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Why do i have to be the scientist? And why is my partner also my nemesis, do they have multiple personalities and thats why i cant beat my nemesis cause i'd kill a friend. And also the name cloudless is strangely the same name as a good friend of mine. I think this test is trying to tell me something. That i'm doomed to work in an office building ( Read more... )

I know life has its up and downs, i mean after all thats life. But why do i feel like i'm sitting here watching as everyone else gets happy and sad they have their good times and their bad times, but yet i cant seem to have one good time. No matter what i do or what i try or what i take i cant seem to get out of this depression of mine. Everyone ( Read more... )

why is that with all the people that i care about in life, not one of them cares about me in the way that i care about them? Why does this feel like some joke that the world is playing on me preventing me from ever being happy while causing me the most pain.

still unfeeling, unwanting, un-needing, cold to all there is in life, unable to smile, not knowing happiness, still life drags on.

Have you ever been so numb to the world it hurt? Just sitting there staring into nothingness wishing that if you have to be numb that you could at least be comfortably numb? But nothing in this life of mine is even close to comfortable. The only things i can feel in life are pain and stress, and so i try so hard with every fiber of my being to just ( Read more... )

why is it that the mroe fun that i try to have the more pain i go through? WHy is it that no matter what i do, what i try happiness eludes me? HAve i known so little happiness in my life that i've completely forgotten how to be happy? And now i slide back down into my hole of despair and depression. A cold and numbing place that is more familiar ( Read more... )

Yeah, i know that this time of year isnt exactly supposed to be the happiest time of year for most people. But this seems to be getting out of hand. I can't name one person that actually seems to be happy right now. Especially the two people that i care most about. I hate that the people in life that deserver to be happiest are actually the most ( Read more... )