on one of his chairs and pulled the note up and looked at it. Slowly did a smile from in his face and a laugh made it out of his mouth.
That note and the whole incident from that day had made Nino get his mind of Her.
And as fast as she came to mind, he had put that note up and looked at it, and once again had that feeling come back to him. That warm feeling he had felt that day.
Nino let a relived sigh out and walked into the bathroom and put the water on.
He wanted to take a bath to both warm himself up and to relax. He went out in the kitchen again and poured himself some wine and took it with him to the bathroom and lied down into the water. Ninomiya closed his eyes and let another relived sigh out.
He really felt happy and free for some reason since that day he told Ohno about this feelings. Nino felt how he almost got high of excitement on the thought of meeting Ohno again. He closed his eyes and disappeared from the world for a while.
When he opened them again had the water turned humid instead of warm.
He looked at the clock. It was half past one in the morning. He had fallen asleep.
Nino walked up and shivered from the cold that hit him, he fast pulled the towel around him and walked out of the bathroom.
He walked into the bedroom and fast pulled his pajamas on. Then Nino stood in font of his bed for a while thinking. He wasn't tired anymore because the cold had made him wake up. So now he decided to go and make some tea and watch some TV.
When Nino came out in the kitchen, he felt as if someone was watching him. He put on the lights. And jumped in surprise when he saw how it was.
"God you scared me!" he said and then felt angry. "How did you get in here?"
He ask her. "I still have the key.." she said and walked up to him waving the key in front of her.
"Can I get it back.." Nino said and starched his hand out so she could put it in his hand. She put it in his and and then carefully closed his hand with her warm hands. Nino's heart jumped painfully.
"Was that all you wanted?" Kazunari asked her. She was looking at him in that way..
The way that made Nino melt. That look that made him want her.
"Nino what went wrong..?" she said with a sad voice that shivered little in the end, she was looking at his hands still holding on to the one with the key in.
Nino felt stiff and confused.
"I don't know?" he said and pulled her hand away "You tell me.." the skinny man then said cold, trying to pull his manly emotions away. Tried to not think with his dick.
She didn't say anything, instead she looked at him with tears in her eyes and slowly stroked him over his cheek.
Nino's heart sank. For some reason did he feel so bad for her. And he didn't know what happened next, it was like his body moved on it's own.
He stopped her and pulled her up against the wall and kissed her. Just as eagerly as he had done with Ohno that night. He carried her to his bedroom and pulled her cloth off. They had sex, and Nino couldn't denial it, it was good..
Now Nino was laying in the bed, with her beside him sleeping. He had fallen for it, the trap she had sat up for him. He felt so bad he wanted to cry.
He that just told Ohno the other day that he liked him! That he was the one he wanted to say together with.
He sat up and looked at her, she was so adorable. Nino still had feelings for her, it was clear as he sat there, just that feeling of waiting to kiss her wanting to hold her.
Ninomiya got up from the bed and walked into the toilet. Put the shower on and jumped in. He for some reason felt very dirty. He knew why and he knew he wasn't going to be able to face Ohno. He hit his fist on the wall.
Why did he have to think with his dick?! Why did he have this feelings for her?
When he came outside she was up. They looked at each other.
"Nazomi.." Nino said and looked at her across the room. "I think it's best if you leave now.." Sasaki didn't say anything, she just walked past him. As she did Nino stopped her and pulled her into a hug and kissed her again.
"I'm sorry, but it's to late now.." he said. She didn't reply instead she pulled her arms around him and buried her nose in his chest. Then pulled away and went into the shower.
Nino looked at the bathroom door for a long while, feeling tears burn in his eyes.
He still had feelings for her. He sat down in the kitchen and just stared out in the air.
Nino woke up out of it as he heard the doorbell. As he stood up an unconferrable shiver went down his spine.
He opened the door and there stood he!
"Ohno…" Nino was in shock. What was he suppose to do?
"Can I come in?" the older man asked him. Ninomiya couldn't think..
"Y..Yeah.." he said and Satoshi walked inside. "I brought some lunch" He said and pulled two bentos up. Nino stared at them feeling his heart sank.
"Are they homemade?" he then asked the man that now was pulling one of them into the microwave. "Yes!" he said "Made them yesterday" he closed the microwave and put it on.
"Why?" Nino asked him, real shocked over the time and energy his friend must have put down on them.
"Don't know?.." Ohno said short and leaned back against the table looking at Nino with excitement in his eyes.
Wow could Nino feel anymore bad then this?
Nino have to tell him. But before he had a chance to was she standing there in the doorway. Ohno looked at her.
"I think I will leave now" he said stiffly and walked out of the kitchen.
"Satoshi! It's not.." Nino started. This whole incident felt like a scene out of a drama.
"No, Nino it's okay I understand!" he looked at Nino and then at her.
"I think I will leave you two alone" Ohno said and smiled at them, but his eyes said something else.
