so the good thing is that i've started to feel again. it merely took a simple thing said by a good friend to switch off to on. i must have cried for a half an hour, room enclosed in darkness by these hideous 80s deco drapes. that brief moment i spent feeling sorry for myself and wondering how in the hell i ended up here. then, on a whim, i went ( Read more... )

trevor left for good saturday night. it's weird when these things happen, people you've known intimately or in some off-the-cuff manner packing up their things, loading up a navy neon, and readying themselves for yet another pitstop on the nomadic ramble known as one's early twenties. really, very odd, to see the things that make up a life zipped ( Read more... )

which means: bbq, otter pops, watermelon, summer king and queen, circle swings, and a whole lot of beach boys. god i love summer. last night i saw the starlight mints and made a new friend. this morning i finished reading lolita in tehran. i know this sounds ridiculous but i think that people should do their best to try to read it this summer. puts ( Read more... )

These are the songs I have tried not to sing, the things I have failed to say. I lay awake some nights, composing letters that I will never set to type. Constantly revised, they flutter at the back of my mind, filing themselves away the moment dreams melt into deep sleep ( Read more... )

is it strange to hear the word exquisite? sometimes it is, to me. like this: "the sun shines exquisitely" and it does. at least, today it does. so even if it's true, it still sounds odd. and the extravagance of the mountains pulling up their white, snowy skirts to girlishly reveal green ankles and brand new pink bloomers almost kills me, it's so ( Read more... )

mostly news from home makes me depressed. but at least, as my brother in law pointed out, we know that if my family had a reality tv show the ratings would be very very high ( Read more... )

of course and thank god it wasn't the same. last time when we were both in philadelphia walking down dirty sidewalks with two other good friends acting as bookends to our hooked-elbowed selves, everything seemed to be moving too fast and too slow. heartache set in with panic after awhile, tears dripped off my nose, and i stood aimless and deflated ( Read more... )

right now i'm taking care of a sick child, feeding him fruit snacks one by one and watching jay-jay the airplane. we just watched the two cats fight and got a dinosaur out of the cage though, so it's not all kick back and relax. so far, trip highlights ( Read more... )

He was good. I miss him. How is that six months of my life can be summed up in those two sentences? I can still feel the quiet after-midnight conversations had while lying on our stomachs in front of my bookcase and fireplace. Hours and hours, days and days. Months. All passed. Summer happened. August came and went with BBQs, bike rides, ( Read more... )

i said let’s go to the amphitheatre and he said okay. and i’m happy we went because it’s perhaps my favorite place in this city, not only because of dave and co. or scary stories, or sunbathing but because it’s beautiful. dark, serene, deliciously creepy if you’re too quiet or too alone, just completely reminiscent of something older and firmer ( Read more... )