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nekolalia

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Jun 10, 2009 15:59

It's just a number. It's JUST a number. Shame numbers mean so much to me, this one in particular. This number, which represents all the things I dread, which sends me to shivering with fear, which wrenches me out of my fear and throws me into a place of deep melancholy so that I almost wish the fear would return, this number... so powerful in its ( Read more... )

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anonymous June 10 2009, 16:23:37 UTC

Oh sweetheart! You don't have to be an adult. I'm nearly 30 and I've never been an adult - certainly never felt like one ( ... )

nekolalia June 11 2009, 08:48:43 UTC

Thanks... I wish I wasn't so weak and breakable, I was feeling a lot better today until I got a bit of criticism and now I just want to burn all my work and throw myself off a cliff. I'm simultaneously irate and downtrodden. Ugh... I wish I had that confidence that other people have which lets them ignore the shit that people say because they really believe that what they do is good. What the fuck am I going to do if my art isn't any good? I wonder if people have any idea how important it is to me...

Bah, I'm just rambling... thanks for your input, it makes me feel a whole lot less shitty.

anonymous June 10 2009, 16:25:11 UTC

oh that was Teneal, btw lol

sequent_c June 13 2009, 17:40:25 UTC

Happy Birthday! I really hate to say this knowing it's a cliche, but age is really just a number. I often fluctuate between 15 and 25 at 19. The reason why you probably feel unaccomplished compared to your previous years is because I think once you hit a certain age things tend to plateau with the exception of a few minor peaks compared to earlier years. When you're younger, you develop so quickly and experience so much of what is new that this feels like nothing (especially when things become a routine ( ... )

anonymous June 15 2009, 22:47:20 UTC

happy belated birthday to you. your friendship is important as you can see. don't look at it as a tragedy or a milestone. just do what you will, and the rest will come, your feelings will change, the mind - ripen, and you spirit already does soar. as for numerology - it always lurks, but you are it's master and not the other way. awareness always makes one stronger, but sometimes digits are just that, dig and watch they tend to reoccur. PLUR

ganin

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