Secret Letters
Title: SECRET LETTERS
Author: Nekochan_lia
Pairing: Yama Pair (Ohno x Sho)
Length: 1,510 words
Rating: PG 13
Genres: Fluff, Romance
Disclaimer: Not mine.
Summary: Sho wrote secret letters for Ohno.
Aug 26, 2005
Satoshi-kun,
It's already late, and I can't sleep at all. My mind keeps on coming back to you. In a lonely night like this, I really wish for you to be here by my side.
I don’t even know why I started to write this letter, since I know you would never ever read it. But I really need to let all my feelings out. I don’t have anyone to talk to, since they won't believe me or even think of me as a crazy person.
It really is a mystery to think that I have fallen for someone that I’ve been together in a group for 6 years. We always call the bond that tied us together work and friendship. But who knows when, my feelings to you started to change into something else. Aiba, Nino, and Jun would laugh and tease me endlessly if they found out about this.
All kinds of emotion are piling up inside my heart, and I have no other choice except to let it all out in this one piece of letter. Let this be an unspoken witness of my feelings to you, which will remain a secret forever.
Since the first time I met you, I kept thinking, how a person like you can dance and sing so gracefully and beautifully. Heaven is totally not fair. It was something that I know from the beginning. To think that I’ve spent hours of practicing a move that you could master in 30 minutes, really made me jealous of your talents.
I remember that at times I felt depressed because of this, you just gently patted my shoulder and I could smile again. I also enjoyed dancing behind you. Watching you danced, while I was trying my best too, was the most valuable memories I had as a teenager.
I was very sad when Sachou ordered you to go to Kyoto for two damn years. Even though I know it was for the best, I remembered it was very hard for me to let you go. Luckily we kept on communicating through mail. I even managed to visit you at Kyoto and spent a whole day with you.
Who would ever think that years of admiration, can change into something so deep called love? At first I refused to admit it. I try to convince myself that it was simply a brotherly love. But brothers don’t get jealous to each other. There were times I would like to kill Nino, because he was too clingy to my Satoshi. And sometimes Jun, because it was too obvious that you considered him cute and handsome.
I know it’s wrong, but I want to keep you for myself. I don’t want other person to see how gentle and cute you are. Even though you like to mess around and spacing out, there’s a very cool side of you that only people close to you can see it. Few times, with only you said some straight forward words, my heart would jump excitedly.
The happiest moment for me, was when you told me to call you Satoshi. Because you never let anyone call you with your given name except your family. Does this mean you consider me special? If I couldn’t have you as my lover, maybe I should have been satisfied if you consider me as your brother.
Satoshi-kun, I have never thought that I would experience this kind of unrequited love, especially to you. I have tried to have girlfriends, and also tried to fall in love with someone else. But it seems that my heart belongs only to you. I’m afraid of my own feelings. It’s scary that I still love you until now, even though my mind tells me to let you go. I can’t imagine my world without you.
Well, it’s getting late and I should go to bed now. I can’t wait to meet you tomorrow. We will finally have our photo shoot together, just the two of us. └(=^‥^=)┐ﾆｬ┌(=^‥^=)┘ﾊ
Sho
Sept 8, 2005
Satoshi-kun,
It had been two weeks since my last letter and I’m feeling really depressed right now.
Why are you avoiding me? It’s not that obvious and other people wouldn’t notice it. But I just knew it. You’ve been rejecting my drinking invitation and not replying my mails to you. Sometimes you only replied with very short massages.
Did I do something wrong to make you hate me?
I hate it Satoshi. Every time, I touched your shoulder for a friendly pat, you would stiffen and would move a little far away from me. You even refused to sit beside me in the green room. It’s frustrating that I couldn’t even start a normal conversation with you. What's happening with our friendship?
It’s not like I haven't tried to talk to you about it. I did! But you managed to get away from the topic and ignored me.
Satoshi, I don’t want to lose you. It’s okay for me to just be your friend, as long as I could be together with you.
So, please tell me what’s wrong, and I promise I will fix it. *(╥﹏╥)
Sho
Sept 18, 2005
Satoshi-kun,
You know, I still can’t believe all the things happened yesterday.
I was sitting in the greenroom reading a newspaper while suddenly you came in and said that you wanted to talk to me. It was shocking since it had been the third week since you have been avoiding me and I was starting to give up on us. I missed you so much, it hurt Satoshi.
I saw you blushing hard, which was very rare, coz I never saw your cheeks as red as yesterday. You nervously asked if you could talk to me and you have made me waited for 5 whole minutes until you started talking.
You didn’t know how fast my heart was beating at that time. I was sure it was more than a regular human being could take. When you finally said something, I really thought my heart would stop. I really wished for mother earth to swallow me and made me disappear forever.
