When i was younger, I had a recurring nightmare ( Read more... )

i am hanging out with my old crew again......a lot. i am no longer bored, no longer lonely. I am exhausted from drinking and have physical aches all over my body, but life is fun. I still feel empty because of the impact that my last relationship had on me. I have nobody to blame but myself, because i put so much of my soul into one person that ( Read more... )

Good God my life is a mess. Don't even know where to start cleaning.

people come and go; some are more important than others, some leave an emotional scar, and some leave an impact that makes your life better. It seems all the people that have come and gone throughout my lifetime always leave an impact and i believe that every one has made my life better in some way. Whether it be to teach me the art of ( Read more... )

Dear Kevin ( Read more... )

Looking to find people of worth in my life. Being repeatedly disappointed, like always. Shaina is good to me. Everyone else, suck a fucking cock

It's Christmas day. May all have a merry, carefree day to relax and enjoy the real meaning of family. I find myself without a family this year, but am feeling a new closeness to annette. A good friend, regardless of the petty things that happen with my love life ( Read more... )

This livejournal hosts nothing more than an abundance of dreary, whiny, and insignificant details to what i believe are the problems of my life. Albeit 90-95% of them are about one person, there's still an idea of a hopeful reformation regarding this canvas. I can clean it up, and make things more optimistic, but i realized that this is my life in ( Read more... )

You know, just the fact that i know when you don't pick up your phone on a wednesday night you're with him repulses me. Up to that point i can just sleep off, or forget about by playing a game, or chainsmoking. But i guess he knows annette on a friendly basis now and that repulses me more (from the both of you). I don't think i'll ever forget about ( Read more... )

i dont think you like me in the same way you used to. I remember you used to consider everything i'd say as so important. I feel played out now, and my words don't really affect you. I have to peek over your phone to talk to you because what i say is not important. And maybe it isnt important, but i just want your attention. I want you to notice me ( Read more... )