Also, Yesterday i took a nap and had a dream i was a Kuala. Kind of like Banjo Kazooie. Sept I was Kuala and bumble bee. It was like a video game where i am in the game and my mom is telling me where to go like from the clouds or something. I was walking up this steep hill and i thought oh yeah.. this is where the old folks live.. the hill is for ( Read more... )

Soo pretty much my dad is nuts.. he is pissed off at my mom for not cleaning the house... aka doing the dishes and letting my brothers and there friends trash the house.... and then leaving.. that he took a garbage bag and through all the dishes in it... i tried to stop him but he yelled at me. Joe jsut stood there... probably beacuse he need a ( Read more... )

Ahhhdfkgjdfgl I'm really angry right now. Chelsey and some girls at lunch planned a Girls night for thursday (tonight) at my house. Because my parents don't care about anything.. and are not even hear most of the time. SO anyway. I can't get a hold of chelsey anywhere...... and she's the one who planned all this crap. So i dont know wahts going on ( Read more... )

Soo this weekend was ok. Friday i hung out with chelsey right after school until saturday morning. She had a tanning appointment right after school. As does everyone. Everyone is tanning at the moment. At least all my friends who were like... "stupid orange girls" Yeeaaah. To bad in acouple months i will go for prom. Ya know. Gotta make the dress ( Read more... )

Well while i wait for my laundry to finish up i can put it in the dryer.. i'll just type a bunch fo useless crap. Soo Valentines day was yesterday. Felt like a a pretty typical nomal day. I woke up.. went to school for about 2 hours. My parents picked me up way early for my Psychiatrist appt. at 2. Soo i missed class that i promised someone i'd be ( Read more... )

Soo pretty much i'm pissed off right now. What else is new right? I'm just not in a very good mood today. And i want to kill someone. I'm about to just splurge all my money that i have in the bank to pay all this shit off so i don't have to worry about it anymore. Sooo that's yearbook 40...i need to call about a scholarship for Senior Night... I ( Read more... )

I think pretty much i just need to vent. Overall i had a pretty good day. I mean nothing bad happened. By my mind is driving me crazy. Like i can't even stand it anymore. All i do is bring myself down. I seriously can't go 2 hours without bringing myself down for one thing or another. I don't know. I just want to make my life perfect for me. But i ( Read more... )

Here we are again. I only write in this to avoid talking to people about whats on my mind. I've found lately that i shouldn't say what i'm thinking all the time. I sound sooo stupid or like a crazy person. I feel like i'm close to hitting rock bottom again. I can feeeeel it. Like today in draw/paint some girls and i were talking about hitting rock ( Read more... )

I know it's really stupid but i'm still pissed about it. All my friends parents secretly made their solutes to congradulate them on being so successful and proud of them. We don't have the money for salutes... idk.. what makes me sad is that.. i have to make the page of all the other graduates solutes from their parents... and i'm not even in it. I ( Read more... )

So this semester pretty much SUUUUUUUUUUCKED some things were cool. But all in all.. next semester will be better. I'm going to transform it. No more being depressed over stupid shit. No more trying to impress guys for attention (it obviously DOES NOT work) Go to school... Do my own thing.. chances are.. i won't see ANY of these people ever again ( Read more... )