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[neal_011088]

GOD DAMNIT I HATE BEING SUCH A SELF DEPRECATING FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT...................

I DON"T FUCKING DESERVE ANY OF THIS............

FUCK...........

Comments

[steph_lee]

Are you okay???

[neal_011088]

yeah I'm alright, just being all moody and whatnot. I hate being so paranoid all the damned time. I can't help fearing that I'll lose what I've got, anyone would, and I can't help thinking I don't deserve what I've got after whats happened in the past.

I'm still new to this whole having an actual relationship thing and I'm afraid something will go wrong and I'll be right back where I was a couple of months ago. Actually I know if anything did happen I would be worse off than I was then. But once I get all of this college stuff sorted out, and get done with high school I'll be able to be comfortable again, thank god for Kendra, shes the only thing keeping me from going insane right now.

[steph_lee]

what? anal sex with kendra?? huh?

[neal_011088]

Haha funny...go fuck yourself moron.