I wish Anakin could give some of his 99 lives to Tishan
Anakin is flying though his lives having survived pancreas, liver and gall bladder failure this summer. It's been a really tough summer getting him healthy again, feeding and medicating him through a feeding tube until he decided to throw it up one day and then pull it out the next! He is doing really well now but he fought me every step of the way and made keeping him alive so very difficult. Daily I was making deals with myself, if the results are this, I will put him down today. And all along I had my mother telling me I had to give him a chance and it was killing me to feel like I had come to terms with putting a 5 year old cat to sleep and then the next day deciding to give him one more day and then going through it all over again for like a FREAKING MONTH. I guess it was worth it because he is totally back to his old self again. Aria said after his experience he is no longer Anakin and I have to call him Darth Vader!
Tishan on the other hand had hyperthyroid, high blood pressure, kidney failure, heart problems and now cancer. The poor little thing is just falling apart. I have been giving her IV fluids for a few months and she is still completely dehydrated. She is still eating but that's because of the hyperthyroidism. I think as soon as she stops eating I will know. She has been peeing all over the house for the past week. The good thing is that since her kidneys don't work it doesn't actually smell like anything but still I have to believe that is her way of telling me that things are worse than they were a few weeks ago. She has no other way of telling me and when cats pee outside their boxes it's a pretty clear indicator of something. She is still going to the litter box so I don't think it is because she can't control it, or maybe she can't always get there in time. So I have an appointment tomorrow at 6:30 with my vet. I do feel like it's time but I HATE IT. I don't want her to be in pain and I can't imagine she isn't with everything that is wrong with her body. She is 8 lbs now instead of 13 and 2 of that is fluids in her stomach because of the cancer. I am so terrified of it being Saturday night and her deteriorating and seeing her in pain and having to wait until Monday morning because I don't want to do it at the Emergency Vet where I already can't stand their customer service and then I'd have to drive myself 20 minutes home. I made an appointment 2 weeks ago and cancelled that one at the last minute because my neighbor said, 'she doesn't look great but she doesn't look that bad' There is always the chance I will talk myself out of it but I called my vet at noon today and my vet was leaving early today so they scheduled it for tomorrow so I've had all day to change my mind and I think she is ready. FUCK!
Anakin with his lion haircut
Tishan and Cashel cuddling a few days ago
Tishan last night