Fic: "Lilac Wine" [written for deancas_xmas; NC-17, Dean/Cas]

[nanoochka]

TITLE: Lilac Wine
AUTHOR: nanoochka
RATING: NC-17
WORDCOUNT: 10,100
WARNINGS: Heavy angst, references to (canon) character death, drug use (after fashion)
SPOILERS: Up to 7.06 but with a reference to 7.09
SUMMARY: “I made wine from the lilac tree / Put my heart in its recipe / It makes me see what I want to see / and be what I want to be / When I think more than

Comments

[cedelede]

This was gorgeous. Gorgeous and heart-breaking.

In a way living that dream life had to make waking up that much harder, making the lilac wine as much a curse as a blessing.

I could see every second of this happening though. Dean is so not stable-minded right now so this plays very well with where his mind is at this season.

[nanoochka]

Hehe, I love your icon! Thanks so much for the wonderful comment as well. Much appreciated!

[oystergrrl]

"Dean thought it seemed a bit like trying to describe what happened to his insides when he heard Robert Plant sing the word baby-to a deaf person."

I love that line. It so evocative and perfectly in-character.

[nanoochka]

Thanks! As far as Robert Plant is concerned, I only speak the truth. :D

[darkboudicca]

This is freaking heart wrenching. For a minute there I was scared (& hopeful) that Dean had overdosed on the wine and was caught in his fantasy. Part of me is glad he's out because it's not real, but part of me really wants Dean to have some respite--even if it's all in his head.

[nanoochka]

I actually considered having Dean live in his fantasy forever, but decided it would be more fun (and evil) to keep it as in-line with the events of canon as possible. With OTP glasses on, of course.

Thanks for reading it!

[tiniowien]

There were several things I liked about this fic - Firstly the shift in your writing (tense? tenses?) as you moved back and forth between what we came to relise was not in fact the past and the present, but a dream and reality. Secondly I loved the slow reveal of what I did think was a memory into the oh! moment of realising sadly that the sleepy sunday morning was in fact all inside Dean's head.

I really love your writing and I am very impressed with this fic to no end. <3

[nanoochka]

Very sweet of you to say, thank you! <333

[shane_mayhem]

You already know that I love this, but just wanted to tell you again. ;)

Intense, and hot.

[nanoochka]

Thank you, my dear! I still love the fact that you can say "I'll be in my bunk" and not mean it metaphorically. :D