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[nekowafer]

Jeff and I are taking a "break". I am so completely lost without him. I've apparently made a lot of mistakes that I didn't even see.. and I no longer get the chance to fix them. I don't even know what to do with myself, this will be the first day in over three years that I'm not allowed to speak to him. The worst part was waking up after a good

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[starcheckered]

this is so sad. elesia, dont get too down, ive been here before and its terrible. it sucks, but all there is to do is wait. you know that after a little bit of time he will realize what a terrible mistake he's made and everything can go back to normal.

[nekowafer]

It took him a whole day to feel awful about it.. he came over last night and we're back together again. However, he's in denial of the problems we have and that's a new problem in itself. Ugh.

[just_the_ash]

*hugs* Sometimes people are just weird like that. This may be the most raging case of "It's not you, it's him" you've ever encountered, which doesn't necessarily help, but please don't go all Bella-without-Edward. Doodle, sketch, write stuff in a journal, write him an angry paper letter and burn it, take a walk, take some photos, put on music loud and dance, have a bubble bath, but do something FOR YOU. You you you you you. You deserve it BECAUSE I SAID SO, SO THERE.

[nekowafer]

*hugs* Thank you! Sometimes it's nice to hear that this isn't all my fault. After one day he felt so awful that he couldn't bear even keeping this break going.. so we're back together but he seems to be in denial of the problems we just had such a huge fight over. So I'm not sure how long this will last but I'll be doing what I can to fix what I've messed up. I did do something for me and it made me feel so much better. :)

[bearspirit]

It's ironic..because Pedro told me if I ever cheated, he could never forgive me or be with me, yet he did himself. I am in no way saying you cheated, but it hurts so much and it sucks when you forgive every little dumbass inconsiderate thing they do, and the little mistakes YOU make are made 'dramatic' and 'unforgiveable.' I read your thread and I know you guys are back together, just know I'm here if you need to talk about anything. Jeff and Pedro seem a lot alike so I can definitely relate :hugs tight;

[nekowafer]

Jeff has cheated.. pretty much I said he could do stuff with guys but I wanted to know about it, and he did it without telling me until months later. Twice. Then he flirted with girls and told them all sorts of things that guys with girlfriends shouldn't tell other girls. And then I get upset and I'm with a very nice, helpful, and sympathetic friend, and I feel like maybe doing something with him. I didn't do it, but I told Jeff about it and suddenly I'm this awful person.

The big deal this time was that I'm a needy person. I have been for a long time, and he's known this the whole time we've been together, and suddenly now he's decided it's an issue. But of course now he's in denial and pretends that there are no problems. He's 27, you'd think that at some point he'd get over some of these childish issues, but whatever.

[bearspirit]

:sigh

[nekowafer]

The only problem I have with him having sex with other people is that I'm worried he'd leave me for them. If I knew he could be completely honest with me and never leave me for them, we would have an open relationship. And, for awhile, I wasn't jealous at all.. I didn't worry about him cheating or lying, and I was working my way to trusting him enough to have an open relationship. And then he lied, and then I found out about it. Now I can barely trust him on the little things