I don't care...

[natureboy87]

You ever really not care anymore? That is the point where I am at right now with things. Not anything in my career just with some things I used to enjoy. I just really don't care anymore and I can't articulate this to my future spouse at all. The apathy has taken hold and I don't even care that she knows...maybe not even wanting her to know. This

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[fb_sheex]

This is how I pretty much have been my whole life, so I certainly know how it feels. I've always been a very solitude-oriented person because of it with tertiary sociability, as I don't really connect with others on what I consider any deep level - certainly not in a way others have described they do, at least. Top it off with a lack of passion for anything (and a seeming inability to develop any) and it's definitely something of a rut. Unfortunately, I have no idea how to fix your problem, as I'm still working on mine - 21+ years and counting. :/

Good luck regardless - hang in there! Keep things in moderation and don't push yourself so much that you burn out.

[natureboy87]

Well, now we can relate to each other about no relating to people...paradox!

I just had to do that but on a serious note, yeah it definitely is a different feeling. I really feel like just diving into my work and not coming up for a great while. The only one who I feel actually cares is my mom who activlely shows interest into what I am doing.

As bad as this sounds, my fiance barely talk anymore about anything really because I think she doesn't care. I actively pursue her interests but there feels no other connection besides this and that it is one sided. Ugh...man when the shit hits the fan...

[fb_sheex]

Yeah, the business has been good to keep my mind off things, so that's how I've been able to manage it well. The times it grates on me are kept to a minimum, so it's become "just a part of life" so to speak.

I'm really sorry to hear that about your fiance, though. That's horrible and I wish I could help. Have you two had a chance to sit down and talk about it? You may be showing all the stress you're going through right now, and her response may be to want to give you space. I'm not very keen on these matters so I really can't say, but I've always found sitting down and discussing problems is the best way to try to smooth out relationship troubles. I hope you're just in a lull and can smooth things about soon. :)