so that crazy doctor my doctor sent me to had told me to do all these excercises like all day long. so even though i was like "ha! yeah! that's gonna happen when i can't even stand up for long!" i tried my best anyways ( Read more... )

i have no faith in the human race whatsoever any longer. this mostly includes biomedical M.D.'s and people that one calls "friend".

have a nice life, world. cause i'm soooo done with your bullshit.

"fine. i'll fix it myself."

pulling strings, having such a simple 30 second plan and then - nothing. this is so important to me ______ , why can't you understand that? and why must we always resort to pointless anger ( Read more... )

let me see ( Read more... )

got a grey sky and a warm rain blowing from the southwest ( Read more... )

so Gary and I had our first big fight and then our first big reconciliation. done in a very loving and clam fashion. so i feel much better now about that. i hate being angry at people ( Read more... )

no more bars until thursday. yup ( Read more... )

once upon a time there was a little cracker ( Read more... )

so i'm drinking my morning coffee a while ago, smoking my morning cigarette, my father watching the military and senate making excuses for the disgusting and medieval tortures thrust upon prisoners of war in the middle east. rape, beating, slashing and thrashing etc.... photos of naked bodies in a heaping pile in a less than humane cell reminiscent ( Read more... )

have you ever wanted to smack yourself for getting so caught up in your stupid life, which in my case is nothing special anyways, and actually forgetting about the fact that your long term and close friend had recently slashed the shit out of themself? yeah ( Read more... )