3:20. what the hell am i doing up? eating corn chips with mozerella cheese and salsa, calming down from a three hour brain storm about the restaurant and all the possibilities of renovation and excavation and restoration - mostly of ourselves and a little for the building. and trying not to be aware of the fact that i've moved into some new stage ( Read more... )

You come looking for me in my blackest moments, surrounded by all my mess and sickness and frustration. heroic indeed. and more so because you find me, three minutes on the phone and you've found me and I'm laughing. I have no idea how you came to know how to do this. maybe I've left bread crumbs but when you say the word love, when you say ( Read more... )

Okay. So the moment I turned 31 wasn't a bad one. I woke up fifteen minutes before the clock turned, my blood sugar wasn't so high that I felt ill, low enough that on the relative scale I felt pretty good. So I sort of, got up, no pain, drank some water, no discomfort, stood up, no dizziness and came downstairs and baked myself some rice flour ( Read more... )

"I beg you to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and ( Read more... )

I thought maybe yesterday was going to be the day where optimism ( Read more... )

sometimes i am just too tired to think ( Read more... )

Okay, I'm sorry. You deserve more from me. but it was too too funny.
I promise, more serious life affirming statements later today.

You Are the Stuffing


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Okay. I know this it totally unreasonable but I really do not want to go see my endocrinologist today. When I heard the roads were 'trecherous' and that the recommended speed limit was 50 kms an hour I thought, my father totally won't go for that. I'll have to cancel. And I was a little bit more than relieved ( Read more... )

"The virtual disappearance of the religious aspect of Helen that surrounded her with an aura of sacred terror laid her open to the most scathing insults. People expressed amazement that the Trojan War should have been fought over such an unimportant creature -- a woman -- adding that the woman in question had absolutely no value because she herself ( Read more... )

Woke up early, took a shower, went about making breakfast. Felt like I might feel well rested when I finially woke up. The thing of note though is this kind of calm. Something in me making me move slowly and precisely. Making those choices I have to make everyday, which under normal circumstances wouldn't really matter if I didn't apply a certain ( Read more... )