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[naturallysilver]

 Ryou - are you okay?

I don't know what to do. He's working himself to death. I know that those at the club are hazing him but he just pushes it aside as something that happens to everyone. He won't talk to me about it. I mention living together and he skirts around the issue. I don't know what to do...

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[mprfct_shiku]

Club? What kind of club is it?

[naturallysilver]

he's got an internship at a club - he won't tell me much about it though. It's like he doesn't want me to know. That and his job at the cinema has taken up a lot of time too. Maybe I'm just a jealous boyfriend...

[mprfct_shiku]

It doesn't sound like you're jealous to me... Worried is more like it. Which is understandable since he hasn't been saying anything to you. Although some jealousy could be in there... cause you want to spend more time with him.

[naturallysilver]

Yeah, I'm worried. I do the worried thing well. I mean, is there a reason he won't talk to me.

Maybe I need to talk to Oprah or Dr. Phil....

Private to Saeki

[dr_sushi]

... Want me to beat him over the head and make him take care of himself? I'll talk to him about the moving issue since there's no reason for him to be skirting around that issue. I'll talk to him and find out about what's going on with work.

Private to Sushi

[naturallysilver]

Could you? I just wish he would talk to me. Maybe he doesn't want to live with me...

Private to Sae

[dr_sushi]

I will. I don't think it's that he doesn't want to live with you. I think he's just screwed up in general. I'll talk to him and convince him to talk to you.

Private to 'sushi

[naturallysilver]

He's avoided the conversation about living with me. I mean, if he doesn't want to that's alright - I just want him to tell me.

Private to Koujirou

[senseiseiichi]

Koujirou, have you thought that perhaps Ryou's trying to work through it himself? My theory is that it has nothing to do with your relationship; he simply doesn't want anyone to step in to help him. I see this happen all the time.

Private to Seiichi

[naturallysilver]

So I am supposed to just say nothing and let him shut me out? When I do see him he looks so tired, so lost. He tries to say nothing is wrong but the last time I checked I wasn't stupid.

*sighs* Fine, I'll just let him do what he feels is best. I can't do anything else.

Private to Koujirou

[senseiseiichi]

...You have no idea how many times I've heard that.

Speaking as a counselor, I'm advising you to once again, wait. Too much pestering and he's going to retaliate, and you don't want that to affect your relationship. Unless there's any sort of sign of physical abuse or mental trauma, wait.

Speaking as a friend-I've been in Ryou's situation more times than I can count. When something is a problem, I try all avenues before calling someone in to help. Yes, people do see my condition deteriorate-but the more people ask what's wrong (yes, this includes my boyfriend), the angrier I get. I work on my own schedule when it comes to admitting problems; I have a very strong feeling that Ryou does the same.

Even though you wouldn't think it was a sign of weakness if he admitted he's having a tough time and needed some help, Ryou will. When he sorts out his personal demons, he'll come to you-and probably love you all the more for not pushing the issue.

...And that went on much longer than I expected. Good luck, Koujirou.

Private to Seiichi

[naturallysilver]

Nice to know that my feelings are so common, Seiichi. That there is nothing unusual about feeling like the person I love most in this world is trying to avoid me. That he's being harrassed at his internship and that I can't do a damned thing about it. That he doesn't want to be around me or talk to me or....heaven forbid, even think of living with me.

I'll give him space and time even though my heart is breaking. Of course that doesn't matter

Thanks for listening, Yukimura-san.

Private to Saeki

[psych_shinji]

I wish I knew what to say. *sighs* Sometimes...we try to hide the bad things from the people we love, so we don't appear weak to those we want to seem the strongest to. That could be why he's skirting the moving issue, too, because then he'd *have* to let you see it.

Ryou's the one with all the answers, sadly.

Private to Ibu-kun

[naturallysilver]

He has the answers but he won't tell me them. It's like he's pulling himself away from me, Shinji.

It hurts.

Private to Saeki

[psych_shinji]

*sighs* The retreat thing. Speaking from personal experience, it never works for long.

It know it hurts, Saeki. Believe me, I do. And I wish I could give you the answers to make it make sense, and to make it *stop* hurting. I will tell you this, though. I know...he's been reluctant to tell you things because he thinks you have enough to deal with already, things that are are more important than his problems. Let him know how important he is. Maybe it'll help some.

[k_ryou]

Other than bare awake, I'm fine. Just... tired, and not ready to face today.

I know I said this already, but do you have Tuesday night free? I missed you this last week, and I'd like to spend some time with you, if I can.

I love you (because I'm an idiot and hit post before I told you last time).

[naturallysilver]

You need to get more rest, Ry-kun.

I'm free Tuesday - and any time you need me. You only have to say the word.

Love you too

[k_ryou]

Hopefully this week won't be as bad. As one of only a few people not sick at work, I had to pick up the slack. And then Kirihara bailed....

But it shouldn't be so bad this week, and my schedule has changed, so I get home earlier at least on two nights. And still every other Friday off.

And I am doing something about the internship. It's just... going slowly, because I didn't have the time I thought I would last week. I promise. I'll keep you updated.