You, out of all people have accidentally found and read my first secret letter to you. I could just die of embarrassment. It was my fault to write the letter in my rap book and leave it just like that in a green room. Now I remembered that sometimes you would peek into my book and asked about the meaning of my rap lyrics. I’m so stupid.
Well, after that, you explain why you have been avoiding me for three whole weeks. You said you were afraid because you found out about my feelings for you in such a weirdest way it could be. You didn’t want to hurt me, yet you also didn’t know what to do.
But after you thought about this carefully, you have come to a decision.
Really, I didn’t want to put too much hope for this, but you couldn’t blame a man for hoping, right?
That time, you look directly into my eyes. Gosh.. Satoshi, if only you knew how big your effect on me is, you should stop doing that. It was not good for my health.
Then you said those words. The words that I’ve been waiting for since a long time ago.
“Sho-kun, I also wanted to be together with you” quoted directly from Ohno Satoshi.
The moment I heard those words from you, my mind went blank for a while. After that I seriously wanted to scream to the world that you're mine, and of course I'm already yours since the beginning.
Satoshi-kun, thank you so much for accepting my feelings. Somehow, I always know that we are meant for each other. From now on, let’s walk this road together.
Love (づ￣ ³￣)づ~♡
Sho
Tokyo, Jan 25, 2011
Sho-kun,
It’s almost 6 years since we’re together, and I know how you secretly like to write letters if you have things that you couldn’t say to me. Now it’s my turn to write you a letter.
Except that I will give this letter properly to you along with your birthday gift.
Well today it’s your birthday and I’m really thankful because you’ve been born in this world. I couldn’t imagine my life without you and thanks for accepting me just the way I am.
Waking up every morning with you in my arms feels so right and amazing. Sho, you know how I’m bad with words, but I want you to know that every day together with you is precious to me. It all engraves deeply in my memories.
I love Sakurai Sho with every string of life I have in me.
Happy 29th birthday. ( ◦˘ з(◦'ںˉ◦)~♡
Satoshi
Ps : I have two vacation ticket for both of us, and no, it’s not a full schedule vacation like you always had. It’s a laid back vacation in some faraway island, just the two of us.
~fin~
Note :
The dates are random and didn't have anything to do with actual events and sorry for any weird grammars or wordings. This fic just came out of nowhere and I decided to post it anyway XD. Comments will be appreciated ^_^
Author: Nekochan_lia
Pairing: Yama Pair (Ohno x Sho)
Length: 1,510 words
Rating: PG 13
Genres: Fluff, Romance
Disclaimer: Not mine.
Summary: Sho wrote secret letters for Ohno.
Aug 26, 2005
Satoshi-kun,
It's already late, and I can't sleep at all. My mind keeps on coming back to you. In a lonely night like this, I really wish for you to be here by my side.
I don’t even know why I started to write this letter, since I know you would never ever read it. But I really need to let all my feelings out. I don’t have anyone to talk to, since they won't believe me or even think of me as a crazy person.
It really is a mystery to think that I have fallen for someone that I’ve been together in a group for 6 years. We always call the bond that tied us together work and friendship. But who knows when, my feelings to you started to change into something else. Aiba, Nino, and Jun would laugh and tease me endlessly if they found out about this.
All kinds of emotion are piling up inside my heart, and I have no other choice except to let it all out in this one piece of letter. Let this be an unspoken witness of my feelings to you, which will remain a secret forever.
Since the first time I met you, I kept thinking, how a person like you can dance and sing so gracefully and beautifully. Heaven is totally not fair. It was something that I know from the beginning. To think that I’ve spent hours of practicing a move that you could master in 30 minutes, really made me jealous of your talents.
I remember that at times I felt depressed because of this, you just gently patted my shoulder and I could smile again. I also enjoyed dancing behind you. Watching you danced, while I was trying my best too, was the most valuable memories I had as a teenager.
I was very sad when Sachou ordered you to go to Kyoto for two damn years. Even though I know it was for the best, I remembered it was very hard for me to let you go. Luckily we kept on communicating through mail. I even managed to visit you at Kyoto and spent a whole day with you.
Who would ever think that years of admiration, can change into something so deep called love? At first I refused to admit it. I try to convince myself that it was simply a brotherly love. But brothers don’t get jealous to each other. There were times I would like to kill Nino, because he was too clingy to my Satoshi. And sometimes Jun, because it was too obvious that you considered him cute and handsome.
I know it’s wrong, but I want to keep you for myself. I don’t want other person to see how gentle and cute you are. Even though you like to mess around and spacing out, there’s a very cool side of you that only people close to you can see it. Few times, with only you said some straight forward words, my heart would jump excitedly.
