warning: super long post about paint colors...

[nbjones]

I have officially decided that I am going to paint my room! I'm excited because I need a change AND its so risky. I don't remember what the lease says and I can't find it, but I am assuming I am not allowed to do such things...at least not without talking to my landlord about it, to which I am sure they'd refuse to let me anyway. I basically don't

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[harmonies]

Maybe go with the dark pink curtains and a soothing green color for the walls? Nothing too dark or your room'll feel super-small.

[nbjones]

yeah, i thought about that, too. my room isn't super big and i should be careful of dark colors for that reason. good thinking!

[nbjones]

i might..... i love the orange. idk yet

[sweet_tiff4prez]

I like pink and I like your room.
what apartment is this again?

I remember you telling me you broke cell phones. I had times I felt like breaking mine but I dont have the guts lol.

[nbjones]

i thought about painting it a nicer and slightly darker shade of pink to make it a little more vibrant...then going with the dark pink curtains, which i LOVE.

i live in an old building built in 1930... i like such places so i haven't moved. hardwood floors, mostly original light fixtures, old scary elevator that does still work... its vintage and fabulous!

yeah... i've broken many things and worse beyond that. its not about guts... i'm sorta crazy and so its inevitable. :D

[sweet_tiff4prez]

yeah ive had so much anger before (mainly before I took wellbutrin) but for some reason I prevent myself from breaking them . I dont know how.

I have thrown things though

[nbjones]

i'm over alllll of the medications i've been on over the past 12 years. its nice to be able to at least try to control my own anger/depression/anxiety and its always a challenge but i've found a lot comes from maturity, trial and error. i've dealt with this forever and its here to stay so i try to learn what sets me off/makes me cry/makes me unable to breathe/panic (although, its usually not triggered by anything logical anyway) and learn to control it... i just hate how i feel on medication. i do/say less ridiculous things when on it, but i also don't feel in control of any of my emotions or actions...which sounds ironic. i feel like a shell. can't cry or break things or feel anything. i'd rather be a maniac in some ways! but some of my insane reactions are because of my crappy genetic predisposition and some are just because i am a nut either way.

but i'm glad you've found something that works well for you! you're lucky...and hopefully you won't have to take it forever.