FRIENDS ONLY

Be sure to know that all your feelings are mutual. I love you in my own damaged way as a friend and as a lover, and I hope you know that. You were also keeping me sane in the summer, just so you know. I don't know what would have happened if I had not woken up with you next to me from time to time. Don't feel bad about not "giving much in return", ( Read more... )

out of town boy junior high school party just 14 vodka drinks things i don’t remember vodka drinks english beat she said will you remember

said i’ll never forget you the next day in the hall at school you told me you were a state-hurdler you told everyone i was easy never saw you again

you left me a secret ripped stockings passed out bloody legs ( Read more... )

i have a diagnosed eating disorder: ed-nos, with bulimic, restricting, and compulsive overeating tendencies, and a history of laxative and diet pill abuse. in the ten years i've lived with it, i've had weight fluctuations of 40+ pounds, my hair and eyelashes have fallen out, i've developed chronic problems with my electrolyte levels as a result of ( Read more... )

You're a strong motherfucker. Stay motivated. Get posi, get pissed. Do what you need to do. Ill see you soon. I care about you. Miss you.

when i asked if you thought i was crazy, you said maybe you are. but so are all the good ones.

i'm so sorry for not being able to make you happy, for not being able to keep you in this world. i am alone and i miss you and all i have is melatonin and a knife and my scarred arms and legs. it is not enough. it will never be enough.

i love you, somehow. i tried not to.

i closed my eyes to avoid meeting your gaze as you fucked me harder and harder - i said it’s just a crush; i said this is funmy heart is on lockdown. i throw away the key ( Read more... )

i am so incredibly fucking self-centered. grow the fuck up.

you're so perfect it hurts to look at you.

"I am a few years older now and I know this: There are tastes of mouths I could not have lived without; there are times I’ve pretended it was just about the sex because I couldn’t stand the way my heart was about to burst with happiness and awe and I couldn’t be that vulnerable, not again, not with this one. That waiting to have someone’s stolen ( Read more... )