The sex, the drugs and the complications.

[necrocute]

For years myself and everyone around me would have described my emotional state as depressed/down/misreable. Secretly I would admit that I was also full of anger, pain and rage, but these emotions were the ones no one ever saw

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[deerskindoll]

In fact I get worse hallucinations/dellusions etc when I don't take my anti-depressants.
I wonder if the same is true for me. I've always taken my antidepressants and antipsychotics together, or right now I'm just taking my antipsychotics. I quit cold-turkey on both a little bit ago and yeah, I couldn't really cope.

I totally understand what you mean about conflict. That is my primary emotion right now, as well. Although, the circumstances are different a bit. I'm coming to really understand and identify myself as a lesbian, yet I still want to be a good, devout Christian -- a Catholic in particular (and I hope to someday be baptized as such). So yeah, as you can imagine, the conflict is really overwhelming... :/

[necrocute]

My housemate is in a similar situation, except she wants to come 'out' and her mum's the catholic...oodles of not fun! Actually that's not really that similar.

At least you have some understanding of yourself, that's a good starting point,.

[deerskindoll]

No, I wouldn't say it's that similar. In some ways I'm glad I wasn't raised Catholic, but that I've made the educated choice myself. My parents are pretty indifferent to religion and will likely be pretty accepting when I tell then.

[necrocute]

Your words are wise. Unfortunatly I have nothing worthy of a reply to them to say :(

[lord_maahes]

I know I don't know you very well, but I have found over time that sometimes the conflict lies, at least in part, in the labels. Take all the labels away and lay your beliefs out before you. Then strip those beliefs down; take away everything derived from something someone in one of those labels thinks you ought to be, and leave the rest. It doesn't matter how much they conflict with those labels. Now, look at everything that you stripped away and see if any of those things are really things you think you should be and group them to the side of the stripped down group. The stripped down group is your uninfluenced values. The group to the side of them is your shared values. All that was stripped away are your influenced values. It is up to you how you reintegrate.

[necrocute]

Thanks for your wise words.