The happiest moment for me, was when you told me to call you Satoshi. Because you never let anyone call you with your given name except your family. Does this mean you consider me special? If I couldn’t have you as my lover, maybe I should have been satisfied if you consider me as your brother.
Satoshi-kun, I have never thought that I would experience this kind of unrequited love, especially to you. I have tried to have girlfriends, and also tried to fall in love with someone else. But it seems that my heart belongs only to you. I’m afraid of my own feelings. It’s scary that I still love you until now, even though my mind tells me to let you go. I can’t imagine my world without you.
Well, it’s getting late and I should go to bed now. I can’t wait to meet you tomorrow. We will finally have our photo shoot together, just the two of us. └(=^‥^=)┐ﾆｬ┌(=^‥^=)┘ﾊ
Sho
Sept 8, 2005
Satoshi-kun,
It had been two weeks since my last letter and I’m feeling really depressed right now.
Why are you avoiding me? It’s not that obvious and other people wouldn’t notice it. But I just knew it. You’ve been rejecting my drinking invitation and not replying my mails to you. Sometimes you only replied with very short massages.
Did I do something wrong to make you hate me?
I hate it Satoshi. Every time, I touched your shoulder for a friendly pat, you would stiffen and would move a little far away from me. You even refused to sit beside me in the green room. It’s frustrating that I couldn’t even start a normal conversation with you. What's happening with our friendship?
It’s not like I haven't tried to talk to you about it. I did! But you managed to get away from the topic and ignored me.
Satoshi, I don’t want to lose you. It’s okay for me to just be your friend, as long as I could be together with you.
So, please tell me what’s wrong, and I promise I will fix it. *(╥﹏╥)
Sho
Sept 18, 2005
Satoshi-kun,
You know, I still can’t believe all the things happened yesterday.
I was sitting in the greenroom reading a newspaper while suddenly you came in and said that you wanted to talk to me. It was shocking since it had been the third week since you have been avoiding me and I was starting to give up on us. I missed you so much, it hurt Satoshi.
I saw you blushing hard, which was very rare, coz I never saw your cheeks as red as yesterday. You nervously asked if you could talk to me and you have made me waited for 5 whole minutes until you started talking.
You didn’t know how fast my heart was beating at that time. I was sure it was more than a regular human being could take. When you finally said something, I really thought my heart would stop. I really wished for mother earth to swallow me and made me disappear forever.
You, out of all people have accidentally found and read my first secret letter to you. I could just die of embarrassment. It was my fault to write the letter in my rap book and leave it just like that in a green room. Now I remembered that sometimes you would peek into my book and asked about the meaning of my rap lyrics. I’m so stupid.
Well, after that, you explain why you have been avoiding me for three whole weeks. You said you were afraid because you found out about my feelings for you in such a weirdest way it could be. You didn’t want to hurt me, yet you also didn’t know what to do.
But after you thought about this carefully, you have come to a decision.
Really, I didn’t want to put too much hope for this, but you couldn’t blame a man for hoping, right?
That time, you look directly into my eyes. Gosh.. Satoshi, if only you knew how big your effect on me is, you should stop doing that. It was not good for my health.
Then you said those words. The words that I’ve been waiting for since a long time ago.
“Sho-kun, I also wanted to be together with you” quoted directly from Ohno Satoshi.
The moment I heard those words from you, my mind went blank for a while. After that I seriously wanted to scream to the world that you're mine, and of course I'm already yours since the beginning.
Satoshi-kun, thank you so much for accepting my feelings. Somehow, I always know that we are meant for each other. From now on, let’s walk this road together.
Love (づ￣ ³￣)づ~♡
Sho
Tokyo, Jan 25, 2011
Sho-kun,
It’s almost 6 years since we’re together, and I know how you secretly like to write letters if you have things that you couldn’t say to me. Now it’s my turn to write you a letter.
Except that I will give this letter properly to you along with your birthday gift.
Well today it’s your birthday and I’m really thankful because you’ve been born in this world. I couldn’t imagine my life without you and thanks for accepting me just the way I am.
Waking up every morning with you in my arms feels so right and amazing. Sho, you know how I’m bad with words, but I want you to know that every day together with you is precious to me. It all engraves deeply in my memories.
I love Sakurai Sho with every string of life I have in me.
Happy 29th birthday. ( ◦˘ з(◦'ںˉ◦)~♡
Satoshi
Ps : I have two vacation ticket for both of us, and no, it’s not a full schedule vacation like you always had. It’s a laid back vacation in some faraway island, just the two of us.
~fin~
Note :
The dates are random and didn't have anything to do with actual events and sorry for any weird grammars or wordings. This fic just came out of nowhere and I decided to post it anyway XD. Comments will be appreciated ^_^