Just babbling
I've just broke another of my own record, being away from anything ghei-related materials (i.e. novels, manga, drama, tv series) for a grand total of 6 days. Yes, that is a feat for someone like me who breathe, eat and live ghei. The 1st few days were easy; I was preoccupied during the days and when nights came around I was tired to my bones. But to my surprise, I was plagued with fucking romantic dreams involving my past crushes where I should be so conked out I would have dreamless sleep. Anyway, I forgot what I dreamt about, which is good, because I'm not someone who entertain romantic thoughts about people in my RL. I guess, it's just my brain's way of compensating for the lack of visual stimulation to produce endorphin.
So, now that I'm back with internet access; which I very much looked forward to from yesterday but also made me feel apprehensive at the same time. Why the latter? It's because I'm trying to limit my waking hours spent in fantasy land. Seriously, I mean before you know it, RL may past you by, which is a very bad case. Also, while I can watch queer_as_folk with internet access, I feel melancholy at the state of Brian's and Justin's relationship. They do not have happy ending like the rest of the characters in the show and it's killing me (I'm a sucker for HEA ending!!!). And to make matters worse, I still never see the so called ending scene for them, although I've read and memorise the summary from wiki. *HUGE SIGH* I'm totally tormented. And it's really stupid considering the series ended in 2005. I should scream to myself, "Get a hold of yourself and MOVE ON!" But fuck it's hard to do.
And so, besides being chased by the ghosts of Brian and Justin, I'm also reliving the various scenes involving myriads pairings from the many novels I've shoved into my brain in a month's time. To delay the inevitable (me jumping straight into reading novels to the exclusion of others), I've a week's worth of updates to keep up, do some room-keeping, shower, eat, etc to do.
So, now that I'm back with internet access; which I very much looked forward to from yesterday but also made me feel apprehensive at the same time. Why the latter? It's because I'm trying to limit my waking hours spent in fantasy land. Seriously, I mean before you know it, RL may past you by, which is a very bad case. Also, while I can watch queer_as_folk with internet access, I feel melancholy at the state of Brian's and Justin's relationship. They do not have happy ending like the rest of the characters in the show and it's killing me (I'm a sucker for HEA ending!!!). And to make matters worse, I still never see the so called ending scene for them, although I've read and memorise the summary from wiki. *HUGE SIGH* I'm totally tormented. And it's really stupid considering the series ended in 2005. I should scream to myself, "Get a hold of yourself and MOVE ON!" But fuck it's hard to do.
And so, besides being chased by the ghosts of Brian and Justin, I'm also reliving the various scenes involving myriads pairings from the many novels I've shoved into my brain in a month's time. To delay the inevitable (me jumping straight into reading novels to the exclusion of others), I've a week's worth of updates to keep up, do some room-keeping, shower, eat, etc to do.