there was nowhere else to put this..
its a strange feeling in that moment after you act without thinking
i never assumed i wouldnt or couldnt, but i enver reeally believed that i COULD do it
never dreamed that i would have the.. chance? misforturn? i dont knw. but when it happened, i acted and then it was done
strange how instantly the thought dawns, and then sinks in.. REALLY sinks in.. and it wont go awy..
theres no way ro forget. even after tehy tell you over and over that there was nothing else you could have done..
it was you or them
all the queestions asked. all the reassurances. its just with you. all the time. awake. asleep. its there. all i can remember is the feeling in my hands. one minute its a someone.. the next just a thing.. almost imediatly cold..
them.
or.
you.
maybe the wrong choice.
i never assumed i wouldnt or couldnt, but i enver reeally believed that i COULD do it
never dreamed that i would have the.. chance? misforturn? i dont knw. but when it happened, i acted and then it was done
strange how instantly the thought dawns, and then sinks in.. REALLY sinks in.. and it wont go awy..
theres no way ro forget. even after tehy tell you over and over that there was nothing else you could have done..
it was you or them
all the queestions asked. all the reassurances. its just with you. all the time. awake. asleep. its there. all i can remember is the feeling in my hands. one minute its a someone.. the next just a thing.. almost imediatly cold..
them.
or.
you.
maybe the wrong choice.