Not so gloomy Sunday ^.^
♥ I'm actually putting that journal you gave me to use, Youjeennuna ^^;
♥ Life is flying by too fast not to record some of it~
♥ I wouldn't call today a failure. Hard-won success, perhaps.
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| TUESDAY |
It might not have even been hours since they'd turned out the lights with the intention to sleep that a series of excited yips and screams of the Fuzzy variety startled Jae from his sleep.
In Micky's book, hours of sleep did not nearly constitute as what some would call a "good rest"; his body was, in fact, just beginning to cross the line into deep-sleep mode, when a ring of excruciating yelps sent him eyes-wide-open, jumping from sleep and nearly knocking himself unconcious when he smacked his head with a reverberating thud against the ceiling. "OW-- shit!"
A pause of silence followed. "Uhh... you okay up there?" Jae's soft voice filtered up through a break in the yelping, rife with amusement and a note of concern.
A groan was the first response given, one hand holding his head, before Micky verbally confirmed his injury. "...Yeah." He threw the rest of his covers off and then crawled his way to the edge of the bed, peering over. "You wanna kill her or should I?"
"I'll do it." Jae pushed himself up and slid off the bed, fumbling for the light switch with the intent to pulverize (aka pet and calm) the pint sized terror. He quickly found her tangled up in a basket of clothes in the closet. The brilliant creature had apparently decided to seek adventure during the wee hours of the night, forgetting that it -couldn't fucking see-. It lay there tangled up in some shirtsleeves and socks and Jae had to chuckle at the ridiculously cute image. Shivering slightly in a black wifebeater and grey pajama pants he approached with caution. Beady eyes stared back at him as Fuzzy let loose another series of yelps as she inadvertently tangled herself up further in an attempt to get out.
Slanted eyes more squinty now than in their usual, Micky lifted an arm to shield his eyes, as the burst of light from down below gradually lit the room. After a moment of adjusting to the change, Micky grinned a little at the scene and sat atop the ladder, overseeing Operation Calm Fuzzy. "Watch your fingers."
"Thanks." Came a wry reply with a similarly expressive grin. He knelt before the basket and began tugging at the clothes, in hopes to just remove those and eventually leave Fuzzy in the basket... or something. The creature flipped out as soon as it started to become untangled -- much to Jae's chagrin. "Tell me again why we got -this- one?" He sounded mildly exasperated, yet charmed all the same.
"You begged and pleaded, so I couldn't say no." Micky slipped in an innocent grin, dropping his hands in his lap with a mild wince as the less-than-melodic yips started up yet again. "Take that sock over there and shove it in her mouth, willya?" Not that he could do it himself, despite what he'd so nonchalantly instructed Jae to do.
"Nooo!" Jae objected rather girlishly, determined not to have to resort to gag tactics. He finally got the vibrating little ball of fluff detangled and bravely extracted it from the laundry basket. "Heyyy... calm down..." he attempted to soothe Fuzzy's obviously frayed nerves, stroking her fur even as she dug her little claws into his thin shirt. He glanced up at Micky from where he knelt.
From his perch on the upmost rung of the ladder, Micky tilted his head thoughtfully at the two before making his descent from above, crouching down near Jae and petting the top of the tiny fox's head with one finger, in attempt to soothe her frazzled form. Fuzzy's fur was soft and warm, but quivered noticeably in the other boy's arms. "No more late night trips, you." He chided gently. "I don't have enough skull to wake up like that all the time."
Jae smirked, as he continued to pet Fuzzy, standing to bring her over to the bed. He sat down on his bunk and let her cling to him, sharing a somewhat surprised look with Micky as she was perhaps at the calmest she'd ever been. He had to wonder if the fox was just psycho, or if she'd had neglect issues as a child... or something.
Micky caught the look, a light amusement blossoming over his features. "Don't jynx it," he whispered and very carefully took a seat nearby on the bed, very wary of Fuzzy's oh-so-fluctuating moods. "I think the laundry gave her a heart attack." He grinned, glancing at Jae for a moment.
"Yeah and then she decided to share." Jae shook his head. "Now I hope she doesn't fall asleep clamped onto me like this..." He looked mildly worried.
"Maybe we can unhook her.." He mused, taking a good look at the tiny claws latched on to Jae's clothes. "..if she doesn't flip out." Micky silently noted how Fuzzy's two, black beady eyes had the ability to look dangerously threatening and hopelessly cute at the exact same time.
"If she flips out I'm going to get ripped to shreds." Jae noted as he assisted in the unhooking. She watched them warily as she was removed from Jae's shirt and bared her little claws as they tried to set her down on the bed, making evil-looking faces at them. But nonetheless, they'd rescued her and shut her up and now it was time to try and get some sleep again. Jae watched her equally warily as she burrowed under a sheet and staked claim of a portion of his pillow.
Micky suppressed a laugh as he raised an eyebrow at Fuzzy's immediate marking of her territory. "Have fun sleeping with the devil." He looked over at Jae, quite suddenly amused by this fact. "Just don't roll over and you'll be fine."
"Wouldn't be the first time," Jae muttered quietly in reply and then cast a distasteful, mocking glare at his roommate. "Yeah. So long as I don't mistake her for a plushie." He had to snicker at that, despite his own eminent scarring that would follow.
"Ooh, ouch." A visual of the possible mauling that Jae would undergo couldn't help but cross through Micky's mind. "Wait--" Backtrack. "What's that supposed to mean?" He looked curiously over at his roomate.
"...You're a smart guy, you figure it out." Jae made himself comfortable, facedown on his bunk as he dismissed Micky's curiosity -- he'd certainly ruin it if he attempted to be clever. An eye remained trained on Fuzzy, as two glassy little ones remained trained right back on him. A staring contest? A turf war?
Micky cast a sly look at him, though Jae's eyes were far from reachable at the moment, as they were caught in what seemed to be a concentrated staring war with their devil fox. He watched the two for a moment before leaning over Jae's shoulder. "Whatever you do.." he whispers. "Don't. Blink."
Something about Micky's comment made Jae want to throw a tantrum and laugh at the same time. He was insufferable yet hilarious and charming all the same. As he lay on his stomach, watching Fuzzy, and being watched, he spared a halfsecond glance up at him. "Don't hit your head on the way up." Smirk.
As he hovered just over Jae's shoulder, Micky's eyes slipped from Fuzzy's coal-colored stare to slide a glance discreetly over at his roommate. "Don't worry, I learned the first time." He smirks back, then pauses a minute before snapping his fingers just before Jae's wide, unblinking eyes. "Damn, Jae! I told you not to."
Fuzzy promptly opened her toothy maw and clamped down on Micky's hand.
That was one way to wipe that triumphant smirk off his face. "Oww! Fuzzy, get OFF!" Micky tried to pull his hand free, but to no avail; the little fox's razor-sharp teeth were latched on quite nicely to his skin.
"Nice." Jae smirked and watched with big eyes full of devious amusement, lounging comfortably with his head turned to watch the show. "Fuzzy... let go of Micky's hand..." He cooed at the fox, who gave him a look which undoubtedly read 'you don't REALLY want me to do that do you >D'.
Micky scrutinized Jae's expression in a rather conspicuous manner. "Have you been training-- ow! -- her?" A shadowed glare found its way over to the fox. "You're thisclose to becoming a coat, you know that?"
"Don't you start too." Jae rolled his eyes. "Minwoo keeps talking about 'planning a scarf'." He laughed. "Fuzzy. Let. Go." He addressed the animal in a sharper tone and she responded with the most pitiful look ever. Except that with Micky's hand in her mouth it didn't look that pitiful at all. She finally released Micky's hand. "Me? Training her? Nah..." Jae grinned. "You okay there? Rough night, huh?" Smirk.
Much better. Micky retrieved his hand and found a nice array of pinked little teeth marks indented into his skin. "Shut up." He muttered and tried to hide a lighted grin, dragging off Jae's pillow and throwing it at him in mock annoyance.
"Augh! You!" Jae lobbed the pillow back at Micky, getting him in the leg. "Give it baaack." he whined with a grin, sticking an arm out.
Micky tried to dodge the toss back, but failed.. and instead lifted the fluffy thing from the floor and hugged it tightly, eyes just peering over the loose fabric. "Does BooJae need his pillow to go to sleeeep?" He taunted, lips tight with supressing an amused smirk.
"Yes, he does. And that's just weird coming from you." Jae lay with his cheek resting on his forearm. "Yunho's girlfriend told him not to call me that anymore - can you believe that shit?"
He lowered the pillow so that he could see all of the bed. "The fact that she's jealous of you?" He raised both eyebrows and grinned briefly, tossing Jae's pillow back toward him. "It's hilarious."
"I know. He was all perturbed about it too, like he actually took it seriously. Pfft." Jae laughed and caught the pillow, rising up to replace it beneath his head and get comfortable again. "Damn we've been up an hour." He craned his neck, peering at the digital alarm clock on the desk.
