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[naturesgift]

i want to slit my wrists. okay i dont actually want to do it. i just needed to write that. ive beeen feeling so violent lately. as in i know i wont ever be able to carry out acts of violence, but within this one week ive gone through every possible emotions the book. recieving my brotherz email informing me that my family was falling apart quite

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[bombay_agent]

hmmmm. well in the case that your having family issues. it's good thing you're coming back. although you may not be able to do anything about it, atleast later you won't hold yourself responsible for not trying. Maybe one day you'll find yourself in Japan again, but I feel at this point you still have too much to accomplish in life in order to appreciate and be content with your situation there. Maybe the thing is that you need to regroup and come to terms with the ugliness of life. it is the hardest thing to ever do. however, i feel like the nigh perfect world you have in Japan is likely to become imperfect if you're feeling staid or anxious about other things. A part of me wants you to stay there because you're so happy and respected. however, i don't know for how long you could live off of the praises and confidence of others before you realize you need it in yourself. that is what i think you will develop if you go back to school and embark on your own path. japan was a glimpse into what you can truly have anywhere once you find