so its been forever
just felt the need to write
things are good overall
cept in that one area
i feel sad
and hopeful?
i dont know
just need to write it down

i am in love ( Read more... )

"Perhaps, it's a statement of self empowerment, of owning one's own sensuality again after having it so brutally taken away...that is a lament many of us feel...to feel cut off from our bodies, to not be able to really enjoy what is rightfully ours, because of someone's violation...perhaps that is the gift you wish to give?"

Du erkennst mich nicht wieder
Du erkennst mich nicht wieder Allein Mein Gesicht sei noch gleich Und du weißt nicht ob das reicht Um nicht alleine zu sein
Du erkennst mich nicht wieder Unerkannt bin ich die halbe Nacht noch um die Häuser gerannt Ich erkenn hier nichts wieder Alles müde und alt und ich male uns beide als Umriss aus Kreide auf den ( Read more... )

go to youtube.com

search out 'japanese tv tetris game'

HILARIOUS!

i do not want to become my mother

as much as i love her, admire her daily sacrifices and devotion to us i do not want to become

judgmental
raging
insecure
unable to move on

i just wish my parents would get a divorce.

i feel like they are existing in the 1950's and will not for reasons that are not reasons to stay together

it rips me in two

it has been a week and i have heard nothing

highly unusual. i am not offended. just worried. i hope everything is ok

i spent some time lat night talking about a particular you. havent done that in a long long time. i dont like looking back when i have learned all that i can. it wastes my time. but you came up and i talked ( Read more... )

Today marks 5 years

5 years of being alive
of surviving the stroke
of learning who i am
of what i want to be
of fighting for that right to be it

5 years of a hell of a journey

of doubt
fear
exploration
of finding
me

5 years today!

four weeks to go and counting.... not that i am.. really.

fobby is in NZ and im in emerald. two more weeks of the van, the dust and the kids. im loving it - lots and lots. its really something.
but there comes a point where you just want to be home again with those you love.

retail therapy yesterday to deal with that thought!