"You know Yunho.." He smirked and yawned. "..so protective." Micky turned to take a peek at the clock to which Jae referred to and groaned lightly. "Time to try this sleeping thing again, huh?" Micky balanced on a rung of the wooden ladder and scaled the few more it took to reach his bunk.
"Yeah... protective. Heh." Jae listened for a thunk but heard none so he assumed Micky had gotten into bed without losing any more braincells. He lay there in quiet for awhile, but sleep didn't seem to want to come.
Which was funny, because Micky seemed to suddenly find himself in a similar situation. Head successfully reaching the coolness of his since-abandoned pillow, eyes studied the blank ceiling as if the answer to sleep were written up there with the rest of the dull paint. "Hey..." Pause. "....you sleeping yet?"
"Nn... nuh uh." Jae stared at the far wall, fully awake.
He waited a moment before rolling over to the side for the second time that night and peeking down below. "Can't sleep?" He questioned, arms resting casually over the railing.
"Too awake." Jae turned his gaze upward even as he lay with his head turned to the side, sprawled out on his stomach.
"Yeah.." Micky nodded slowly, wondering why he wouldn't want to just sleep after only a few hours of rest. "Well.." He shrugged casually. "..you can come up here, if you want."
"Yeah?" Jae turned onto his back and gave Micky his full attention. "Gotta slumber party urge, or something?" But the teasing was mild and only a cover, or so it seemed in Jae's head.
He looked down at the other boy. "Maybe." He answered, a slight trace of a grin present in the dark.
Jae sat up. "Hn. Or did Fuzzy scare you and you just can't sleep alone now? Like she'll creep out of the darkness and bite you again?" Jae chuckled as he pulled the covers back, dangling his feet off the side of the bed.
"She loves me, she wouldn't do that." He tried not to laugh. Fuzzy may be cute, but she was a hell of a bitch when she didn't get her way. Especially when Micky was teasing her. "But yes, Jae.. please come up? I'm so scared." He joked - his own cover, if it could be called that. He was the one that asked after all, wasn't he?
"I'll come protect you, don't worry." Shaking his head, Jae grinned, climbing up the short ladder. He stalked up along the mattress, low head room keeping him on all fours. "Watch this thing collapse now." He commented amusedly, in a quiet tone.
"Then Fuzzy will get what's coming to her.." He laughed sheepishly, it being really hard to keep out the images of a flattened fox from his mind. Micky moved a bit to allow Jae crawling room across the sheets. He crossed his arms in a stretch over his head as eyes settled on the other boy.
"Aw no, even if she's evil she doesn't deserve to die... well, not like that at least." Jae snickered, settling beside Micky. "What kind of parents would that make us?" He feigned horror as he adjusted his position, stretching out on his stomach and pillowing crossed arms beneath his head, gaze trained on roommate-turned-bedmate.
"You're right." He turns on his side, opting to rather face Jae than to be craning his neck to look in his direction. He yawns just a little, but miraculously doesn't feel the effects of sleep just yet. He was more preoccupied with other things. "Besides, I heard blood is hard to wash out."
"It is." Jae answered quite knowledgeably, with no intention of elaborating. A quiet smile curved his lips. "So..." he paused, "still scared?"
"Mm.." He pauses a moment. "..Nah." He smiles fleetingly, eyes level with Jae's not more than a foot away. "Maybe a little cold, though." He mused a little more quietly. "You warm on that side of the bunk?" He questioned airily.
"Nn... not so much." Jae shifted a bit closer, close enough to share body heat, an inquisitive gaze trained on Micky.
Micky followed Jae's lead, tentatively scooting a little closer. He toyed around with the idea of closing the space they shared, but had yet to really act on the private suggestion. "..Me neither." He answered slowly, eyes clearly finding Jae's face, as they'd adjusted themselves to the dark by then.
The mild warmth of coinhabiting sleeping space was nothing compared to being this close to another body. There was little hesitation, given the places they'd already gone and been. Jae closed the space between them, slipping lower and letting his head rest below Micky's chin, inhaling the faint trace of his soap mingled with clean cotton and the lingering scent of his cologne clinging to his sheets.
Defining this feeling couldn't quite be limited to simple warmth; not like the flame of a candle or the heat through a house. It was warm like blood through veins, the clasp of cold to hot hands, breathing out in the dead of winter. Different. Micky leaned his head gently against Jae's, one arm draped loosely around the other's waist. "..But that can change." He added, voice having lost some of its volume.
"Mmmhm..." A quiet sound of accord served as response, not more than a gentle purr in Jae's throat. The mellow lull of sleep had begun to creep upon him as soon as Micky's arm had slipped around his waist. How long had it been since he'd fallen asleep in anyone's arms? Far longer than he'd craved that warmth. Never. A soft sigh escaped his lips as he settled comfortably into the somnolent embrace.
Micky breathed a thermal sigh, filtering the warmth through the softness of Jae's hair; eyelids fell featherlight, no struggle keeping them ajar. Sleep replaced energy in a body snug against the other boy's, as limbs fell steady in gentle form. "..Good-night.." One more act for the one falling statuesque, as Micky brushed a kiss against Jae's forehead. Sleep tight.
| WEDNESDAY |
the KRN mouse: -is woken up by no alarm clock, for what seems like onceinhislife and yawns a little, closed eyes putting up a good fight to stay shut- ....Mmnhh.
JJ Hero of Korea: ~stirring a moment later, he instinctively snuggles closer to his lifesize teddy bear. not really aware of who it was--- eyes open immediately. O.O he's staring at micky's nightshirt. his arm is around him. this was... a good thing. ^.^ he makes no move to show that he's awake~
the KRN mouse: -can feel the coolness of the air from behind, and the contrast it makes with the appealing comfiness that he clings to- ..=o=' -yawns again and snuggles into Jae a moment, not wanting to wake up but doing so nonetheless >>- ...Mmg'morning. -opens his eyes and looks sleepily at Jae-
JJ Hero of Korea: fivemoreminutes? ~jae CLUNG~
the KRN mouse: Eh? -yawwwns for the umpteenth time- ..mmk..justfive. -yeahright, he really WANTS and needs his sleep, and so flops back down and against Jae-
JJ Hero of Korea: ~burrows against him~ nn...you're cozy. five may not be enough ~eyes closed, but a smile's blossomed on his lips - one eye cracks open~
the KRN mouse: -nuzzles his hair- Idon'twannawakeup.. -sleepy whine as he grins all dreamlike and blatantly refuses to get up-
JJ Hero of Korea: JJ Hero of Korea: thendont ~snuggles, both arms going around micky's waist to like, keep him from going anywhere if he had plans of that sort >>~
the KRN mouse: mmmokay.. -obviously persuaded easily >>; he snuggles comfortably up to Jae and starts to sink baaaack into a snooze- ....justfiveyep.
JJ Hero of Korea: mmrh. ~purrs all contentedly~ we should...ah.. make a habit of this ~says drowsily~ whatdyathink?
the KRN mouse: Mm....canweplease? -snoozing right up against him, with no intent to wake up anytime soon >>;-
JJ Hero of Korea: yeah... we'll still be sharing in japan so... ah... we can... >> speaking of japan... we gotta catch a plane... ~snuggles against Micky's neck~
the KRN mouse: good... I'm holding you to that.. -continues sleeping nice and warm and content, before his eyes nearly snap open- ..FUCKWEGOTTACATCHAPLANE, Jae! -issodamnedtired.. but WHOA japan-
JJ Hero of Korea: yeah... ijustsaidthat ¬¬ mrrr... damnit... whattimeisit ~.~
the KRN mouse: -whine/groans and reaches over Jae to check the time on the clock- Nnnnnshit.. webettergetup. -flops back down anyway >D ..but keeps his eyes open-
JJ Hero of Korea: ~eyes open as well~ :\ mrrh. you all packed?
the KRN mouse: Sortof. -looks at him- Are you?
JJ Hero of Korea: ofcourseiam ;) and >> what do you mean sortof >>; we gotta be out the door in less than half an hour :x
the KRN mouse: GodIhateflying. >>;;; -rolls awaayyy from Jae, regrettably, and crawls to the ladder to get down and finish his packing-
JJ Hero of Korea: ~gets up too cuz like, no more micky means no more snuggling~ :\
And later that day...
PHONE SEX? GET A GRIP KIMJAEJOONG, THAT IS JUST WEIRD, OKAY? ;O; I need to not be turned on by the fact that I turn others on. Not only is it just plain conceited, but inconvenient as hell when they finish first >/ Augh. What would your mother think? @@; .........I'm not even going to entertain the thought ;O;!
| THURSDAY |
Possessed. I am convinced I was possessed. Hot chocolate, whipped cream, and Kim possessed me. I'm not that promiscuous. What the hell? Climbing in and out of the window, I don't regret. That was fun ^^ What went on in between... well days later I can't even believe it was me @@; Was it me? Yeah it was me. It'll take a long time to get over doing that. ^^ I guess I really had an oral fixation that evening @@;
Looking back, I think we sped right over the cliff's edge that day. But once it's done, you usually... well, die. If you can accept the death, though, together, then there is hope. If not, one soul will be left mourning the other. I hope it isn't like this.
