i am just nothing, i hate my life, i hate where i am i hate everything happening and i am hating it all alone, thank you world, i should have seen this coming, other people make mistakes and its ok, i amke a few and my life is over. i fucking hate everything. i cant keep my self together, i cant stop. i need someting anything, i need to not be ( Read more... )

so i went out to my car to get something, and my dogs barked once my dad came out and started yelling at me, he said "if this happens one more time before you moce out im going to take your stuff and throw it out the door" so much for trying to have a good night, i hope every one elses is going better, i am sure there is a lot more going on to make ( Read more... )

whatever.......

school i sgoing really well i think i jsut finished my third wrt class and it feels pretty good, even though i am still stressing about german, i know if i work hard enough ill be alright.... well besides that i got kicked out of my house, verbally molested by some one, in a sexual way, and have had one hell of a week, i cant help but feel pressure ( Read more... )

i cant stop... i cant stop.... i cant stop..... what do i do?

k well i was feeling pretty sad, so i decide to go to the gym before i got to bed which is never a good idea, but what ever, i had no idea how tierd i was until i got to the gym, bad idea, so i start working out everything is fine, but now i know i should not work out when i am tierd, at one point i got so light headed and my heart stopped beating ( Read more... )

well tonight was odd, i had a ton of people over and then they stayed over, like my moms friends and thier friends, no one i really knew, it was kind of odd, some really annoying guy came over named "bob". he satarted talking to me about cars and found out i turned down a job for toyota and called me an idiot and asked me what the fuck i was doing ( Read more... )

right now i am trying to figure out what to do in my life, everything has gotten so complicated as of lately...... i am not sure what to do or too think, i just read something online that made me wonder but without assumptions i let it go only time will tell if it was for the better or for worse. well i hope every ones night is going well, :):):):)

Every day i have been lifting, building my self for a better, more self effecient me. I like it its a goal and im really working twords it. have fun every one this may be my last post

HEll yeah. my computer is operational, now i have net in my room, thanks to a certian someone, Thank you thank you thank you!!!!!! any way i am just sitting here enjoying the kuxuries i have, ahhh now i feel good. :)