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To a Freaking Better Life!
I liked life better when the boy was all I cried over.
I mean, it was horrible, and I never again want to bawl my eyes out into a blue towel, alone, at night, with a bottle of GSM Blue and no ice. But it wasn't life. I mean, there were other things, and even though it was hard to get on with them, there were other things in life if you get what ( Read more... ) -
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You can't hang up a sign on your door saying "I don't want to because I don't feel like being alive right now."
There are days, just days (or weeks) when I really, really, really hate what I've gotten into.
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"I didn't think..."
"That is obvious."
I don't know if you'll remember that a couple of years back, I got this henna tattoo of a dragon wreathed in flame on my back. It was awesome for all of, oh, one night, because when I got home I continued having the fever I ignored in order to go to the U.P. fair (where I got said tattoo), and I slept fitfully and smudged the dragon and stained ( Read more... ) -
Deeds of the day.
Today I...- Woke up early. (Early for me, that is. Around 6:30, though it should have been 5.)
- Went through my belly dance-exercise-routine thingy.
- Went to work.
- Cast a polyacrylamide gel.
- Bought coffee that I thought was ridiculously overpriced until I felt its kick.
- Ran SDS-polyacrylamide electrophoresis.
- Had my decrepit lab notebook re-bound.
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- Woke up early. (Early for me, that is. Around 6:30, though it should have been 5.)
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Bad Project
This looks so much like my life right now. Though technically I am working on the project for money and not for a degree, because I am a grad student in another institute. And the project itself isn't bad, it's the circumstances surrounding it that make life difficult, actually.
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I don't like the person I'm becoming here.
I didn't do well at the start, and then I blamed everything on myself and broke.
And then I stopped blaming myself (entirely) but then I started bitching about everything else.
And then Ma'am asked me for proof positive that I have been working productively before she allowed the release of my salary ( ( Read more... ) -
Knockturn Alley.
I've found that I like staying in the lab overnight. I feel more comfortable, and it's very liberating, having the entire night to do your experiments. Granted, a lot of it is spent in a freezing cold room (it's the chromatography set-up -- it has to be cold, and sudden bursts of room temperature air gusting into the cold cabinet would cause ( Read more... ) -
I shouldn't be doing this but...
I broke out my Get Backers DVD. And I started watching. And I can't stop smiling.
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Lost the original entry, bugger.
This was a much longer entry. But either LJ or my internet connection went crazy when I clicked "Post to nathir_twinsoul" and I couldn't load the LJ site for quite a while. Ans when it finally came back my long post disappeared. I now believe that I am not meant to post happy entries. Oh well. Here's a bit of what was left ( Read more... ) -
Resolve.
My blog has become such a depressing place. Which I suppose isn't really surprising, since life hasn't exactly been peaches and cream. But I am determined to make it better. *nods* Since I can't leave or anything. Not yet anyway. And also since running away will only confirm that I am a weak-willed, hypocritical coward of a milksop without an ( Read more... )