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i had a scary, somewhat clairvoyant dream/premonition when i was half awake the other night.
i actually had the courage to write it the right way. and it didnt hurt, i just sat there watching it all leave leave me. then, i gathered all of my pictures in the house, anything that could possibly create a memory of myself, posessions, toys, books, etc. and burned them. with my time running out, i went on the computer and put the document that i had written earlier addressed to a ton of people, and i mean a ton... with phone numbers and addresses. well i put that online somehow, i think through livejournal. leaving the music on repeat on a certain few songs i ran outside. i ran for awhile, onto the busy road where people just love to speed. and well, ill stop there.
so yes... that was just lovely.
why are you doing this to me? why, i dont understand, im holding on because of you and yet your giving up on me. correction, youve already given up on me. just remember, your running out of time. i just want you to hold me and tell me things will be alright and that you really do care.
i actually had the courage to write it the right way. and it didnt hurt, i just sat there watching it all leave leave me. then, i gathered all of my pictures in the house, anything that could possibly create a memory of myself, posessions, toys, books, etc. and burned them. with my time running out, i went on the computer and put the document that i had written earlier addressed to a ton of people, and i mean a ton... with phone numbers and addresses. well i put that online somehow, i think through livejournal. leaving the music on repeat on a certain few songs i ran outside. i ran for awhile, onto the busy road where people just love to speed. and well, ill stop there.
so yes... that was just lovely.
why are you doing this to me? why, i dont understand, im holding on because of you and yet your giving up on me. correction, youve already given up on me. just remember, your running out of time. i just want you to hold me and tell me things will be alright and that you really do care.