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[nartthefart]

oh my god, i have no purpose or drive or direction, my degree is worthless and so probably am i, how can i spend my entire life looking down on secretaries and end up with it being THE ONLY THING I CAN DO and how do people actually get good jobs and why do i care about one suddenly and probably it is because it is just the beginning of the new year

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[so_many_candles]

Egad kitten, jobs are a weird breed, but fear not, there is no rush to make a career for oneself, even though like myself, you totally don't care about having a 'career'. Just apply to loads of jobs, and then quit if they're shit. I want to try laboratory work, but I'm fully prepared it may be dire, and so I'll just quit and find something else. THERE IS NO PRESSURE.

Stupid new years.

Also, would you REALLY want to have to relive the high school years?

brunette I think would be cool, in stages though? You could get some smashing maroon/purple colours going en route.

[nartthefart]

i hated school, so i suppose the fact alone that i miss it is worrying. it's just freedom from responsibility i miss really. i am not digging this limbo anymore.

[nartthefart]

i guess it's just i'm thinking about going into a permanent role instead of temping, and then i *can* get more of a wage but only if i stay for a few years, and once those few years are gone i will probably just stay because a career change would take a lot of work & extra studying, and whatever i studied to do they would doubt my commitment to it since i spent ages fannying around clerking and secretarying. as it is now, if i applied for a Proper Job, i think they would just be like "why have you just been doing fuck all career-wise for the past couple of years, where was your career plan" and i will be like "..."

[nartthefart]

I AM NOT YOUNG I NEED TO BE PLAYING THE DOCTOR IN ONLY 4 YEARS' TIME. OR SOMETHING SIMILARLY AMAZING.

>_<

I think I'm just in anxiety-mode, I spent an hour in bed this morning after I woke up just worrying about housing/ band stuffs. Neither of which I can do anything about at the moment. Gah.

[nartthefart]

Won't, I obviously should have been more of a member of the university and got involved with the paper/ radio like i always meant to. OGODS.

But yes, you make one (only one) good point, which is that i only just graduated and am not expected to have done anything. because i've been working throughout my entire degree, i forget that i'm only just expected to have started work. in my head/actuality i started work 3 years ago.

i am very up for pubbing and my diarrhoe is unusually full (it being the beginning of a year, it hasn't had time to fill up yet). not sure if i can stomach a "my future" talk (had enough from my mother over christmas) but i would like to see your nice face :) x

[nartthefart]

by which, i meant *unusually empty

8-)