And that night...
the KRN mouse: -wanders in from wherever he was in the house - the NEW house - and stretches before closing the door to his room and heading over to the shared bunk- I don't think I was ever a housewife in my past life.. <<;; -looks over at Jae, before yawning-
JJ Hero of Korea: o.O what makes y'say that? ~is sitting on his bed in nightclothes, filing his nails, of all femmy things to be doing~
the KRN mouse: I really HATE setting up house.. -grins a little, perched up in the middle of the ladder a moment, watching jae file his nails-
JJ Hero of Korea: heh... i must've been one then. i dont mind it. but switching around so much is a pain. ~glances up from what he's doing~
the KRN mouse: you already had me convinced. -jokes, sitting around for a few minutes simply looking on- dude, I'm falling asleep sitting up.. -yawns again- Lights out for me.
JJ Hero of Korea: ~sets the file down~ you want some company? ~asks mildly~
the KRN mouse: -looks at him a minute- Sure. x) -balances on a rung to stretch, then turns and heads up to his bunk, careful not to smack his head >>-
JJ Hero of Korea: ~stretches his legs, and goes to turn off the lights before climbing up after him~ y'know.. i was thinking... what exactly would we say if the others found out?
the KRN mouse: huh. -lays out on his back and waits for his eyes to adjust before seeking out Jae in the dark- ..that you sleepwalk. -grins faintly- then that's your cue to wake up and look very confused.
JJ Hero of Korea: Nah ~grins as well~ I'd say you had nightmares and needed me to protect you. then it'd be -your- cue to wake up and look all scared. ~barring hesitation, he settles close against Micky, in a similar position to the night before, however, he did not slide lower just yet, maintaining his gaze level to Micky's~
the KRN mouse: I don't think waking up with a cold sweat and breathing heavily would really sway their suspicion much. -answers casually, a spark of amusement lighting his eyes in the dark as he visualized the situation in his mind. he turns his head slightly to the side, to find Jae's eyes- though the idea sounds fine to me. -grins-
JJ Hero of Korea: ~slipping his arm around Micky's waist, he closed the space between them, resting his forehead lightly against Micky's~ maybe we can just say that fuzzy threatened to eat us if I didn't give up my bed to her
the KRN mouse: --snuggles into the contact, soon after it's felt- And that's something REALLY believable.
JJ Hero of Korea: more than the other two ideas...yeah. ~says softly, grinning, tightening his hold on Micky's waist a little~ damn... you're so thin... ~his hand splayed lightly over micky's lower back~
the KRN mouse: -runs his hand lightly through Jae's hair, his head against the other's- Yeah.. I dropped a few pounds.. -says slowly-
JJ Hero of Korea: ~strokes his back lightly where his hand rested~ you didnt have much to drop...~isn't pressing the issue, but sounds mildly concerned~
the KRN mouse: That's what I thought.. -the hands are warm against his back, relaxing any muscles that may have been tense from wakefulness. his hands continue their slow, gentle massage through Jae's hair- Maybe it's all the switching around that's gotten to me.
JJ Hero of Korea: ~his eyes close, rather affected by this~ hmn...~a soft exhalation as micky's hands in his hair had begun to make him drowsy~ guess ive got to take better care of you...~his hands still offering a light warm soothing mssage~ and less care of yunho... who seems to have gained what you've lost and then some ~says softly~
the KRN mouse: -laughs softly and presses closer, nuzzling Jae gently and allowing his own eyes to fall closed- I can hear you falling asleep.. -smiles lightly, voice near a whisper-
JJ Hero of Korea: JJ Hero of Korea: can you? ~a faint chuckle~ i can -feel- you falling asleep ~just the slightly flutter of his heart as micky nuzzled closer~
the KRN mouse: Mhmm.. -smiles something faint, a hint of dreamy- ...your voice sluuurrs.. -this comes out in a gentle purr as his hands twirl tiny loops through Jae's hair and around his fingers. he places the most fluttering of kisses just below Jae's hairline, suddenly not being able to help it-
JJ Hero of Korea: ~his heart sped up a little, the light caresses both calming and incendiary~mmheh.... i can feel... the tension unwinding... here. ~a fingertip draws a light line down his spine from mid-back to the small of his back where his palm pressed to his flesh once again~
the KRN mouse: I had tension? -shifts position slightly, if only to cuddle Jae in a better position, one hand sliding gently against the other's hip- ...I might be getting addicted to this... -almost snoozing against him-
JJ Hero of Korea: Mmh.... I... already am ~a soft content sigh as he settled into the shifted position~ And yes... you did... you're thin as a rail... its that much easier to feel....
the KRN mouse: I'll probably gain it back.. -voice drops to a cooed whisper- But you're one to talk. -moves his hand across Jae's waist, breaths quieting-
JJ Hero of Korea: hey...i'm not the one who 'dropped a few pounds'. ~his own voice low and quiet, merely a silky murmur of an echo.~
the KRN mouse: ..they dance us to death. -subconciously wondering how thin he really got.. though, at the moment, too warm and snuggly to care as much as he should- what do you expect?
JJ Hero of Korea: no idea what to expect... yunho dances as much or more than you... and look at him. ~nuzzles against his cheek, eyelids growing heavy with oncoming sleep~
the KRN mouse: maybe then, I should hibernate more.. -voice blanketed in a sleepy tone- ..kind of like this.
JJ Hero of Korea: yeah... ~soft, barely audible -- moments later~ goodnight...
the KRN mouse: mm.. goodnight, jae.. -his voice finally falls silent.. steady breaths taking its place-
| FRIDAY |
I think I have a problem. A real one. This sucks, by the way.
And some things cannot be explained with words. I think I always knew this, but I realized it again.
How am I like the moon?
the KRN mouse: -sitting on Jae's bed, fiddling with the little touch-pad mouse on his laptop >> he scrolls down a list of what seems like an INFINITE number of game links- I'm trying to find a game I can brutally beat you in. -innocent griiiiin-
JJ Hero of Korea: any of them will do... i've never played any of them before :P ~is sprawled out on his stomach, propped up on his elbows, chin in his hand~
the KRN mouse: -scrolls down the page, finding the slime volleyball link and clinking on it, waiting for it to load- okay.. you use these keys. -taps them- and you're playing volleyball. -end vague description >> lies down on his stomach beside jae- got it?
JJ Hero of Korea: Umm... nope but I'm sure I'll catch on xD just start the game up :x ~leans up against Micky a bit~
the KRN mouse: -kinda shimmies nearer to him and lets the game load up- you're red, by the way. -game starts and a ball falls into the screen, micky's character hitting it over the "net"-
JJ Hero of Korea: ~mashes at keys randomly in attempts to play and actually manages to get it back over the net~ ooh this isn't that hard ~famous last words~
the KRN mouse: -grins slyly as he sends the ball JUST slightly over in attempt to make Jae go all buttonmash crazy and miss- see how well you learn?
JJ Hero of Korea: ~flops facedown on the mattress~ yes. very well ~gets up~ lets try again >>
the KRN mouse: ooh, can't be missing those Jae. -tsks, antagonizing, and serves the ball over again-
JJ Hero of Korea: ~misses~ vv;;;;;
the KRN mouse: -snort- XDD;; eyyyee on the ball. -serves yet agaaiiin-
JJ Hero of Korea: ~misses!~ dammit >/ i suck at this.
the KRN mouse: maybe if you stopped.. -imitates his key mashing and accidentally starts the game, missing a ball- ...>___>;;; uh.
JJ Hero of Korea: XD very nice. ~phone rings~ >> ~he pulls it out of his pocket and looks at the caller id, flipping it open ~
the KRN mouse: -pauses the game and kind of rolls over, watching as jae picks up the call-
JJ Hero of Korea: ~leans up against him, as he answers it~
Mm...hello?
Hey, Jae....
Kim... Hi. What's up?
Mmmm. Not much. We're in Tokyo. Going to some...benefit dinner, or something that Yoshiki's having.
Ohhh. reallly... thats cool...
Yeahhh...I was wondering...if you're not busy...would you like to go? I know it's going to be horribly boring.
Ah... I'm kind of busy right now...
the KRN mouse: -raises an eyebrow, really tempted to annoy Jae while he's on the phone, as it doesn't seem too drop-dead important a call >D-
JJ Hero of Korea: ~gives him a you-wouldn't-dare look~
Oh...well. I'm sorry I interrupted you, then.
Oh no... it's okay... I mean.. I just can't leave...
Oh...well. Yeah. Okay. I kind of asked someone else, anyway. But..only because her date couldn't make it.
~a soft chuckle~ and how would she have felt then if i'd said yes?
