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Hi guys!
I just paid the registration fees for the Pacific media expo! I am halfway there!!! nyah! I am waiting to get my student loan and pay the hotel room to be all set to go to Cali to see Linclover!!! oh! finally ! a dream come true!!! I hope it all comes true! nyah!
I am no longer a student with shihan matos... which makes me happy and sad... Kioshi scares me... I am not sure if I will be able to perform to the level he wants me to... I am afraid I will be found wanting.. you know? I will try my best... but what if my best is not good enough?
Anyway... the stupid direct studies profesor appeared monday night... and I received his email today... so very haughty... I wanted to bash his teeth in... thank god I am not taking classes with him in person... I dont think I would be able to stand him. nyah!
I am still trying... to be patient and calm... but the medication is not helping... everytime I eat I wonder if I am gonna end up puking or not... (great conversational piece, ne?) I am tired of complaining... my friends must be sick of hearing me moan and bitch of my belly ache... I am sick of hearing myself... of crying everytime I must eat... of belching, and all the other symptoms that produce 'mild to moderate discomfort' as it states in the literature... damn them!
I did not go to work today... I was tired and sick again... I am making an effort to get to work early every day... unless I have a doctor's appointment to build up my annual and sick balances... so far so good. My credit was going up too... must sacrifice again and stay all week to have enough hours for next week and the other 2 appointments... damn it! but I really felt sick this morning... At work they dont understand... and that's it. I dont take the meds and I become sweet enough to make cotton candy on my own... I take the meds and I'm miserable enough I dont want to eat, thus I end up with low glucose index... so... to eat or not to eat... that is the question... I dont want to vomit.. I am not anorexic... nor bulimic... I dont take the meds and I am fine... (I think) but I feel dizzy and thirsty... oh.. see? I am complaining again...
Let's talk about something else! drawing and writing...
oh... yeah
I havent posted my recent fanfic chapter... because I havent finished... because I've been under the weather... yeah... excuses nobody cares about... still I will try to continue and meet my obligations successfully as Ive done so far! After all, There are people here that have shown me they love me no matter what... and that they still care, regardless of the time I stay away or the lack of communication... and for me that means a lot... yes, you know who I am talking about... Thank you for your thoughful words... I really needed them... *nods...* I hope you liked my gift... I promise to take more vids... of hot weather... to keep you warm...ne? LOL
I just paid the registration fees for the Pacific media expo! I am halfway there!!! nyah! I am waiting to get my student loan and pay the hotel room to be all set to go to Cali to see Linclover!!! oh! finally ! a dream come true!!! I hope it all comes true! nyah!
I am no longer a student with shihan matos... which makes me happy and sad... Kioshi scares me... I am not sure if I will be able to perform to the level he wants me to... I am afraid I will be found wanting.. you know? I will try my best... but what if my best is not good enough?
Anyway... the stupid direct studies profesor appeared monday night... and I received his email today... so very haughty... I wanted to bash his teeth in... thank god I am not taking classes with him in person... I dont think I would be able to stand him. nyah!
I am still trying... to be patient and calm... but the medication is not helping... everytime I eat I wonder if I am gonna end up puking or not... (great conversational piece, ne?) I am tired of complaining... my friends must be sick of hearing me moan and bitch of my belly ache... I am sick of hearing myself... of crying everytime I must eat... of belching, and all the other symptoms that produce 'mild to moderate discomfort' as it states in the literature... damn them!
I did not go to work today... I was tired and sick again... I am making an effort to get to work early every day... unless I have a doctor's appointment to build up my annual and sick balances... so far so good. My credit was going up too... must sacrifice again and stay all week to have enough hours for next week and the other 2 appointments... damn it! but I really felt sick this morning... At work they dont understand... and that's it. I dont take the meds and I become sweet enough to make cotton candy on my own... I take the meds and I'm miserable enough I dont want to eat, thus I end up with low glucose index... so... to eat or not to eat... that is the question... I dont want to vomit.. I am not anorexic... nor bulimic... I dont take the meds and I am fine... (I think) but I feel dizzy and thirsty... oh.. see? I am complaining again...
Let's talk about something else! drawing and writing...
oh... yeah
I havent posted my recent fanfic chapter... because I havent finished... because I've been under the weather... yeah... excuses nobody cares about... still I will try to continue and meet my obligations successfully as Ive done so far! After all, There are people here that have shown me they love me no matter what... and that they still care, regardless of the time I stay away or the lack of communication... and for me that means a lot... yes, you know who I am talking about... Thank you for your thoughful words... I really needed them... *nods...* I hope you liked my gift... I promise to take more vids... of hot weather... to keep you warm...ne? LOL