So- my new neighbor right... i had a dream about him last night lol. It was sooo weird. Ok, so we were walking home from something and i was like.. hey! can i come over? with umm err uh.. bad intentions. ;-) and he was like.. yeah.. sure! (his dad doesnt allow girls over his house ever) and so i went into his house and it was dark outside. I was ( Read more... )

I had a weird dream last night ( Read more... )

Sooo, its saturday night.... time for more complaining... you know.. im glad only like 3 people have access to this journal thing... because frankly.. if the people i talk about read this... hmm that would suck. Sooo right now im going to vent on how much i hate nikki and james right now. I might not even finish... because i'll be crying and not ( Read more... )

So, after james asked me if i would be mad if he went to homecoming with nikki and i lied and said no. I eventually told him the truth the next morning (this morning after first period) I told him exactly how i felt and how hurt i would acutally be and the reason i suggested he and nikki go. Then right after... he asked nikki to go with him? Well ( Read more... )

Sooo im supposed to be writing a paper for my colleg writing class but i am soooo freakin tired i cant even think of what to write. I am like.. dying.. i dont know how nikki does what she does. So i weighed myself for the first time in a while and found i am getting fatter. YAY! ohhh weellll i dont even care anymore... i dont care about anything ( Read more... )

Last night and this morning... i deleted Zack. I deleted him off my cell phone, my home phone, and my aim list but i have yet to delete those emails. I know that if i do... i could be more set free. But im not completely sure so i dont want to. Not until i have someone to replace them. Then i will be ok. I don't feel that bad right now... but im ( Read more... )

Hmm, so im feeling very blank today. I bought new sweats and a hoodie last night at target and slept in them last night. WOW my sleep was amazing.. i do not remember my dreams or anything but i know that i woke up in the exact position i fell a sleep in. Same today when i took a nap. It was nice. Well i have to go paint a room next door. So i'll ( Read more... )

So today was the college fair ( Read more... )

Soo.. zack just signed on about 30 mins ago... and then signed off... i hate that... i feel like i should delete him off of EVERYTHING... because then i wont always be waiting.. but thats just it.. i will still be waiting. Hopeing, wishing, waiting. It wont stop by deleteing him. It will only make me more miserable. I cant stand it. I need to move ( Read more... )

So- i think this is a record of writing this many days in a row. But lately.. i've just been complaining about everything and figured this is the best way to get it out. Since writing is supposed to be theraputic, right? I wonder what i would be like if i never decided to write in journals or online journals... how much therapy i would acutally ( Read more... )