I don't know...she hasn't even replied to me asking her. So....and well, she's turning into our date. So..it's a group thing. So, she won't be alone.
Ohh... I see. Hm. well.. much as I'd like to go... yeah... my evening's kind of... booked.
the KRN mouse: -looks puzzled, having to only hear one end of the conversation, and sort of stays quiet a minute trying to figure it out >>-
It's okay...it's very short notice, anyway. The thing...starts like, in half an hour. So...I guess I'll see you....whenever we're back in Tokyo again. I think....maybe Sunday?
Sure... yeah. I can see you then... ^^
Okay..have a good night, then. ~hangs up~
JJ Hero of Korea: ~hangs up~ >>; ~doesn't say anything for a minute~
the KRN mouse: -stares at him a minute- So.. who was that?
JJ Hero of Korea: Kim. >>
the KRN mouse: ...the TRAX Kim? -kind of props himself up on his elbows and looks at jae curiously-
JJ Hero of Korea: ~nods~ yeah... he wanted me to go to some... thing... tonight. with him. a benefit dinner or something
the KRN mouse: -nods, then tilts his head speculatively- hey.. you coulda gone, you know. :o
JJ Hero of Korea: nah... ~lifts one shoulder in a slight shrug before shifting slightly so their bodies overlapped a bit in a reclining fashion, resting the back of his head on Micky's chest~
the KRN mouse: -drapes an arm loosely across Jae's chest, fingers catching feel of the necklace clasped around his neck- ..what's this? -lifts up the chain lightly, to get a better view-
JJ Hero of Korea: what does it look like? ^^ ~ grins slightly~
the KRN mouse: mm.. -rests his chin on jae's shoulder- kind of like an orb or something. and it's got moons on it.
JJ Hero of Korea: or like... a necklace >>? ~small smile~ Yeah... uh. Rose and Kim have this thing... they say im like the moon... heh. ^^;;;
the KRN mouse: the moon, huh? -turns it over a little in his fingers, then let's it go- and how exactly are you like the moon? -curious now-
JJ Hero of Korea: Ah... you'd have to ask them... but Rose is the sun. and Kim says he's a planet >>; he gave it to me. ~the last bit said a bit quicker than the rest~
the KRN mouse: ..Oh. -shifts just slightly so as to stop craning his neck- So if you're the moon, what planet does that make Kim? -asks nonchalantly, in a mere... curious fashion-
JJ Hero of Korea: Ah....~really isn't sure how to answer that one, as there's obviously a bit more to the question than it sounds~ Earth, maybe......
the KRN mouse: Yeah.. -doesn't know really why he asked at all, only that, for some reason.. now the answer kind of gave him a sudden sinking feeling inside- You like orbiting like that? -doesn't really look at him exactly-
JJ Hero of Korea: I... do not... ~/i do not orbit anyone./ the fingers of one hand play with the necklace, the hand forming a fist~
the KRN mouse: -further uprights himself, but only gently so that he still keeps some contact with Jae. he falls silent a moment, the light hum of the sleeping laptop bringing him to speak- ..you never really striked me as the moon.
JJ Hero of Korea: No? Hmm... ~lifts a shoulder~ I think they say that because of like... my temperament... maybe. or the phases. or my looks? Kim sort of decided it... that Rose and I are like the sun and moon... kind of...~something about the mood unsettles him greatly and he shifts so as to make for more contact~
the KRN mouse: -doesn't mind the move for contact and in fact welcomes it, as it was almost missed the moment he'd drawn away- Don't you get dizzy? -leans his head briefly against Jae's and teases him, a flicker of a smile brightening his lightly shadowed features-
JJ Hero of Korea: ~hesitates, wondering what he means~ ...no... ~he sounds unsure, and cleaves to the contact almost a little desperately, suddenly very afraid~ ....maybe... ~his heart was racing and he wasn't even sure why~
the KRN mouse: -senses the tension in an instant and moves to soften his embrace only moments later. silence passes through him like the chill of an unexpected breeze- ..Maybe it's just sometimes. -a way to say you don't have to tell me. his voice was quiet-
JJ Hero of Korea: No... not sometimes... its not... like that... ~not even sure what 'it' is or 'it' isn't, he clings to Micky, wishing his heart would stop racing, his breathing would steady, and that he wasn't trembling. but he was.~
the KRN mouse: -sits up a little, only so that he may slip his arms around Jae's waist - every featherlight tremble vibrating through his quiet hold on him- ..It's okay. breathe.. -he whispers tenderly, slipping a hand up his chest as if to steady the heartbeat if he could-
JJ Hero of Korea: ~clings to him like life support, arms going around his neck as he buried his face against it, eyes squeezed shut. he was silent, but for the slight catch in his breathing. he hated this weakness, shaking like a leaf -- no good reason. something. a trigger?~
the KRN mouse: -arms tighten their hold, as if there were a driving force bent on making Jae feel this way. arrow through the heart. he pushes his hair back from his face, hugging him as close as could be permitted -- wanting to melt away the heartwrenching trembling with his own body warmth- ...shh.. just breathe a minute.. -whispers, fingers running through dark hair soothingly-
JJ Hero of Korea: ~nods slightly against his neck, shaking a little less as the reassuring words and touch registered. he coiled tightly against micky /hesnotgoinganywherecalmdowncalmdowncalmdown/ his breathing was uneven yet though and he struggled to control it, steady it /hesrightthere.right.there.CALM.NOW./ he wondered if he dare test his voice~
the KRN mouse: -hands didn't dare let go. a hand splayed against his back ran smoothly against a lightly trembling spine, the other arm still protectively hooked around his waist- you're okay, Jae.. -reassures softly, giving into the clinging body- ..you're okay.
JJ Hero of Korea: ~gradually, the fear of falling quelled, the need to have an anchor as the whole world seemed to tip and sway catered to by the strong embrace. a soft keening whimper was all that came out when he thought to speak, perhaps offer some kind of explanation -- not that he had one. he fought to focus on the warmth of micky's body, arms wrapped around him, the scent of his skin, anything to ascertain his presence. the tremors that cut through him subsided in degrees, slowly loosening their grip on him~
the KRN mouse: -the trembling he felt descended from its previously intensified state, though their overlapping embrace was not something he would soon pull so readily away from. tension still hung, although a subsided tension, it still presented itself in its gnawing invisibility- ..you don't have to say anything. -and for a moment, he hadn't either.. simply to hold. to be with. to be for. i'll be here until it's gone-
JJ Hero of Korea: ~he'd shook his head 'no' against the curve of micky's neck and shoulder -- he did have to say something, this was no way to respond to perfectly justified questions -- but was steadily calmed by the reassurance. his only desire then was to sleep, perhaps, to close his eyes and open them again and see that he was still there after the lapse. a faint plea issued directly to micky's hearing, near quiet as the silence~ can... can i...i need to... lie down... s- stay... with me...?
the KRN mouse: -it was only then that he pulled away, slow and gentle as if the disconnection would shatter them both. eyes traced the outline of the reflecting two, before a hand moved to brush away a few strands of idly fallen hair. a nod supplied the request- sleep. ..I'll be here when you wake up.
JJ Hero of Korea: ~a slight nod that left his gaze fallen. he shifted so as to recline, laptop quickly moved off the covers as he pulled them back, a brief imploring gaze spared, as he huddled beneath the covers and drew Micky down with him~
the KRN mouse: -a quiet slip beneath the blanketing of bed covers, guardingly pulling close to his body to keep a docile hold on him. even through dreaming. eyes still watchful in the dark -- he wouldn't sleep until he could hear Jae's drowsy breathing-
JJ Hero of Korea: ~curling up against Micky's chest, it was the other's steady breathing and the pulse beneath his fingertips that lulled him to the reprieve of sleep at long last~
| SATURDAY |
I woke up in Yoochun's arms, again, this time on my bunk instead of his. We were both still fully dressed. I haven't slept better in my whole life, than I have this week. I know I'm starting to get attached. It's scary, actually needing someone else for a change. It's been the reverse for so long that I didn't even realize it... until we didn't talk for two weeks and I realized that it was just wrong. We spoke again on New Year's Eve - he found me on the roof where I'd run off to watch the stars. Things are now 'the same, but different'. I hope this is what he wanted too, because it's the best feeling in the world. He makes me giddy @@; WTH? That's just scary ^^;;;
Nevertheless, I spent the day with Rose. I went with him to the temple, and he went in. I waited outside. I wore white. I hope the girl's okay. I hope he's okay. I always hope he's okay though ^^ Over the four (going on 5?) years we've known one another... the urge to protect has only grown stronger. I love him like I love my bandmates. And in some ways, more. But there are many different kinds of love. I know I am blessed to be familiar with them. I have my family to thank for it. They are the good in me. This is the kind of gift a person should use, not let sit on a shelf to look at and polish on occasion. I try to use it as much as I can. There is no finite quantity to it. It's like a mythical thing, ever abundant and eternal. That was way too fruity. >>;
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♥ Life is flying by too fast not to record some of it~
♥ I wouldn't call today a failure. Hard-won success, perhaps.
