so I just, five seconds ago, had a massive rant about everything...but...I just deleted it...because I realized that none of what I had said in it mattered to anyone but me. So, I guess for anyone besides myself that reads this journal....for three days during new years while I was sick, I came to all the realizations that I needed to come to... ( Read more... )

...confirmed. From July 7th to July 17th Alex and I will be exploring the wonderous sites of the Highlands of Scotland and a bit of Northern England. The itinerary for the trip which I gratefully came across on my Harry Potter news site Mugglenet, is grossly awesome...between that...tasting the many libations of Brittain, rubbing elbows with the ( Read more... )

So Alex and I have booked our spots...9 days in Europe...just waiting on the confirmation...though I'm rather sure it's a done deal seeing as I talked to the tour management this morning...w00t!

So I took some time to myself for a few weeks to sort out a bunch of things for the coming new year, and when I finally got in touch with my friends I joked and said I had been in Scotland. Well turns out, I really AM going to Scotland. On the cheap too. I'm taking a Harry Potter tour of Scotland and northern England in July that takes a car train ( Read more... )

it's almost three a.m. and I should be way asleep by now. my sleep pattern has been off for a long time now. I can't ever sleep enough, even if I get a ton of sleep. I'm tired. for a while I thought it was just not getting enough sleep, or something else that I was or was not doing that was making me so tired. lately, I'm not so sure that's it. I'm ( Read more... )

that time of year again. comes around fast these days. I was out last Friday with some folks from high school, Vern was playing out and stuff...it was also a small party for Megan. When she and I were dancing, she was telling me how she was feeling old; just turned 28, has a kid/s (not sure it was hard to hear), was married and is divorced...it got ( Read more... )

so I've worked on a few new pieces today, well, besides doing my laundry and watching two awesome specials on National Geographic on twisters (I can't wait to storm chase)...it started off working on a piece Jeff and Jason gave me. I started messing around with it this morning and I spawned my own idea from it. It isn't even remotely in the same ( Read more... )

When I've played from my mind, I get in trouble. - Stevie Ray Vaughan

-"Why'd you leave?"
"Problems with a male."
-"Boyfriend?"
"Kind of."
-"You left him, just like that?"
"It's the only way to leave. I don't love you anymore, goodbye."
-"Supposing you do still love them."
"You don't leave."
-"You've never left someone you still loved?"
"No."

I really don't ever put anything important in this journal...at least I haven't for a long time. A lot of trivial things, things that keep me occupied, help me to forget, keep me from thinking about the things that really bother me. I can't rise above my insecurities that makes me weak. Being weak, makes me mad ( Read more... )