You spoke of meditation, and I tried it. Now it comes in and out, a more frequent visitor. That bold driving light, so comfortably fond yet so foreign. And here it goes back out again. I feel it leaving. Oh God. Come back. Just come and flow freely and swim in my brain again. Perk up my chin. You silly silent sleuth. It's time. Time to come out of ( Read more... )

Boiling burning up
clearing all the spaces
Forgotten in time and misery
Illuminating inspiration.
Delight delight delight!
Done licking warm mud. 
Sucking for nutrients
like a damn rodent.
Golden Oasis. Revived
in this endless sea.  

Cop 1: Wanna go check out that fire call?
Cop 2: Eh sure. Why not?
...our tax dollars hard at work.
Oh library cop! You're missing all the fun.  

Now that I now longer know you I can make you anything I'd like. You can be a wretched monster when I want to hate you. A insufferable sulking mess when I want to be missed. You can be the pitied tragic hero if I want to sit back and recall a fine tale. You can be everything when I'm lacking a muse. You can be nothing when I smile and my eyes gleam ( Read more... )

I will claw and claw and repeat everything that I've ever said again it seems that this happened just yesterday. but yesterday was an eternity A million yesterdays to go. "Yesterday I woke up sucking a lemon." Indeed I perhaps did. I can't stop. I must go on, but I should stop and do and go amd claw and claw at this. I need it. And now i fuck fuck ( Read more... )

Active, going, legs ( Read more... )

send ill council back to the sulfuric seas! 
speak not to me. speak not to me. 
Whispering with winding tongues. 
Despair revives, revived despair. god damn 
it everywhere. 

 The pain exruciating ( Read more... )

 The dissenters, they spoke their parts ( Read more... )

The winds, they blew, my thoughts
of you
all gone from my mind
Pure thought, it will
Gleam divine.

I don't care how many tacky girl power songs I have to listen to. I decided this and I will see it through. I have control. I have will power. I love myself. I need this to be true. To be real. Unfaltering. Unchanging. I am not a COWARD. Speaking of tacky ( Read more... )