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| TUESDAY |
It might not have even been hours since they'd turned out the lights with the intention to sleep that a series of excited yips and screams of the Fuzzy variety startled Jae from his sleep.
In Micky's book, hours of sleep did not nearly constitute as what some would call a "good rest"; his body was, in fact, just beginning to cross the line into deep-sleep mode, when a ring of excruciating yelps sent him eyes-wide-open, jumping from sleep and nearly knocking himself unconcious when he smacked his head with a reverberating thud against the ceiling. "OW-- shit!"
A pause of silence followed. "Uhh... you okay up there?" Jae's soft voice filtered up through a break in the yelping, rife with amusement and a note of concern.
A groan was the first response given, one hand holding his head, before Micky verbally confirmed his injury. "...Yeah." He threw the rest of his covers off and then crawled his way to the edge of the bed, peering over. "You wanna kill her or should I?"
"I'll do it." Jae pushed himself up and slid off the bed, fumbling for the light switch with the intent to pulverize (aka pet and calm) the pint sized terror. He quickly found her tangled up in a basket of clothes in the closet. The brilliant creature had apparently decided to seek adventure during the wee hours of the night, forgetting that it -couldn't fucking see-. It lay there tangled up in some shirtsleeves and socks and Jae had to chuckle at the ridiculously cute image. Shivering slightly in a black wifebeater and grey pajama pants he approached with caution. Beady eyes stared back at him as Fuzzy let loose another series of yelps as she inadvertently tangled herself up further in an attempt to get out.
Slanted eyes more squinty now than in their usual, Micky lifted an arm to shield his eyes, as the burst of light from down below gradually lit the room. After a moment of adjusting to the change, Micky grinned a little at the scene and sat atop the ladder, overseeing Operation Calm Fuzzy. "Watch your fingers."
"Thanks." Came a wry reply with a similarly expressive grin. He knelt before the basket and began tugging at the clothes, in hopes to just remove those and eventually leave Fuzzy in the basket... or something. The creature flipped out as soon as it started to become untangled -- much to Jae's chagrin. "Tell me again why we got -this- one?" He sounded mildly exasperated, yet charmed all the same.
"You begged and pleaded, so I couldn't say no." Micky slipped in an innocent grin, dropping his hands in his lap with a mild wince as the less-than-melodic yips started up yet again. "Take that sock over there and shove it in her mouth, willya?" Not that he could do it himself, despite what he'd so nonchalantly instructed Jae to do.
"Nooo!" Jae objected rather girlishly, determined not to have to resort to gag tactics. He finally got the vibrating little ball of fluff detangled and bravely extracted it from the laundry basket. "Heyyy... calm down..." he attempted to soothe Fuzzy's obviously frayed nerves, stroking her fur even as she dug her little claws into his thin shirt. He glanced up at Micky from where he knelt.
From his perch on the upmost rung of the ladder, Micky tilted his head thoughtfully at the two before making his descent from above, crouching down near Jae and petting the top of the tiny fox's head with one finger, in attempt to soothe her frazzled form. Fuzzy's fur was soft and warm, but quivered noticeably in the other boy's arms. "No more late night trips, you." He chided gently. "I don't have enough skull to wake up like that all the time."
Jae smirked, as he continued to pet Fuzzy, standing to bring her over to the bed. He sat down on his bunk and let her cling to him, sharing a somewhat surprised look with Micky as she was perhaps at the calmest she'd ever been. He had to wonder if the fox was just psycho, or if she'd had neglect issues as a child... or something.
Micky caught the look, a light amusement blossoming over his features. "Don't jynx it," he whispered and very carefully took a seat nearby on the bed, very wary of Fuzzy's oh-so-fluctuating moods. "I think the laundry gave her a heart attack." He grinned, glancing at Jae for a moment.
"Yeah and then she decided to share." Jae shook his head. "Now I hope she doesn't fall asleep clamped onto me like this..." He looked mildly worried.
"Maybe we can unhook her.." He mused, taking a good look at the tiny claws latched on to Jae's clothes. "..if she doesn't flip out." Micky silently noted how Fuzzy's two, black beady eyes had the ability to look dangerously threatening and hopelessly cute at the exact same time.
"If she flips out I'm going to get ripped to shreds." Jae noted as he assisted in the unhooking. She watched them warily as she was removed from Jae's shirt and bared her little claws as they tried to set her down on the bed, making evil-looking faces at them. But nonetheless, they'd rescued her and shut her up and now it was time to try and get some sleep again. Jae watched her equally warily as she burrowed under a sheet and staked claim of a portion of his pillow.
Micky suppressed a laugh as he raised an eyebrow at Fuzzy's immediate marking of her territory. "Have fun sleeping with the devil." He looked over at Jae, quite suddenly amused by this fact. "Just don't roll over and you'll be fine."
"Wouldn't be the first time," Jae muttered quietly in reply and then cast a distasteful, mocking glare at his roommate. "Yeah. So long as I don't mistake her for a plushie." He had to snicker at that, despite his own eminent scarring that would follow.
"Ooh, ouch." A visual of the possible mauling that Jae would undergo couldn't help but cross through Micky's mind. "Wait--" Backtrack. "What's that supposed to mean?" He looked curiously over at his roomate.
"...You're a smart guy, you figure it out." Jae made himself comfortable, facedown on his bunk as he dismissed Micky's curiosity -- he'd certainly ruin it if he attempted to be clever. An eye remained trained on Fuzzy, as two glassy little ones remained trained right back on him. A staring contest? A turf war?
Micky cast a sly look at him, though Jae's eyes were far from reachable at the moment, as they were caught in what seemed to be a concentrated staring war with their devil fox. He watched the two for a moment before leaning over Jae's shoulder. "Whatever you do.." he whispers. "Don't. Blink."
Something about Micky's comment made Jae want to throw a tantrum and laugh at the same time. He was insufferable yet hilarious and charming all the same. As he lay on his stomach, watching Fuzzy, and being watched, he spared a halfsecond glance up at him. "Don't hit your head on the way up." Smirk.
As he hovered just over Jae's shoulder, Micky's eyes slipped from Fuzzy's coal-colored stare to slide a glance discreetly over at his roommate. "Don't worry, I learned the first time." He smirks back, then pauses a minute before snapping his fingers just before Jae's wide, unblinking eyes. "Damn, Jae! I told you not to."
Fuzzy promptly opened her toothy maw and clamped down on Micky's hand.
That was one way to wipe that triumphant smirk off his face. "Oww! Fuzzy, get OFF!" Micky tried to pull his hand free, but to no avail; the little fox's razor-sharp teeth were latched on quite nicely to his skin.
"Nice." Jae smirked and watched with big eyes full of devious amusement, lounging comfortably with his head turned to watch the show. "Fuzzy... let go of Micky's hand..." He cooed at the fox, who gave him a look which undoubtedly read 'you don't REALLY want me to do that do you >D'.
Micky scrutinized Jae's expression in a rather conspicuous manner. "Have you been training-- ow! -- her?" A shadowed glare found its way over to the fox. "You're thisclose to becoming a coat, you know that?"
"Don't you start too." Jae rolled his eyes. "Minwoo keeps talking about 'planning a scarf'." He laughed. "Fuzzy. Let. Go." He addressed the animal in a sharper tone and she responded with the most pitiful look ever. Except that with Micky's hand in her mouth it didn't look that pitiful at all. She finally released Micky's hand. "Me? Training her? Nah..." Jae grinned. "You okay there? Rough night, huh?" Smirk.
Much better. Micky retrieved his hand and found a nice array of pinked little teeth marks indented into his skin. "Shut up." He muttered and tried to hide a lighted grin, dragging off Jae's pillow and throwing it at him in mock annoyance.
"Augh! You!" Jae lobbed the pillow back at Micky, getting him in the leg. "Give it baaack." he whined with a grin, sticking an arm out.
Micky tried to dodge the toss back, but failed.. and instead lifted the fluffy thing from the floor and hugged it tightly, eyes just peering over the loose fabric. "Does BooJae need his pillow to go to sleeeep?" He taunted, lips tight with supressing an amused smirk.
"Yes, he does. And that's just weird coming from you." Jae lay with his cheek resting on his forearm. "Yunho's girlfriend told him not to call me that anymore - can you believe that shit?"
He lowered the pillow so that he could see all of the bed. "The fact that she's jealous of you?" He raised both eyebrows and grinned briefly, tossing Jae's pillow back toward him. "It's hilarious."
"I know. He was all perturbed about it too, like he actually took it seriously. Pfft." Jae laughed and caught the pillow, rising up to replace it beneath his head and get comfortable again. "Damn we've been up an hour." He craned his neck, peering at the digital alarm clock on the desk.
