Unfortunately I have neglected my livejournal for an extended amount of time and lots has happened in the past few months. Thank you to those who have remained faithful to reading and commenting on my rants and raves ( Read more... )

Alright so in the past year I have had two major crushes and the current is way more important and much more deeper than the other ( Read more... )

I suppose that since I have been cancelling my accounts (facebook & myspace) I should cancel this one, but it means too much to me. I can all the way back to before I left for college and can look I were I have come from & can hopefully examine where I am going. I have lost some many friends in the past few years. Many of which I need more than ( Read more... )

Hmmm...life changes...they suck. I am so lonely and so tired. I hate ending friendships. They are like break-ups. All you can do is think about how much you miss them. You can't even remember why you ended the friendship in the first place. I mean you know the reasons and they seem like good reasons, but you are so lonely. Then as usual there are ( Read more... )

The good old livejournal. It never fails...ok well I guess that I can't say never ( Read more... )

Ever realized that there is no one to call. There is no one to spend time with. There is no one to care if you come home or not. No one to care how your day was or what your test was like. It sucks. I am so lonely that I have lost gumption to push forward and all will to just chug through the sludge. I am tired. I think I will go to bed. All I have ( Read more... )

This is not the first time that I have had my heart broken by a best friend, and I am sure that it will not be the last. Sadly though, this time it is different. This time it feels like a break-up. I have never dated before, but I am assuming that breaking-up feels a little something like this. I haven't cried this long or hard over any sort of ( Read more... )

How do you forget home? You stay away and in time it becomes a distant memory. Every now and again a taste, sight, sound, or smell reminds you, but for the most part it is an unclear vision. This is why I stay away ( Read more... )

I would first like to appeal to the true and devoted friends who value relationship and connection over appearance, who value people over perception to the extent of overlooking the first impression to pursue an honest depiction, and who value others more than themselves to the point that they overlook the judgments of society and, in some cases, ( Read more... )

I so badly wanted him to be with me, but he's not. I am usually pretty guarded, but for a moment I let my guard down, broke off a piece of my heart, and watched it be shattered. I am again reminded why the unofficial vow of celibacy. I am reminded to keep my guard up. I liked him...I like him...but not enough to lay my heart out in the open. If he ( Read more... )