Musings (frantic ones)

[narlyenatvanya]

Been a while since I've written here. Probably no one reads any more, but I need to write this down somewhere and my physical journal is for dreams, so this is as good a place as any.

I've been kind of slow and hesitant and scared about searching/applying for jobs and masters programs. Part of it is that I'm still SO confused about what the hell I

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[unsuitenedt]

*HUGS

[narlyenatvanya]

*hug*

Thanks for the encouragement! I'm hoping things get decided soon so that I can start moving forward.

[crantz]

<3

Well, I seem to recall that yon Hina likes to learn, so maybe a school break is what you need. Even if it lasts three years.

[3mileislandr]

I agree! Learning is never a bad thing and I'm actually a bit terrified of being done with school at some point and not having the wonderful breaks in a day it provides.

Besides, since when is 29 to late to start a job/career? I know several people in my nursing class that are almost or over 40. One woman is over 50 and still in.

You're never to old to make a new decision about doing something in life. Besides, I remember reading/hearing something that says our generation is likely to have 3-5 (actual) jobs as a minimum in our lifetime as opposed to the choosing a career that was still prominent even 15-20 years ago.

[narlyenatvanya]

That's true. I've missed school pretty much since we graduated from Trinity.

In my head, I know 29's not late to start stuff, but when I don't have anything (job prospects, master's, a proper life of my own), it kind of feels late. It feels like I'll be putting my life on hold until I graduate (I know that's not the case, but that's the dread seeping in) and things won't actually start happening until I'm almost thirty...

The 3-5 jobs thing I've heard, too, but that's something that also scares me. I don't want to have to go back for another master's degree later in life because I find I want to change my field, you know? It's like I've wasted years and money doing one thing and then decide I want something else and it's just... a tiny bit nonsensical to me, if that's what will be required to change careers.

[limeiyu]

you and I are kindred souls. I thought about going back to school but I kept thinking I already did the 4 year thing and I feel it would be waste if I didn't do something with it first. Although by my experience the piece of paper doesn't have much clout against experience. Everyone these days ask for at least a year's worth of experience.

I like doing all different kinds of things. I wish they would just let us work in all different professions without the added "it is frowned upon"

My coworker mentioned turning 22 and called himself old and I started laughing. He thought I was like 18 or something

Anyway, we should just move somewhere else and then find a job. j/k

BTW how do you major in equine because that sounds really cool

[jaiden_s]

I'm still here. *waves*

What about a night program? That way you could intern or work during the day and take classes in the evening. I did that...worked at my uni during the week and took classes at night and on weekends for two years. It's a good way to get experience and an education at the same time.

And for the record, I was 35 before I knew what I wanted to do. :P

[narlyenatvanya]

*wavewave*

Yeah, that's an option. When I apply for programs, I'm going to see about working at the school and/or as research or teaching assistants so I can make some money while I study...

What did you discover when you found what you wanted to do?

[jaiden_s]

It was a progression, really. I went to grad school to get a M.ED. in higher ed administration and worked for a college in student services for three years. Terrible pay and even worse hours. I hated it. I took a job basically as a lowly assistant in the Attorney General's office and discovered that I really liked working with legislators and drafting bills. After two years of that, I interviewed for and got a job as a lobbyist, which I LOVED. Now, I'm a legislative policy analyst, and it's the best fit ever...but it took me going through all of that stuff I hated to find where I fit in.

[lirimaer]

But you're wonderful and I'm sure you can do whatever you want, once you decide what that is. Be confident. I adore you.

[narlyenatvanya]

Thank you, my dear. I'm trying. <3

[agenda]

I read!

Lots of people stay in school and don't get "real jobs" until later, so that's not a bad thing. Also, you are not old. If you were 40, I might consider you to be old.

[narlyenatvanya]

Heh, I know I'm not old. It's just that feeling that you get when, 'oh GOD what have I been doing with myself ALL THIS TIME?' and it feels like so much time has been wasted and if I'd only done this years ago... It's just that point where I'm kicking myself and going, 'I could have been done and started on something already.'