"You know Yunho.." He smirked and yawned. "..so protective." Micky turned to take a peek at the clock to which Jae referred to and groaned lightly. "Time to try this sleeping thing again, huh?" Micky balanced on a rung of the wooden ladder and scaled the few more it took to reach his bunk.
"Yeah... protective. Heh." Jae listened for a thunk but heard none so he assumed Micky had gotten into bed without losing any more braincells. He lay there in quiet for awhile, but sleep didn't seem to want to come.
Which was funny, because Micky seemed to suddenly find himself in a similar situation. Head successfully reaching the coolness of his since-abandoned pillow, eyes studied the blank ceiling as if the answer to sleep were written up there with the rest of the dull paint. "Hey..." Pause. "....you sleeping yet?"
"Nn... nuh uh." Jae stared at the far wall, fully awake.
He waited a moment before rolling over to the side for the second time that night and peeking down below. "Can't sleep?" He questioned, arms resting casually over the railing.
"Too awake." Jae turned his gaze upward even as he lay with his head turned to the side, sprawled out on his stomach.
"Yeah.." Micky nodded slowly, wondering why he wouldn't want to just sleep after only a few hours of rest. "Well.." He shrugged casually. "..you can come up here, if you want."
"Yeah?" Jae turned onto his back and gave Micky his full attention. "Gotta slumber party urge, or something?" But the teasing was mild and only a cover, or so it seemed in Jae's head.
He looked down at the other boy. "Maybe." He answered, a slight trace of a grin present in the dark.
Jae sat up. "Hn. Or did Fuzzy scare you and you just can't sleep alone now? Like she'll creep out of the darkness and bite you again?" Jae chuckled as he pulled the covers back, dangling his feet off the side of the bed.
"She loves me, she wouldn't do that." He tried not to laugh. Fuzzy may be cute, but she was a hell of a bitch when she didn't get her way. Especially when Micky was teasing her. "But yes, Jae.. please come up? I'm so scared." He joked - his own cover, if it could be called that. He was the one that asked after all, wasn't he?
"I'll come protect you, don't worry." Shaking his head, Jae grinned, climbing up the short ladder. He stalked up along the mattress, low head room keeping him on all fours. "Watch this thing collapse now." He commented amusedly, in a quiet tone.
"Then Fuzzy will get what's coming to her.." He laughed sheepishly, it being really hard to keep out the images of a flattened fox from his mind. Micky moved a bit to allow Jae crawling room across the sheets. He crossed his arms in a stretch over his head as eyes settled on the other boy.
"Aw no, even if she's evil she doesn't deserve to die... well, not like that at least." Jae snickered, settling beside Micky. "What kind of parents would that make us?" He feigned horror as he adjusted his position, stretching out on his stomach and pillowing crossed arms beneath his head, gaze trained on roommate-turned-bedmate.
"You're right." He turns on his side, opting to rather face Jae than to be craning his neck to look in his direction. He yawns just a little, but miraculously doesn't feel the effects of sleep just yet. He was more preoccupied with other things. "Besides, I heard blood is hard to wash out."
"It is." Jae answered quite knowledgeably, with no intention of elaborating. A quiet smile curved his lips. "So..." he paused, "still scared?"
"Mm.." He pauses a moment. "..Nah." He smiles fleetingly, eyes level with Jae's not more than a foot away. "Maybe a little cold, though." He mused a little more quietly. "You warm on that side of the bunk?" He questioned airily.
"Nn... not so much." Jae shifted a bit closer, close enough to share body heat, an inquisitive gaze trained on Micky.
Micky followed Jae's lead, tentatively scooting a little closer. He toyed around with the idea of closing the space they shared, but had yet to really act on the private suggestion. "..Me neither." He answered slowly, eyes clearly finding Jae's face, as they'd adjusted themselves to the dark by then.
The mild warmth of coinhabiting sleeping space was nothing compared to being this close to another body. There was little hesitation, given the places they'd already gone and been. Jae closed the space between them, slipping lower and letting his head rest below Micky's chin, inhaling the faint trace of his soap mingled with clean cotton and the lingering scent of his cologne clinging to his sheets.
Defining this feeling couldn't quite be limited to simple warmth; not like the flame of a candle or the heat through a house. It was warm like blood through veins, the clasp of cold to hot hands, breathing out in the dead of winter. Different. Micky leaned his head gently against Jae's, one arm draped loosely around the other's waist. "..But that can change." He added, voice having lost some of its volume.
"Mmmhm..." A quiet sound of accord served as response, not more than a gentle purr in Jae's throat. The mellow lull of sleep had begun to creep upon him as soon as Micky's arm had slipped around his waist. How long had it been since he'd fallen asleep in anyone's arms? Far longer than he'd craved that warmth. Never. A soft sigh escaped his lips as he settled comfortably into the somnolent embrace.
Micky breathed a thermal sigh, filtering the warmth through the softness of Jae's hair; eyelids fell featherlight, no struggle keeping them ajar. Sleep replaced energy in a body snug against the other boy's, as limbs fell steady in gentle form. "..Good-night.." One more act for the one falling statuesque, as Micky brushed a kiss against Jae's forehead. Sleep tight.
| WEDNESDAY |
the KRN mouse: -is woken up by no alarm clock, for what seems like onceinhislife and yawns a little, closed eyes putting up a good fight to stay shut- ....Mmnhh.
JJ Hero of Korea: ~stirring a moment later, he instinctively snuggles closer to his lifesize teddy bear. not really aware of who it was--- eyes open immediately. O.O he's staring at micky's nightshirt. his arm is around him. this was... a good thing. ^.^ he makes no move to show that he's awake~
the KRN mouse: -can feel the coolness of the air from behind, and the contrast it makes with the appealing comfiness that he clings to- ..=o=' -yawns again and snuggles into Jae a moment, not wanting to wake up but doing so nonetheless >>- ...Mmg'morning. -opens his eyes and looks sleepily at Jae-
JJ Hero of Korea: fivemoreminutes? ~jae CLUNG~
the KRN mouse: Eh? -yawwwns for the umpteenth time- ..mmk..justfive. -yeahright, he really WANTS and needs his sleep, and so flops back down and against Jae-
JJ Hero of Korea: ~burrows against him~ nn...you're cozy. five may not be enough ~eyes closed, but a smile's blossomed on his lips - one eye cracks open~
the KRN mouse: -nuzzles his hair- Idon'twannawakeup.. -sleepy whine as he grins all dreamlike and blatantly refuses to get up-
JJ Hero of Korea: JJ Hero of Korea: thendont ~snuggles, both arms going around micky's waist to like, keep him from going anywhere if he had plans of that sort >>~
the KRN mouse: mmmokay.. -obviously persuaded easily >>; he snuggles comfortably up to Jae and starts to sink baaaack into a snooze- ....justfiveyep.
JJ Hero of Korea: mmrh. ~purrs all contentedly~ we should...ah.. make a habit of this ~says drowsily~ whatdyathink?
the KRN mouse: Mm....canweplease? -snoozing right up against him, with no intent to wake up anytime soon >>;-
JJ Hero of Korea: yeah... we'll still be sharing in japan so... ah... we can... >> speaking of japan... we gotta catch a plane... ~snuggles against Micky's neck~
the KRN mouse: good... I'm holding you to that.. -continues sleeping nice and warm and content, before his eyes nearly snap open- ..FUCKWEGOTTACATCHAPLANE, Jae! -issodamnedtired.. but WHOA japan-
JJ Hero of Korea: yeah... ijustsaidthat ¬¬ mrrr... damnit... whattimeisit ~.~
the KRN mouse: -whine/groans and reaches over Jae to check the time on the clock- Nnnnnshit.. webettergetup. -flops back down anyway >D ..but keeps his eyes open-
JJ Hero of Korea: ~eyes open as well~ :\ mrrh. you all packed?
the KRN mouse: Sortof. -looks at him- Are you?
JJ Hero of Korea: ofcourseiam ;) and >> what do you mean sortof >>; we gotta be out the door in less than half an hour :x
the KRN mouse: GodIhateflying. >>;;; -rolls awaayyy from Jae, regrettably, and crawls to the ladder to get down and finish his packing-
JJ Hero of Korea: ~gets up too cuz like, no more micky means no more snuggling~ :\
And later that day...
PHONE SEX? GET A GRIP KIMJAEJOONG, THAT IS JUST WEIRD, OKAY? ;O; I need to not be turned on by the fact that I turn others on. Not only is it just plain conceited, but inconvenient as hell when they finish first >/ Augh. What would your mother think? @@; .........I'm not even going to entertain the thought ;O;!
| THURSDAY |
Possessed. I am convinced I was possessed. Hot chocolate, whipped cream, and Kim possessed me. I'm not that promiscuous. What the hell? Climbing in and out of the window, I don't regret. That was fun ^^ What went on in between... well days later I can't even believe it was me @@; Was it me? Yeah it was me. It'll take a long time to get over doing that. ^^ I guess I really had an oral fixation that evening @@;
Looking back, I think we sped right over the cliff's edge that day. But once it's done, you usually... well, die. If you can accept the death, though, together, then there is hope. If not, one soul will be left mourning the other. I hope it isn't like this.
