I'm Not The Carefullest Of Girls

[nellythemermaid]

 I'm at this place in my life where I feel like nothing is truly on my terms. I'm financially tied to my parents, I can't explore certain personal or professional opportunities....it's not even that, really. Those things suck, and they take up a lot of my patience and energy, but those are symptoms, not causes.

What it comes down to is that I feel

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[craftycarolyn]

I cut out of my life all the people who were only a drain. I wanted to help everyone and be selfless for everyone, but I realized that friendship has to go both ways. It can't just be me giving and helping all the time and getting nothing in return for it. At the time I felt bad giving up on these people, but I just know they needed a lot more than I could give and they needed to do something to fix themselves, I couldn't do it for them.

It has helped in a lot of ways to move to a new place and make all new friends. However, you have to remember that you are still you and your problems follow you. Something in the way that you respond to people is causing them to respond a certain way back. Change the way you approach new people and they should behave in a new way to you. But personally I've found that I can never escape myself and I've accepted that I'm not the fun person, and my relationships with people are always going to be serious and philosophical. I don't know how to be any other way.

Call me anytime, remember that