"Ohno wait!" Nino screamed after him and ran after him and got a hold of his arm. "She just came without a telling me!" Ohno turned and looked at Nino with such pain in his eyes that Nino lost his breath,
"Nino, let go.." Ninomiya dropped his hand, he was in shock. "I need to think.." he then said and opened the door. "See you.." he then closed it behind him and Nino stood there in the hallway, both shocked, angry, sad and confused.
"Is it that you and Ohno-san really has something?" Sasaki asked Nino that was staring into the door. "Are you two together now?" She asked him again.
Nino closed his eyes and took a deep breath. "Leave.." he said quiet.
"Please leave.." he said once again, feeling his anger race. "Kazu.." she said and Nino could feel her hand on his back. "Don't!" he said and pushed her hand away.
"Leave before I do something stupid." he said between his teeth
"I really need to be alone.."
She packed her stuff up, as Nino still stood in the hallway trying to keep himself calm. Still staring at the door Ohno went out off just a couple of minutes ago.
Sasaki came into the hallway and past him. "Leave the key here.." Nino said cold.
She was hesitating and looked at him, Nino looked back at her straight into her
eyes. She opened her mouth to say something, "No leave them!" he said feeling how he was on the age of exploding. Nino saw her put them down on the up step. She gave him one last, sad look and then left the apartment.
Nino kept staring into the door for a couple of more minutes then he moved and went into the kitchen. It was smelling of food. Nino took the warm bento out of the microwave and for some reason started to eat it.
It didn't taste so good, but because of that Nino could tell Ohno had made it himself.
"Umai" Nino said to himself "Suge umai" he ate fast, he could taste the love he put into making it. A tear feel down his cheek and he stopped and dropped the chopsticks.
"What have I done?" he said to himself as he sat there. He let a sob out a painful one. Then he took a deep breath. "No, don't start crying! It won't solve anything" he dried his eyes of and pulled his phone up.
He looked his number up. He stared at it for a long time, stared at it so long that the numbers got blurry. Nino took another deep breath and hit the bottom and he hear the signals. But it only reached voicemail. He knew he wouldn't answer, but he wanted to try. He tried again, no answer.
He closed the phone and looked at it, almost like he wanted it to ring or tell him where Ohno was.
Nino got up, put his clothes on and went out.
Nino sat down in his car and started to engine and looked one last time at the phone. Eye's got big when he saw he got a massage. He opened it, his heart jumped when he saw the name. Never in his life had he felt this nervous to open a massage from Ohno.
He stared at it a bit longer at the same time he put off the engine. Then opened it.
Nino..
I have had this feeling for a long time. That you may still be in love with her.
But that night when you told me that you liked me just the same way I do, made me so happy. I can't describe that feeling. But I can say that I was happier then I have ever been. Remember I told you that I didn't want you to do this to me, if you really didn't mean what you said? I said that because I know I wasn't going to be able to handle the pain of having you so close and then lose you.
Right now Nino I need to think.. I need to collect all this feelings all this pain I'm feeling right now. But I will always love you! So much that it is killing me…
Nino stared at the massage with big eyes, that slowly started to blur and a sob left his mouth. This massage was full of pain. An unpleasant wave went through Nino, it felt as if Ohno was going to do something stupid. He had to find him!
The skinny man dialed his friends number again and it come directly voicemail this time. Something that made Ninomiya worry even more. He started the engine again and drew off. He wasn't sure where he was going.
For some reason did Ninomiya feel like going to the sea, to a harbor he knew Ohno went to often.
Jumped out of the car and ran a long the harbor. His heart was pounding so hard. He was afraid.
Then he saw someone, someone that looked like him.
He ran down "Ohno?!" he screamed out he put his hand on the man's shoulder and the man looked at him.
"Yes.." the man's name was Ohno? But it wasn't Ohno.. But he looked like him. Nino felt confused.
"Eh.. I think I took the wrong person.." he said and smiled.
"Kind of.." said the man and smiled at him. "You're Ninomiya-kun right?" the man said "Sit down." Nino couldn't do other then sit down he was in shock.
"Oh, I should introduce myself, I'm Ohno Mamoru, Satoshi's father" he said and stretched his hand out for Nino to shake "Nice to meet you" he then said and smiled at him in a kind away, almost like Ohno does.
"Nice to meet you" Nino said and took his hand and bowed a little, sill very surprised.
"Satoshi thought you would come here looking for him.." He said and Nino didn't know what to reply. "Oh.." he was the only thing he could say. So Ohno's parents knew about his sexuality. Which Nino's parents didn't ..
"His pretty hurt.." his father said and throw a stone in the sea. "Actually never seen him this hurt before.." his father said in a way, that Nino wasn't sure if he was angry or not. Kazunari felt very uncomfortable.
"I see.." he said looking down into the sea feeling like such an asshole.
"You know.. Satoshi is very sensitive.. He takes things more personal then you think" he said and looked out over the sea "He might just not show it.."
Nino looked at Ohno's father, trying to read him. See if he was angry or not. But it was very hard, his voice didn't tell him a thing about his mood.
"Do you love him?" he suddenly asked Nino, the skinny man's heart started to pound like crazy. He was scared..
"Well, I really really like him. But I don't know if it is love.." Nino said looking down at his hamburger hands. "To tell you the truth I'm not sure what love is.." he said and laughed a little.
