how do u just wish someone away... that they no longer exist... even a family memeber. it's fucking retarded. I want out of this house now... im getting back at her the only way i know how to. fuck her. i wish i was gone now. I love my mother dearly and nothing can change that.

I've dreamt about her 4 times in total ( Read more... )

It's just like a switch for a light bulb ( Read more... )

i hear the rain outside my window ( Read more... )

the snow is pretty... very bright outside... im bored...no motivation to do my calc hw... now to find sumthing to do besides watch foosball.. well i'll tt u guys laterz

I'll be the grapes fermented ( Read more... )

...i hate knowing exactly what i want... but not knowing who it is i want it with, or even why exactly i want it... but i am aware of what it is i am feeling... and i feel a lil strange... one's a daily basis, the other a weekly, and the last... almost monthly(maybe bi-monthly)... this is so strange... and im not used to it, all in all Getting ( Read more... )

not that anyone cares... my favorite song as of now is "Niki Fm" by Hawthorne Heights... My fav movie now is(still) Garden State... umm...what else? favorite cd is "Your Favorite weapon" with "Tell all your friends" a close second... Mets got Beltran so my favorite met has to be him now... umm... whatelse is important that no one will care about ( Read more... )

i am tired... gunna sleep a lil earlier...just about an hour or so b4 normal... eh school was adequate... chess was ok... im getting a lil fed up tho... its really getting annoying knowing that i can't get any better....but still wanting to... jeez... o well no one will ever remember this crap...its all HS and its almost over... sumthing like 86 ( Read more... )

Nowadays the only time i ever ffel like i fit in is at lunch.... when me lyra and tom can quote the dane and laugh and i truly can not give a fuck about nything.... thanx a million u two... seriously tho...now i feel like i don't fit in with just about anyone.... its really weird...atleast today was... anywhoo... odd days im gunna start going to ( Read more... )