Shitty night

[nekophoenix]

Had a really crappy night at work, so at lunch I went out to my car and just started writing. it ended up as a stream of consciousness type thing. Its not very good, but its not meant to be, I just felt like sharing it because it explains pretty well what was going through my head. Opinions are welcome, but not required. If you like it, say so. If

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[raihu]

UM, WOW. Splendid way to break the news. Assuming it's true, of course. Ulterior motives could be afoot.

This'll sound like a stock reply, but don't take any of this too hard. Things can only be as bad as you make them out to be. And even if life persists in kicking you around, it's not like you can't kick back.

Ah. Whatever. Feel better. Try to relax for a few days, without expecting anything good or bad. Let your mood settle, you know?

[nekophoenix]

Its not so much the news. I already KNEW, but I also knew I was never going to be able to ask her. So I was able to hope and pretend that if I did have the courage to ask I might have a chance. Having that shattered so bluntly is just, eh. Theres no doubt its true, its something I had already suspected and heard rumors of. Again, it was just the matter of informing, and the fact I really would rather have not known for certain. Not unless I heard it straight from her when I finally got up my courage. That would be okay, because at least I would have done what I needed to do to be happy with myself.

Now I'll never be able to tell her how I feel, because I know theres no point to it.

[erizabefu]

I still think you should tell her how you feel. Even if it is pointless to you now, it's better to get those things off your chest than to hold it in. I'm sure she'd respect you a lot better if you told her than if you didn't.