And that night...
the KRN mouse: -wanders in from wherever he was in the house - the NEW house - and stretches before closing the door to his room and heading over to the shared bunk- I don't think I was ever a housewife in my past life.. <<;; -looks over at Jae, before yawning-
JJ Hero of Korea: o.O what makes y'say that? ~is sitting on his bed in nightclothes, filing his nails, of all femmy things to be doing~
the KRN mouse: I really HATE setting up house.. -grins a little, perched up in the middle of the ladder a moment, watching jae file his nails-
JJ Hero of Korea: heh... i must've been one then. i dont mind it. but switching around so much is a pain. ~glances up from what he's doing~
the KRN mouse: you already had me convinced. -jokes, sitting around for a few minutes simply looking on- dude, I'm falling asleep sitting up.. -yawns again- Lights out for me.
JJ Hero of Korea: ~sets the file down~ you want some company? ~asks mildly~
the KRN mouse: -looks at him a minute- Sure. x) -balances on a rung to stretch, then turns and heads up to his bunk, careful not to smack his head >>-
JJ Hero of Korea: ~stretches his legs, and goes to turn off the lights before climbing up after him~ y'know.. i was thinking... what exactly would we say if the others found out?
the KRN mouse: huh. -lays out on his back and waits for his eyes to adjust before seeking out Jae in the dark- ..that you sleepwalk. -grins faintly- then that's your cue to wake up and look very confused.
JJ Hero of Korea: Nah ~grins as well~ I'd say you had nightmares and needed me to protect you. then it'd be -your- cue to wake up and look all scared. ~barring hesitation, he settles close against Micky, in a similar position to the night before, however, he did not slide lower just yet, maintaining his gaze level to Micky's~
the KRN mouse: I don't think waking up with a cold sweat and breathing heavily would really sway their suspicion much. -answers casually, a spark of amusement lighting his eyes in the dark as he visualized the situation in his mind. he turns his head slightly to the side, to find Jae's eyes- though the idea sounds fine to me. -grins-
JJ Hero of Korea: ~slipping his arm around Micky's waist, he closed the space between them, resting his forehead lightly against Micky's~ maybe we can just say that fuzzy threatened to eat us if I didn't give up my bed to her
the KRN mouse: --snuggles into the contact, soon after it's felt- And that's something REALLY believable.
JJ Hero of Korea: more than the other two ideas...yeah. ~says softly, grinning, tightening his hold on Micky's waist a little~ damn... you're so thin... ~his hand splayed lightly over micky's lower back~
the KRN mouse: -runs his hand lightly through Jae's hair, his head against the other's- Yeah.. I dropped a few pounds.. -says slowly-
JJ Hero of Korea: ~strokes his back lightly where his hand rested~ you didnt have much to drop...~isn't pressing the issue, but sounds mildly concerned~
the KRN mouse: That's what I thought.. -the hands are warm against his back, relaxing any muscles that may have been tense from wakefulness. his hands continue their slow, gentle massage through Jae's hair- Maybe it's all the switching around that's gotten to me.
JJ Hero of Korea: ~his eyes close, rather affected by this~ hmn...~a soft exhalation as micky's hands in his hair had begun to make him drowsy~ guess ive got to take better care of you...~his hands still offering a light warm soothing mssage~ and less care of yunho... who seems to have gained what you've lost and then some ~says softly~
the KRN mouse: -laughs softly and presses closer, nuzzling Jae gently and allowing his own eyes to fall closed- I can hear you falling asleep.. -smiles lightly, voice near a whisper-
JJ Hero of Korea: JJ Hero of Korea: can you? ~a faint chuckle~ i can -feel- you falling asleep ~just the slightly flutter of his heart as micky nuzzled closer~
the KRN mouse: Mhmm.. -smiles something faint, a hint of dreamy- ...your voice sluuurrs.. -this comes out in a gentle purr as his hands twirl tiny loops through Jae's hair and around his fingers. he places the most fluttering of kisses just below Jae's hairline, suddenly not being able to help it-
JJ Hero of Korea: ~his heart sped up a little, the light caresses both calming and incendiary~mmheh.... i can feel... the tension unwinding... here. ~a fingertip draws a light line down his spine from mid-back to the small of his back where his palm pressed to his flesh once again~
the KRN mouse: I had tension? -shifts position slightly, if only to cuddle Jae in a better position, one hand sliding gently against the other's hip- ...I might be getting addicted to this... -almost snoozing against him-
JJ Hero of Korea: Mmh.... I... already am ~a soft content sigh as he settled into the shifted position~ And yes... you did... you're thin as a rail... its that much easier to feel....
the KRN mouse: I'll probably gain it back.. -voice drops to a cooed whisper- But you're one to talk. -moves his hand across Jae's waist, breaths quieting-
JJ Hero of Korea: hey...i'm not the one who 'dropped a few pounds'. ~his own voice low and quiet, merely a silky murmur of an echo.~
the KRN mouse: ..they dance us to death. -subconciously wondering how thin he really got.. though, at the moment, too warm and snuggly to care as much as he should- what do you expect?
JJ Hero of Korea: no idea what to expect... yunho dances as much or more than you... and look at him. ~nuzzles against his cheek, eyelids growing heavy with oncoming sleep~
the KRN mouse: maybe then, I should hibernate more.. -voice blanketed in a sleepy tone- ..kind of like this.
JJ Hero of Korea: yeah... ~soft, barely audible -- moments later~ goodnight...
the KRN mouse: mm.. goodnight, jae.. -his voice finally falls silent.. steady breaths taking its place-
| FRIDAY |
I think I have a problem. A real one. This sucks, by the way.
And some things cannot be explained with words. I think I always knew this, but I realized it again.
How am I like the moon?
the KRN mouse: -sitting on Jae's bed, fiddling with the little touch-pad mouse on his laptop >> he scrolls down a list of what seems like an INFINITE number of game links- I'm trying to find a game I can brutally beat you in. -innocent griiiiin-
JJ Hero of Korea: any of them will do... i've never played any of them before :P ~is sprawled out on his stomach, propped up on his elbows, chin in his hand~
the KRN mouse: -scrolls down the page, finding the slime volleyball link and clinking on it, waiting for it to load- okay.. you use these keys. -taps them- and you're playing volleyball. -end vague description >> lies down on his stomach beside jae- got it?
JJ Hero of Korea: Umm... nope but I'm sure I'll catch on xD just start the game up :x ~leans up against Micky a bit~
the KRN mouse: -kinda shimmies nearer to him and lets the game load up- you're red, by the way. -game starts and a ball falls into the screen, micky's character hitting it over the "net"-
JJ Hero of Korea: ~mashes at keys randomly in attempts to play and actually manages to get it back over the net~ ooh this isn't that hard ~famous last words~
the KRN mouse: -grins slyly as he sends the ball JUST slightly over in attempt to make Jae go all buttonmash crazy and miss- see how well you learn?
JJ Hero of Korea: ~flops facedown on the mattress~ yes. very well ~gets up~ lets try again >>
the KRN mouse: ooh, can't be missing those Jae. -tsks, antagonizing, and serves the ball over again-
JJ Hero of Korea: ~misses~ vv;;;;;
the KRN mouse: -snort- XDD;; eyyyee on the ball. -serves yet agaaiiin-
JJ Hero of Korea: ~misses!~ dammit >/ i suck at this.
the KRN mouse: maybe if you stopped.. -imitates his key mashing and accidentally starts the game, missing a ball- ...>___>;;; uh.
JJ Hero of Korea: XD very nice. ~phone rings~ >> ~he pulls it out of his pocket and looks at the caller id, flipping it open ~
the KRN mouse: -pauses the game and kind of rolls over, watching as jae picks up the call-
JJ Hero of Korea: ~leans up against him, as he answers it~
Mm...hello?
Hey, Jae....
Kim... Hi. What's up?
Mmmm. Not much. We're in Tokyo. Going to some...benefit dinner, or something that Yoshiki's having.
Ohhh. reallly... thats cool...
Yeahhh...I was wondering...if you're not busy...would you like to go? I know it's going to be horribly boring.
Ah... I'm kind of busy right now...
the KRN mouse: -raises an eyebrow, really tempted to annoy Jae while he's on the phone, as it doesn't seem too drop-dead important a call >D-
JJ Hero of Korea: ~gives him a you-wouldn't-dare look~
Oh...well. I'm sorry I interrupted you, then.
Oh no... it's okay... I mean.. I just can't leave...
Oh...well. Yeah. Okay. I kind of asked someone else, anyway. But..only because her date couldn't make it.
~a soft chuckle~ and how would she have felt then if i'd said yes?
