I have purged so much stuff over the years. Now I resist the urge to purge (yes, i did that on purpose), and I usually just leave things alone for a while.
Personal perversionsrandalljtbassMay 25 2007, 07:50:54 UTC
Well, I am not really into adult diapers or golden showers and I am more personally into big feet. But everybody needs to be able to express themself. As long as you aren't corrupting any people below the age of consent, and you clean up after yourself, I'm not going to be the one to act like a Nazi about these goofy things that you do.
Re: Personal perversionsnekkid_tsJune 2 2007, 16:21:13 UTC
I personally believe that everyone has some kind of little perversion in the back of their head. Even the people who are too uptight to express their desires have something "goofy" that excites them outside of "normal" sex.
THat's why the guilt upsets me: I'm not hurting anyone, i never involves minors, and no one has to come behind me to clean anything up... So, why should I feel guilty? But I do.
You feel guilty when you cum? How so? cumming is a natural thing for the body! self pleasure is truly a way to love ourselves, and until we find the right people to share our perversions with, its a very healthy thing to do!
Im a catholic and even as I go to church every Sunday, and I consider myself a good person, I have so many dirty things in my head I cant even name them, things involving younger...really younger people, and I also like to touch myself while I pee, which is why I love it when you describe nice things like that...
I also like to look for pics of lactating breasts, whether they are anime or real, really turn me on, and I'd love to suck a small cock or a nice big clit...
All these things make me cum over and over again, and really, that's what your hands and your mind are for, so really, you dont have to be ashamed of anything... :) Taske it from me, there are far worse things yhou could be doing!
I have just always felt that from the time I was very young. Even when I first got married, I would feel this way. I have known some other people (one was even a stripper) who have had the same problem. I wish it would just go away so I can enjoy myself longer. It really puts a damper (not diaper) on being a pervert.
I identify so much with what you've written here. I have a very "vanilla" personality that doesn't much match my kinks. I feel bad about them. I pursue them until the point of orgasm but once it's been done and I'm beyond the point of pleasure I always feel gross and dirty. It's not that I don't think I should orgasm, but I have a hard time accepting my turn-ons and intergating them into my life.
It sucks doesn't it!? But, at least we are not alone with this, but I have no idea how to "cure" it. I read your journal, and in your case it could actually help with your humiliation fantasies. Well, unless your intellect gets in the way, and completely stops the fun.
BTW I friended you. I know our approach is different in some ways. I love the humiliation aspect too: giving and getting. But, I could only dish is out if I also got as much as I gave.
I know you wrote this a while back, but I recently friended you and am trying to backtrack your posts. I have a lot of kinky games I play... usually alone. I have many interests I'm scared to admit to, because I grew up in a sexless environment (my guess). I feel like I have a healthy attitude about sex, but some of the things that might scare others away-- I do alone & still feel terrified someone will find out, so I feel guilt. I think our only way to comfort ourselves from that is to connect with others who feel the same.... then we won't feel we are the only freaks out there, and hopefully feel more normal.
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I think it's normal though. As long as it doesn't stop you from doing it later, it's probably not too bad.
Hope you get over it, though. :)
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THat's why the guilt upsets me: I'm not hurting anyone, i never involves minors, and no one has to come behind me to clean anything up... So, why should I feel guilty? But I do.
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Im a catholic and even as I go to church every Sunday, and I consider myself a good person, I have so many dirty things in my head I cant even name them, things involving younger...really younger people, and I also like to touch myself while I pee, which is why I love it when you describe nice things like that...
I also like to look for pics of lactating breasts, whether they are anime or real, really turn me on, and I'd love to suck a small cock or a nice big clit...
All these things make me cum over and over again, and really, that's what your hands and your mind are for, so really, you dont have to be ashamed of anything... :) Taske it from me, there are far worse things yhou could be doing!
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BTW I friended you. I know our approach is different in some ways. I love the humiliation aspect too: giving and getting. But, I could only dish is out if I also got as much as I gave.
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I have a lot of kinky games I play... usually alone. I have many interests I'm scared to admit to, because I grew up in a sexless environment (my guess).
I feel like I have a healthy attitude about sex, but some of the things that might scare others away-- I do alone & still feel terrified someone will find out, so I feel guilt.
I think our only way to comfort ourselves from that is to connect with others who feel the same.... then we won't feel we are the only freaks out there, and hopefully feel more normal.
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