He felt Ohno's father's eyes on him. And he then a hand in his shoulder.
"All love are different.." he said and then stood up "You will know when that day comes" Nino looked up at him. "His on his way here." Satoshi's father said.
Ninomiya's eyes went big and his heart once again started to beat like crazy.
"Be carful what you say.." he said "If you hurt him like this again.." Ohno's father said. "I don't know what I will do.." Nino swallowed. Not a good first meeting or start.
The worried father then looked at Nino and smiled "Take care!" and left him, sitting in shock.
Ninomiya sank down on the spot. Nothing good ever happened when he was close to the sea. That place was a cursed for him. He laid down on the spot where he was sitting and closed his eyes. Trying to calm his heart down, trying to digest and remember what Ohno's father just told him.
Suddenly he felt someone sit down beside him and a can that hit the ground beside him. Nino slowly opened his eyes and looked at the small figure beside him. He sat up, but Ohno kept staring out over the sea.
"I'm sorry.." Nino said with a low voice.
"Did you fuck her?" Satoshi said straight out with a cold voice, one Nino never heard before. It made him get goosebumps .
"Yes.." Nino said.
"You just think with your dick..Don't you?" Ohno said and took a big sip of the coffee he had with him.
"I guess.." the ashamed man said, and looked down at his hands. "But don't we all?" he said and laughed a little. Ohno didn't move a muscle.
"Nino.. Why?" he said after a while "Why did you tell me all that and then went to be with her?"
Kazunari looked over the sea, he wanted to run. He didn't know how to explain this for him.
"She just came to my apartment.." Ohno didn't reply or moved a muscle. He was till staring out over the sea. "She still had the key.. I had forgotten about it.." Nino then said and looked at Ohno who still wasn't moving.
"She tricked me.. And.. I still have this feeling for her.." Nino felt like crying as he told Ohno about this. "She looked at me in that way.." Ohno made a face that looked disgusted. "It's hard to explain.." Nino said trying to make eye contact.
"You're still not over her?" Satoshi said with a voice that broke.
Nino heart sank. "I don't think I'm totally over her yet.." he said and Ohno let a sob out. "Fuck Nino.." he said and Kazunari saw a tear fall. "Fuck it hurts!" he said with a voice that was full of pain.
"It feels like I'm going to die." Ohno said "It's shocking me" he said and dried his eyes off.
Nino wanted to cry too. "God, Kazu-kun I love you so much" he let a sob out and his face made a painful motion.
"I love you too" Nino said and Ohno, made another painful motion and he said with a stained voice. "Why do you keep lying to me?!" "Do you want to hurt me?" he dried his eyes of again.
"No I mean it Satoshi.. I really mean it!" he said Ohno still didn't look at him, he kept staering over the sea. "I always loved you, ever since the first time we meet" he said and looked at the still crying man beside him.
"I may still have feelings for her, but it takes time to make those feelings to go away" he said..
They went quiet for a while, Ohno was still not looking at Nino.
"God I was so scared today" Nino said and took the can up that was standing beside him. "I was so scared you might hurt yourself" he said and stared read what was standing on the can as he tried to control his emotions.
"And the thought of you not being here with me anymore made me.." his voice failed him. He coughed a little to make it come back again. "Satoshi, I can't imagine my life without you in it.." Ohno face once again made a painful motion and he sobbed.
"I want you to believe me!" he said "I want to be with you, not with her.." he said and put the can down and starched out for Ohno's hand. Ohno let him take it as sad sighs made itself out of Ohno's mouth.
"I throwed her out.." Nino said and carefully stroked Satoshi over his hand. "She won't be back" he said and gave Ohno one of his kind and loving smiles.
Ohno let a sob out as answer and than hided his face in his arm and started to cry.
Nino pulled his arm around the now crying man beside him, and pulled him close.
A tear also left Nino's eyes. "Let's work together so I can get over her and you can start to trust me" he said and stroke Ohno over his hair. Ohno nodded between his sobbing.
"You know that bento you made.." he said after another minute of salience. "It was real good" he said and Ohno nodded. "I could feel the love you put into it" He looked at Ohno for a while then he ruffled his hair. "Pull yourself tougher!" Nino said playfully. "Let's get out of here" he said and made a face "I really hate the smell of the sea" Ohno looked up at him and smiled, Nino smiled back. They both stood up and they looked at each other for a long time, straight into their eyes.
Nino suddenly pulled Ohno into a kiss and kissed him for a long time, he wanted to feel, smell and taste him, he missed him so much. "Wow.." Ohno said
"Sorry I just felt like it" Nino said and laughed a little. Satoshi smiled.
"I'm sorry if I scared you.." Ohno said as they where on their way to Nino's car.
"No.. Don't be.." he said and smiled at him. "It was kind of my fault all this happened" he said and opened the door to his car and climbed in.
"Let's get out of here before I get seasick" he said and closed the door and Ohno jumped in on the other side.
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W/N: So ending weird as usual.. But at least it's a happy ending, :3
Comments are loved! <3