It seems ironic that after so many laps, so many days of burning lungs, so many exhilarating victories and crushing defeats, after so many practices where i thought i would die, the thing that actually kills me giving it up. Quitting gives me a little relief, but it is the kind that you get when you've failed so you can now stop trying. Part of ( Read more... )

10 is how many days until Jew sex ( Read more... )

Assertion: I suck at life.  I should quit.

Clarification:  I have failed everything I have tried to do recently.

Proof:

Peer support:

• I was not elected coordinator. 
• No one listens to me when I try and organize the skits.

Basketball:

• I dread going to practice everyday and yet I still go.
• I very much want to continue this pain and worry next ( Read more... )

so today was the first two hour basketball practice. it wasn't horrific ( Read more... )

I officially suck. It's settled. I want to thank Mme Shield for helping me come to this conclusion. Damn school. i spent like eight hours on the OC website just to piss of the institution formerly known as high school.

SUN: 1                                  JESS: 0


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so, i think that i didn't receive a parking spot. i didn't think that was possible as a senior. Everyoen got their spot confirmations but me. I get home today thinking that it would be in the mail, but lucky me, the mail wasn't delivered today. my mailman is trying to upset me. that'll suck if i have to try and make someone else drive me.

so i'm going biking in the wilderness to show my mom how much i love her. Why couldn't i just treat her to a manicure? oh well. i got thrown out of a basketball game yesterday. you think i'm hardcore, but i promptly ran outside and started crying. Such bullshit. after the whistle blew a girl from simi valley highschool jumped on me. i rolled ( Read more... )

yesterday went as follows:

4.5 hour calc AP.  On the least fo things i want to do again, it comes just after shattering my ankle and then having to get down the mountain.  It was hell and my calculator decided to have a mental breakdown.  or maybe that was me.

Doctor's appointment.  ME: i'd like to be on depo-provera so that i only have to do it ( Read more... )

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