I don't know...she hasn't even replied to me asking her. So....and well, she's turning into our date. So..it's a group thing. So, she won't be alone.
Ohh... I see. Hm. well.. much as I'd like to go... yeah... my evening's kind of... booked.
the KRN mouse: -looks puzzled, having to only hear one end of the conversation, and sort of stays quiet a minute trying to figure it out >>-
It's okay...it's very short notice, anyway. The thing...starts like, in half an hour. So...I guess I'll see you....whenever we're back in Tokyo again. I think....maybe Sunday?
Sure... yeah. I can see you then... ^^
Okay..have a good night, then. ~hangs up~
JJ Hero of Korea: ~hangs up~ >>; ~doesn't say anything for a minute~
the KRN mouse: -stares at him a minute- So.. who was that?
JJ Hero of Korea: Kim. >>
the KRN mouse: ...the TRAX Kim? -kind of props himself up on his elbows and looks at jae curiously-
JJ Hero of Korea: ~nods~ yeah... he wanted me to go to some... thing... tonight. with him. a benefit dinner or something
the KRN mouse: -nods, then tilts his head speculatively- hey.. you coulda gone, you know. :o
JJ Hero of Korea: nah... ~lifts one shoulder in a slight shrug before shifting slightly so their bodies overlapped a bit in a reclining fashion, resting the back of his head on Micky's chest~
the KRN mouse: -drapes an arm loosely across Jae's chest, fingers catching feel of the necklace clasped around his neck- ..what's this? -lifts up the chain lightly, to get a better view-
JJ Hero of Korea: what does it look like? ^^ ~ grins slightly~
the KRN mouse: mm.. -rests his chin on jae's shoulder- kind of like an orb or something. and it's got moons on it.
JJ Hero of Korea: or like... a necklace >>? ~small smile~ Yeah... uh. Rose and Kim have this thing... they say im like the moon... heh. ^^;;;
the KRN mouse: the moon, huh? -turns it over a little in his fingers, then let's it go- and how exactly are you like the moon? -curious now-
JJ Hero of Korea: Ah... you'd have to ask them... but Rose is the sun. and Kim says he's a planet >>; he gave it to me. ~the last bit said a bit quicker than the rest~
the KRN mouse: ..Oh. -shifts just slightly so as to stop craning his neck- So if you're the moon, what planet does that make Kim? -asks nonchalantly, in a mere... curious fashion-
JJ Hero of Korea: Ah....~really isn't sure how to answer that one, as there's obviously a bit more to the question than it sounds~ Earth, maybe......
the KRN mouse: Yeah.. -doesn't know really why he asked at all, only that, for some reason.. now the answer kind of gave him a sudden sinking feeling inside- You like orbiting like that? -doesn't really look at him exactly-
JJ Hero of Korea: I... do not... ~/i do not orbit anyone./ the fingers of one hand play with the necklace, the hand forming a fist~
the KRN mouse: -further uprights himself, but only gently so that he still keeps some contact with Jae. he falls silent a moment, the light hum of the sleeping laptop bringing him to speak- ..you never really striked me as the moon.
JJ Hero of Korea: No? Hmm... ~lifts a shoulder~ I think they say that because of like... my temperament... maybe. or the phases. or my looks? Kim sort of decided it... that Rose and I are like the sun and moon... kind of...~something about the mood unsettles him greatly and he shifts so as to make for more contact~
the KRN mouse: -doesn't mind the move for contact and in fact welcomes it, as it was almost missed the moment he'd drawn away- Don't you get dizzy? -leans his head briefly against Jae's and teases him, a flicker of a smile brightening his lightly shadowed features-
JJ Hero of Korea: ~hesitates, wondering what he means~ ...no... ~he sounds unsure, and cleaves to the contact almost a little desperately, suddenly very afraid~ ....maybe... ~his heart was racing and he wasn't even sure why~
the KRN mouse: -senses the tension in an instant and moves to soften his embrace only moments later. silence passes through him like the chill of an unexpected breeze- ..Maybe it's just sometimes. -a way to say you don't have to tell me. his voice was quiet-
JJ Hero of Korea: No... not sometimes... its not... like that... ~not even sure what 'it' is or 'it' isn't, he clings to Micky, wishing his heart would stop racing, his breathing would steady, and that he wasn't trembling. but he was.~
the KRN mouse: -sits up a little, only so that he may slip his arms around Jae's waist - every featherlight tremble vibrating through his quiet hold on him- ..It's okay. breathe.. -he whispers tenderly, slipping a hand up his chest as if to steady the heartbeat if he could-
JJ Hero of Korea: ~clings to him like life support, arms going around his neck as he buried his face against it, eyes squeezed shut. he was silent, but for the slight catch in his breathing. he hated this weakness, shaking like a leaf -- no good reason. something. a trigger?~
the KRN mouse: -arms tighten their hold, as if there were a driving force bent on making Jae feel this way. arrow through the heart. he pushes his hair back from his face, hugging him as close as could be permitted -- wanting to melt away the heartwrenching trembling with his own body warmth- ...shh.. just breathe a minute.. -whispers, fingers running through dark hair soothingly-
JJ Hero of Korea: ~nods slightly against his neck, shaking a little less as the reassuring words and touch registered. he coiled tightly against micky /hesnotgoinganywherecalmdowncalmdowncalmdown/ his breathing was uneven yet though and he struggled to control it, steady it /hesrightthere.right.there.CALM.NOW./ he wondered if he dare test his voice~
the KRN mouse: -hands didn't dare let go. a hand splayed against his back ran smoothly against a lightly trembling spine, the other arm still protectively hooked around his waist- you're okay, Jae.. -reassures softly, giving into the clinging body- ..you're okay.
JJ Hero of Korea: ~gradually, the fear of falling quelled, the need to have an anchor as the whole world seemed to tip and sway catered to by the strong embrace. a soft keening whimper was all that came out when he thought to speak, perhaps offer some kind of explanation -- not that he had one. he fought to focus on the warmth of micky's body, arms wrapped around him, the scent of his skin, anything to ascertain his presence. the tremors that cut through him subsided in degrees, slowly loosening their grip on him~
the KRN mouse: -the trembling he felt descended from its previously intensified state, though their overlapping embrace was not something he would soon pull so readily away from. tension still hung, although a subsided tension, it still presented itself in its gnawing invisibility- ..you don't have to say anything. -and for a moment, he hadn't either.. simply to hold. to be with. to be for. i'll be here until it's gone-
JJ Hero of Korea: ~he'd shook his head 'no' against the curve of micky's neck and shoulder -- he did have to say something, this was no way to respond to perfectly justified questions -- but was steadily calmed by the reassurance. his only desire then was to sleep, perhaps, to close his eyes and open them again and see that he was still there after the lapse. a faint plea issued directly to micky's hearing, near quiet as the silence~ can... can i...i need to... lie down... s- stay... with me...?
the KRN mouse: -it was only then that he pulled away, slow and gentle as if the disconnection would shatter them both. eyes traced the outline of the reflecting two, before a hand moved to brush away a few strands of idly fallen hair. a nod supplied the request- sleep. ..I'll be here when you wake up.
JJ Hero of Korea: ~a slight nod that left his gaze fallen. he shifted so as to recline, laptop quickly moved off the covers as he pulled them back, a brief imploring gaze spared, as he huddled beneath the covers and drew Micky down with him~
the KRN mouse: -a quiet slip beneath the blanketing of bed covers, guardingly pulling close to his body to keep a docile hold on him. even through dreaming. eyes still watchful in the dark -- he wouldn't sleep until he could hear Jae's drowsy breathing-
JJ Hero of Korea: ~curling up against Micky's chest, it was the other's steady breathing and the pulse beneath his fingertips that lulled him to the reprieve of sleep at long last~
| SATURDAY |
I woke up in Yoochun's arms, again, this time on my bunk instead of his. We were both still fully dressed. I haven't slept better in my whole life, than I have this week. I know I'm starting to get attached. It's scary, actually needing someone else for a change. It's been the reverse for so long that I didn't even realize it... until we didn't talk for two weeks and I realized that it was just wrong. We spoke again on New Year's Eve - he found me on the roof where I'd run off to watch the stars. Things are now 'the same, but different'. I hope this is what he wanted too, because it's the best feeling in the world. He makes me giddy @@; WTH? That's just scary ^^;;;
Nevertheless, I spent the day with Rose. I went with him to the temple, and he went in. I waited outside. I wore white. I hope the girl's okay. I hope he's okay. I always hope he's okay though ^^ Over the four (going on 5?) years we've known one another... the urge to protect has only grown stronger. I love him like I love my bandmates. And in some ways, more. But there are many different kinds of love. I know I am blessed to be familiar with them. I have my family to thank for it. They are the good in me. This is the kind of gift a person should use, not let sit on a shelf to look at and polish on occasion. I try to use it as much as I can. There is no finite quantity to it. It's like a mythical thing, ever abundant and eternal. That was way too fruity. >>;
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