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Well, I started off the day by answering the phone the second I walked into the office and yelled at a client who was giving me an attitude. If I say Gene is not in, he's NOT IN. By telling me that you HAVE TO talk to him isn't going to change the fact that he's not here and make him magically appear. I've been wanting to yell at one of these idiotic people for a long time.
How can people be so stupid? Our office may be shut down very soon because of something Karen said in court; she's the associate attorney who I wouldn't exactly consider 'competent.' My boss has been very sick due to a diabetes complication the past few months and hasn't been able to function as well as he used to. There's a long story behind this, but the bottom line is that I everyone here may be out of a job in the next couple of months. I don't want ot lose my job, but I can easily get another job here; I have connections all around this city. But I'm more worried about my boss. He's such a nice guy, a great attorney, and a very caring person. He goes to our church and was my confirmation sponser three years ago. The cross necklace I always wear was a confirmation gift from him. Even today he bought us all lunch as a belated birthday gift for me.
I'm worried about my criminal investigation class. We had to turn in a paper yesterday that I think I did wrong. I'm not very confident that I got a good grade on it. True, I still have three more months and several other assignments and exams that can eliminate that bad grade, but I'm one of those people who beats herself up over a bad grade and will sulk about it for a long time. I'll be happy if I get a C on this assignment. We were just given an extra credit opportunity worth some good points that requires us to bring in our voter's registration card...I can't find mine. I called and ordered a new one this morning and it won't get here for about 3 weeks.
My mom left for PA early this morning to help take care of my grandmother. So it's just my dad and I for the next week. My sisters are also going down to see her next month. I feel really bad that I'm the only one not going to see my sick grandmother. My mom's friend, Kathy, made me feel liek shit last week by repeating, "You need to go. You need to go" over and over in my face. Yeah, I KNOW I should go, but I just can't. I can't afford it financially and I can't afford to take anymore time off from school. I'm aleady taking a whole week off for my sister's wedding in November. And as much as I'd like to see my grandmother one last time, I'd rather have good memories of her from when she was healthy and happy. I don't want to go there and see her so sick and be left with those final images of her in my mind. I want good memories. My sister saw my other grandmother when she was in the hospital just before she died from a stroke and now wishes she never had to see her that way.
My dad is trying to convince me to go to school until I get my Associate's Degree next fall and then apply for the Anchorage Police Department. The APD is in dire need of more officers, particularly in the Eagle River/Chugiak area because it's growing so quickly. And that is where I'd like to be stationed, in E.R. But I'm still debating between APD and State Troopers. And I DO want to finish college with a Bachelor's. If I take a break in the middle, I probably won't go back to school again later.
There's a big Department of Public Safety career fair next Wednesday out on Muldoon I'm going to go to. I'll miss work but this will defintiely be worth it. I need to talk to someone in person from the Troopers and APD.
I got my long, leather jacket in the mail the other day. It's SO nice. I can't wait to wear it when winter comes (which will be in like, two weeks). My halloween costume should be coming in the mail any day now. I'm putting together my own vampire-like costume. I'll just have to go get some gaudy jewelry to top it off.
I haven't heard from Ashley in nearly two weeksw. Fine with me. It's actually a relief. I've been able to go out and spend time with a lot of my other friends who I didn't see very often because I was always doing stuff with Ashley. I've been out with Ashley Laret, Erin, Shauna, David, Derek, Stephen, Erik, Dana, Lael, Sara, Rick, Rose, Fatina, Corrine...and that's ust withint he last week and a half. Derek invited me over to his house Sunday night just to hang out and watch a movie. I was there until close to eleven. He split up with his girlfriend a few weeks ago and is on the prowl...and is set on me. He was trying to make some moves on me but he knows when I send signals that I'm not to be trifled with. Derek is a great friend but I would NOT want to date him.
So life without Ashley has been good; I don't feel like I'm being smothered. But it still does make me mad that she just shrugged off the only friend she had for her boyfriend. So all of you out there who have friends and are dating someone? Please DO NOT forget about your friends for your significant other. Because I know that when Ashley and James break up (I know they will), she will come crawling back to me; and I won't be so merciful on her.