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[natashababushka]

I'm burning the candle at all ends trying to bring some extra income into this house. Jim WILL NOT get a second job to make ends meet. NO NO NO. The other night he was talking about picking up some seasonal night work at UPS and the thought made my stomach turn. I'm still finishing the real estate class and I hope that starts yielding some

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[kitkatkaboodle]

i absolutely agree that honesty is the way to go. even if they try to cover it up. YOU have an honesty policy with YOUR KID, you know? and i know it's often easier said than done but you are fierce, A, and i have mucho faith in you.

but yeah, part of my reluctance to go after noah's dad is that he would turn shit around on me in a heartbeat. i'm not prepared for that.

i miss you! i think i told you that yesterday in my journal but i'm saying it again. what are good phone talking times for you?

[natashababushka]

Phone time this weekend is great. And late weekday evenings, but aren't you beat by then, too?

I have zero fear of James being able to turn shit on me. I mean none. I feel like I've parented honestly and responsibly, and he's such a mess that even if I hadn't, I'd be the lesser of two evils, ya know? I think what I meant (provided you were talking about this?) when I said that Jim and I might be in a world of shit, is that if attention is brought to problem drinking, well K truly has no reference of his dad as a drinker. But he certainly sees Jim and I have wine and beer. So if Kaleb's father is in rehab for problem drinking and my boy's never even witnessed his father have a drink, can you imagine the lectures my five year old is gonna start doling out?!

Gah!

Thanks for reinforcing the honesty thing. He IS my kid. And I shouldn't have to change my parental politics for their big huge mess. I just have to keep thinking about age-appropriate explanations.

Love you. Call!

[kitkatkaboodle]

we''ll be out of range of any kind of cellphone this weekend. do you have the same number i used to have for you? we may just need to try calling each other until we hit success ;)