[fic] Leaving
Leaving
Glee
Blaine / Kurt
PG
When Kurt goes, Blaine doesn't cry. He doesn't fight or scream or plea. He smiles sadly and says, that's great, Kurt, and he's only half lying. Because Kurt is doing what Blaine never could. He's fighting back. He's facing his demons. And if the cost is the "they" that he and Blaine have become, well, courage wasn't always without its downsides, now was it?
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When Kurt whispers you could come with me as he pulls away from their kiss (their goodbye kiss), Blaine doesn’t say anything. He couldn’t. Can’t. Won’t. Blaine doesn’t have the fight in him that Kurt has, doesn’t have that unerring spark, that courage. Blaine is a coward. He knows this, but he can’t bring himself to say it out loud (and that makes him feels like even more of a coward), so instead he pretends not to hear and leans in for another kiss.
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When Blaine’s father tells him no, he doesn’t protest. It was stupid to think that he could, he knows. Foolish to even imagine it might have worked out. His father isn’t yelling - never yells - but his looking at him with that face, the one that says, oh, it’s okay, this is just a phase, don’t you know, and he’s going on about how no son of his will throw his education away on some boy. Blaine wants to scream. Scream and shout and throw things and tell his father no, no it’s not just some phase about some boy, it’s about much more. It’s about standing up for himself for once. It’s about being who he is without having to hide under a blazer and a tie and a zero tolerance policy. But instead he just nods and lowers his gaze and later, when the house is quiet, leaves, closing the door silently behind him.
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When Blaine shows up on Kurt’s doorstep, he’s wet and cold and shaking (but not from the rain).
And when Kurt opens the door, eyes wide and confused, Blaine chokes on the words in his throat.
And when Kurt just pulls him close and answers the question that was never asked, murmuring you can stay here as long as you need, Blaine cries.
Glee
Blaine / Kurt
PG
When Kurt goes, Blaine doesn't cry. He doesn't fight or scream or plea. He smiles sadly and says, that's great, Kurt, and he's only half lying. Because Kurt is doing what Blaine never could. He's fighting back. He's facing his demons. And if the cost is the "they" that he and Blaine have become, well, courage wasn't always without its downsides, now was it?
-
When Kurt whispers you could come with me as he pulls away from their kiss (their goodbye kiss), Blaine doesn’t say anything. He couldn’t. Can’t. Won’t. Blaine doesn’t have the fight in him that Kurt has, doesn’t have that unerring spark, that courage. Blaine is a coward. He knows this, but he can’t bring himself to say it out loud (and that makes him feels like even more of a coward), so instead he pretends not to hear and leans in for another kiss.
-
When Blaine’s father tells him no, he doesn’t protest. It was stupid to think that he could, he knows. Foolish to even imagine it might have worked out. His father isn’t yelling - never yells - but his looking at him with that face, the one that says, oh, it’s okay, this is just a phase, don’t you know, and he’s going on about how no son of his will throw his education away on some boy. Blaine wants to scream. Scream and shout and throw things and tell his father no, no it’s not just some phase about some boy, it’s about much more. It’s about standing up for himself for once. It’s about being who he is without having to hide under a blazer and a tie and a zero tolerance policy. But instead he just nods and lowers his gaze and later, when the house is quiet, leaves, closing the door silently behind him.
-
When Blaine shows up on Kurt’s doorstep, he’s wet and cold and shaking (but not from the rain).
And when Kurt opens the door, eyes wide and confused, Blaine chokes on the words in his throat.
And when Kurt just pulls him close and answers the question that was never asked, murmuring you can stay here as long as you need, Blaine cries.