A few minutes ago, I removed Ashley's sn from my friends list, since we have drifted so much. She then IMed me and said that that is "not a friendly to do." I replied by saying that she had not been a good friend to me lately, and she said that she hopes I have a nice life. That's it.
And, I suppose, I'm now out of her life forever. I guess I feel ( Read more... )

I totally want to start a ska band. That would be sooooo fun! Is anyone down (looks at Audri)? Come on!

Culverpalooza is coming up on Friday and Saturday. I hope I can play; I'm grounded since I'm failing AP English, and there's a chance that my folks aren't going to let me perform. That isn't so bad for me; I perform enough as it is. I just hate to let other people down, like Audri, Jessie, Hilary, Joy, and Josiah, who are counting on me to be able ( Read more... )

It's been a little while since I last updated...been pretty busy, mostly with homework and rehearsal. It feels so good to be finished with Bat Boy, and I look forward to finishing Culverpalooza and having time to reflect on the state of my life. I'm still pretty depressed, but I'm working on it...

I haven't updated in a while, so here's what going on with me:
1. Ashley and I are over, for good. Oh well. It had to come some time, I guess. Which means...
2. I'm available, which is good news for...anyone? Me, I guess. Woo-hoo. I'm such a codependant, to quote Ashley; I really need someone. So, if you know anyone, for the love of God, tell me.
3. I ( Read more... )

Last night, Ashley said that she wants us to be "friends". I'm sad about that for a number of reasons:
1. I still feel strongly for her, and i know she doesn't feel the same way towards me. Love needs to be reciprocal, or else feelings get hurt;
2. I feel like we had something special, and I worry that I might not be in a relationship like that for a ( Read more... )

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I feel like shit. I have no one. I have nothing. I am a complete and utter codependant, with nobody there for me like they need to be. Whatever. I don't even know why I care so much anymore.