it gets really bad when i keep my thoughts and insecurities to myself for so long because once i finally acknowledge them, all that i have are a bunch of intense feelings that really hold no truth. i don't think you understand how glad i am that we talked. you confronted me with the issue of the future...and i've decided that next year we'll be ( Read more... )

"fuck".
interperet it as you please.

lately i've been feeling very alone...and for some reason this compels me to push people away completely....leaving me in an state of utter isolation. i really weird myself out when i start to analyze everything. i honestly think that i'm my own worst enemy because i ultimately bring myself down. i want a fresh start, this amazing new beginning ( Read more... )

today was another slap in the face.

i'm really confused about things right now.

i honestly don't know what to do...i'm in such an awful position right now. i'm out of over $400 worth of my possessions, which is upsetting, but not nearly as upsetting as the fact that the situation has become so out of hand. i don't want anyone to go to jail or juvy, that's freaking crazy....i just freaking want my ipod and things back. theft ( Read more... )

today was by far one of the most relaxing days that i've experienced in so long. i feel rejuvinated or something of that nature. summer will do some good for me. i hope that everyone else had a great spring break and i'm excited to see everyone soon. love.

they say that ignorance is bliss, but i beg to differ. i've played the role of ignorance, and i never felt that so called bliss. last night i wore that old t-shirt to bed. i found it folded neatly in my bedroom draw. it had lost your smell and found its own. the smell told me that it had been in that drawer for longer than it had seemed and it was ( Read more... )

Happy birthday Mayuko!!! I love you hunny!!! I wish I could be with you to celebrate!! Hope you have a great day!

damn those blue eyes....

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