My dear livejournal friends, I have to tell you that I am leaving livejournal. It's become clear to me that there are some people with whom I had contact over the net (I don't mean you) which I prefer to leave alone now so that they don't know what I am doing and that I can forget them and that they can forget me. I will miss you all much and give ( Read more... )

If you read this and you are a christian, please say a prayer for me. I am in a struggle, with myself, and with a bad spirit that had overtaken me yesterday. I feel so crude, so hasty, so much without patience and peace. I just feel out of order, out of harmony. So much disturbs me, the hot wheather, people, my memory. I was in church today and for ( Read more... )

I've been visiting a home for the elderly yesterday, to see an old man who has become my friend. While I was with him in the park, I also met an old lady again. We came to talk a little ( Read more... )

I guess I can't explain this to other people, but I just want to leave it here as a message. Indira, if you read this, please stop following me and trying to decipher what I talk about. You will never receive something that you can't get to know from the bible, and in a better way there than here. Anytime I write something bigger or more ( Read more... )

I just got the thought that when we find a lie of the devil, and think about what God told us before, and then know where the devil lied, we can have reinforced believe in what God told us and in how He is ( Read more... )

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Since Tuesday evening I am back in Dresden, after a long stay with my parents for my mother's birthday on July 4th. It was very relaxing, there was a certain freshness of the athmosphere that I hadn't felt at my parents' house for a long time. I always feared it's all so dark there, though I guess it never was as long as I know the place. On Monday ( Read more... )

This is a very good day. I am very much at peace and full of calmth. I owe this especially to Jelena, my good friend and hopefully, soon, new girlfriend. We're already in love, but we're both trying to be cautious and not make promises of which we can't be certain. But I am starting to see something precious in this relationship. With her, I can be ( Read more... )

These days I'm thinking of how I should not expect more of myself than I can fulfill. To really strive for humility - even though this seems like an impossible idea, to strive for humility, I mean, as it seems like an integral character quality, not like an achievable quality. On the other hand, I have already become much more humbe than I used to ( Read more... )

I still have trouble trying to conform myself to what I have understood. I had been reading in CS Lewis' book "Mere Christianity", and Lewis there says that faith is also a virtue, in the sense of it meaning to cling to what reason has seen. I'm really not one of those anymore who think that reason is an enemy to the faith. Rather, reason helps us ( Read more... )