Merlin 5x13 - Show finale
I haven't posted anything about Merlin this year, but I think it's written in the Merlin fan contract that I need to write about the show finale!
Man, I'm yo-yoing in a grief spiral. XD I keep swinging between relief that it's finally over (I've been so goddamn anxious about this ep, man!) and crying.
I'd convinced myself that Arthur was gonna die, and then it started with the confrontation between him and Mordred so quickly in the episode, I had time to convince myself that they'd have time to save Arthur.
Some might find the very ending comforting, but I think it only makes me sadder. The idea of Merlin wandering around for so long, waiting for Arthur to return... I have never been interested in the modern!fic that seems to fill fandom, I just wanted basically case!fic where Arthur and Merlin went out on adventures, and of course fic where Arthur found out (more and more with each passing season of Arthur not knowing). The idea of Arthur being reborn in modern days isn't of much interest to me.
I know it's not a shocker considering the legends, but for me, the show was always going to go on until Arthur found out about Merlin, Merlin could openly be a sorcerer and Albion could truly be great. The idea that Albion was great, oh wait, except for everyone using magic, doesn't sit well with me.
While I am thankful that the final episode was pretty much solely centered around Arthur and Merlin, I also think it highlighted how much of the final season was spent on stuff that should have been adressed before the finale. While it was nice, having Arthur see Merlin use magic in a multitude of ways, it really felt like this was stuff that should have been over a number of episodes.
There was so much crammed into this that I didn't really have time to feel sad about Gwaine. I figured he was a goner the moment he said goodbye to Merlin in 5x12, it felt way too much like a final goodbye to be a coincidence. It does make me sad that he died thinking that he failed. You were awesomesauce til the end, Gwaine, even though your plan was stupid-ass.
I did find it weird, though, that Arthur was shocked about Merlin telling him he was a sorcerer, when it felt like the reveal happened in the previous ep through that dream. Arthur happens to have a dream where Merlin warns him about an ambush and it happens and it's a conincidence? Whatever, a lot of stuff happened very fast, I guess I'll cut Arthur some slack.
I'll try to talk about the interaction between Merlin and Arthur, but it's hard because I keep crying and my mom is in the room with me. XD
Arthur didn't say "I love you" in words, but he might just as well have. When he goes "I don't want you to change. I want you to always be you.", OH MY GOD. *cries*
Yesterday, as I was looking for spoilers to reassure me that Arthur wasn't really gonna die, I came across this article that had quotes from the episode and there was "Just hold me. Please.". Fandom was going bonkers over it, and I was all "yeah, that's so not gonna be about Merlin and Arthur." AND IT WAS. IT FUCKING WAS. UGH, TWIST THE KNIFE, WHY DON'T YOU?
I really don't think I have anything more constructive to say right now without fullout blubbering, so I'll save that for tomorrow, possibly.
Who knew that Merlin, my go to happy-show to distract me from such cheeriness as Supernatural would end up breaking my heart?
Man, I'm yo-yoing in a grief spiral. XD I keep swinging between relief that it's finally over (I've been so goddamn anxious about this ep, man!) and crying.
I'd convinced myself that Arthur was gonna die, and then it started with the confrontation between him and Mordred so quickly in the episode, I had time to convince myself that they'd have time to save Arthur.
Some might find the very ending comforting, but I think it only makes me sadder. The idea of Merlin wandering around for so long, waiting for Arthur to return... I have never been interested in the modern!fic that seems to fill fandom, I just wanted basically case!fic where Arthur and Merlin went out on adventures, and of course fic where Arthur found out (more and more with each passing season of Arthur not knowing). The idea of Arthur being reborn in modern days isn't of much interest to me.
I know it's not a shocker considering the legends, but for me, the show was always going to go on until Arthur found out about Merlin, Merlin could openly be a sorcerer and Albion could truly be great. The idea that Albion was great, oh wait, except for everyone using magic, doesn't sit well with me.
While I am thankful that the final episode was pretty much solely centered around Arthur and Merlin, I also think it highlighted how much of the final season was spent on stuff that should have been adressed before the finale. While it was nice, having Arthur see Merlin use magic in a multitude of ways, it really felt like this was stuff that should have been over a number of episodes.
There was so much crammed into this that I didn't really have time to feel sad about Gwaine. I figured he was a goner the moment he said goodbye to Merlin in 5x12, it felt way too much like a final goodbye to be a coincidence. It does make me sad that he died thinking that he failed. You were awesomesauce til the end, Gwaine, even though your plan was stupid-ass.
I did find it weird, though, that Arthur was shocked about Merlin telling him he was a sorcerer, when it felt like the reveal happened in the previous ep through that dream. Arthur happens to have a dream where Merlin warns him about an ambush and it happens and it's a conincidence? Whatever, a lot of stuff happened very fast, I guess I'll cut Arthur some slack.
I'll try to talk about the interaction between Merlin and Arthur, but it's hard because I keep crying and my mom is in the room with me. XD
Arthur didn't say "I love you" in words, but he might just as well have. When he goes "I don't want you to change. I want you to always be you.", OH MY GOD. *cries*
Yesterday, as I was looking for spoilers to reassure me that Arthur wasn't really gonna die, I came across this article that had quotes from the episode and there was "Just hold me. Please.". Fandom was going bonkers over it, and I was all "yeah, that's so not gonna be about Merlin and Arthur." AND IT WAS. IT FUCKING WAS. UGH, TWIST THE KNIFE, WHY DON'T YOU?
I really don't think I have anything more constructive to say right now without fullout blubbering, so I'll save that for tomorrow, possibly.
Who knew that Merlin, my go to happy-show to distract me from such cheeriness as Supernatural would end up breaking my heart?