Someone please convince me I'm wrong (Spoilers)
DH changed my feelings about several of the characters.
I like Harry in this book, especially once he grows up. Ron too.
I've always adored Severus, but I love him so much now that it feels like it's burning a hole in my heart.
And I think I might hate Albus Dumbledore.
This is hard for me, because I've always liked his character, and I've made excuses for his obvious manipulations.
But I don't think I'll ever be able to forgive him about Severus.
Maybe I'm wrong -- I HOPE I'm wrong -- but in Ch 33 "The Tale of the Prince" (I start tearing up every time I type that, btw) Albus' reactions to Snape are 1) contempt 2) disregard 3)respect for his bravery (grudging, perhaps) and 4) appreciation for his usefulness.
I don't see any affection. I don't see the "love" that Albus liked to preach about so much. Obviously Severus has some affection for him after all this time (witness the shriveled arm scene -- which is exactly as I pictured it happening) but I'm just not seeing it from Dumbledore.
Severus was just a fucking tool to him, and it doesn't look to me like Albus cared about what happened to him once his usefulness was done. He used him until the bitter end, then left him out in the rain.
"Poor Severus..." That's all the comment we get from the late Albus Dumbledore, cooling his heels with Harry Potter's disembodied spirit. Excuse me?
Albus. You. Fucking. Bastard. You should be the next platform over ON YOUR KNEES begging forgiveness of Severus Snape, who may have been a greasy, snarky bastard, but was a far, far better man and friend than you.
Aberforth was right. When he was telling Harry how Albus used people and left them to clean up his messes, I didn't realize it was foreshadowing. I didn't realize it was an epitaph for Severus Snape.
If this is the case, if this is the way it is in canon, then you know what? I'm almost glad Jo killed him. Because I don't for a minute think that this Albus Dumbledore would have thought or cared to leave memories or evidence proving that Snape was loyal and doing everything under his orders. Honestly, in that case, Severus is better off dead (or better off with everyone *thinking* he's dead) than being left as a scapegoat for the wizarding world.
As deeply as Snape's death affected me, what I'm really having a hard time coping with is the idea that, except for Lily's friendship, he lived and died unloved, unlamented and un(der)appreciated.
Poor little wibble.
Thank God for Fanfic. Normally I don't go for terribly fluffy stuff, and de-aged Severus has *never* interested me before, but my heart is so broken for that little neglected unloved kid who grew into a neglected teenager and an unappreciated and unloved adult, that I went on a hunt for something that would make it right. Thus I repeat: Thank God for fanfic. I'm reading Tira Nog's "Nick In Time" -- something I turned up my nose at before -- and even tho I'm still tearing up and seeping uncontrollably, it IS making me feel better.
Albus, you've got a lot to answer for, old man.
Jo's had her say. Now it's up to us.
I like Harry in this book, especially once he grows up. Ron too.
I've always adored Severus, but I love him so much now that it feels like it's burning a hole in my heart.
And I think I might hate Albus Dumbledore.
This is hard for me, because I've always liked his character, and I've made excuses for his obvious manipulations.
But I don't think I'll ever be able to forgive him about Severus.
Maybe I'm wrong -- I HOPE I'm wrong -- but in Ch 33 "The Tale of the Prince" (I start tearing up every time I type that, btw) Albus' reactions to Snape are 1) contempt 2) disregard 3)respect for his bravery (grudging, perhaps) and 4) appreciation for his usefulness.
I don't see any affection. I don't see the "love" that Albus liked to preach about so much. Obviously Severus has some affection for him after all this time (witness the shriveled arm scene -- which is exactly as I pictured it happening) but I'm just not seeing it from Dumbledore.
Severus was just a fucking tool to him, and it doesn't look to me like Albus cared about what happened to him once his usefulness was done. He used him until the bitter end, then left him out in the rain.
"Poor Severus..." That's all the comment we get from the late Albus Dumbledore, cooling his heels with Harry Potter's disembodied spirit. Excuse me?
Albus. You. Fucking. Bastard. You should be the next platform over ON YOUR KNEES begging forgiveness of Severus Snape, who may have been a greasy, snarky bastard, but was a far, far better man and friend than you.
Aberforth was right. When he was telling Harry how Albus used people and left them to clean up his messes, I didn't realize it was foreshadowing. I didn't realize it was an epitaph for Severus Snape.
If this is the case, if this is the way it is in canon, then you know what? I'm almost glad Jo killed him. Because I don't for a minute think that this Albus Dumbledore would have thought or cared to leave memories or evidence proving that Snape was loyal and doing everything under his orders. Honestly, in that case, Severus is better off dead (or better off with everyone *thinking* he's dead) than being left as a scapegoat for the wizarding world.
As deeply as Snape's death affected me, what I'm really having a hard time coping with is the idea that, except for Lily's friendship, he lived and died unloved, unlamented and un(der)appreciated.
Poor little wibble.
Thank God for Fanfic. Normally I don't go for terribly fluffy stuff, and de-aged Severus has *never* interested me before, but my heart is so broken for that little neglected unloved kid who grew into a neglected teenager and an unappreciated and unloved adult, that I went on a hunt for something that would make it right. Thus I repeat: Thank God for fanfic. I'm reading Tira Nog's "Nick In Time" -- something I turned up my nose at before -- and even tho I'm still tearing up and seeping uncontrollably, it IS making me feel better.
Albus, you've got a lot to answer for, old man.
Jo's had her say. Now it's up to us.