I want to know just what it is that makes YOU think that I am so fucking easily pliable, that manipulation of shape by threat works on me? I must just act to mild and girly around you, because I am not that fucking easy. And I have news for you, trying to scare me, you’ve only pissed me off and I don’t know which reaction is going to be worse, my ( Read more... )

My life, you electrify my life ( Read more... )

I can't sleep and I am coming up empty. It helps sometimes to rant but I can't find the bottom and there fore I have no place to start. If I could just begin but then I'd likely frighten you off any way. I'll never make the grade, however ragged the fight has gotten me, hope still lies fairly intact that I will possibly get credit for trying one of ( Read more... )

Days are really getting away from me. This new job keeps me insanely busy, my brain is storming out a tropical despression well on its way to hurricane but mostly all on work related things, as a matter of a fact its almost washed out my personal life. What I call my "personal life" is an excuse compared to most's anyway and not that I party or ( Read more... )

I spent most of today on the road. I ended up going to Georgia, zooming around Brunswick and the Golden Isles, St. Simon’s, Kingsland and Woodbine. Everybody I talked to there was like “Oh you worked for Bedrosians? You know our rep from there, Melissa?” She is so sweet. She doesn’t know shit about tile but her looks take her a long way, she would ( Read more... )

Ich bin verloren, so bin ich grausam, aber ich würde Liebe und Süsse sein wenn ich dich hatte.

Ich warte, ich schmerze für dich.

Ich glaubte deinen Augen meine Seele küssen, ich schmerze für dich.

...you must not turn to it for comfort, enmity, that is. For it is exactly as it feels, just let its hand slide ( Read more... )

Haujobb is on tour! WHY aren’t they coming any closer to me?!?!?!? Son of a bitch don’t they know it’s the law to at least hit Miami or Tampa when touring the states, same to Front Line Assembly who is back on tour, if I hadn’t seen them already once in the last twelve months then I would bitch a lot more. But, ooooooh how I love Haujobb and the ( Read more... )

...breaking the waves.

I came to post but I drew a blank, its asylum I seek, in a structure more concrete and I'm not going to find it here in this thing with any amount of words. Just killing time as peacefully as possible. Longs days, you know.

My little brother turned 18 on Friday, oh my god…how crazy, it really just blows my mind. We had him a surprise birthday dinner two weeks ago after VNV and that was a blast. Then Friday my mom and I bought him a shit load of new clothes and shoes and a belt and then I gave him Year Zero. Saturday we had a family dinner at a seafood restaurant which ( Read more... )