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[nepenthy]

Just tell me, was i wasting all this fucking time, or am i over reacting to this experience, was this just a fucking game, was it all lies the whole time, or did you fucking get bored, was it easy making somone else feel like shit to feel better, more Superior, am i a dumb fuck to belive anything. Yes

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[___554]

wtf alex? what the fuck. alex i chased you for fucking 6 months. i don't think you will ever see that. will you? Ofcourse you will always be in my heart, but it was a mind fuck how you never wanted a real relationship, do you get that? so mabey you were a mindless slut who just wanted to be loved. but you know what, i got sick of it. sick of always running after you, always one footstep behind you. i know im no angle, but you have to see you aren't perfect either. this is why i don't think we should talk, becuse i don't want you to hurt. you said yourself you are happier now. i want you to be happy. and i need myself, just myself. you have been my fucking like for the past half year. i breathed for you. i slept for you. i pissed for you. i lived for you. i guess you will never see that. i guess im just a mindless slut to you. your right i never loved you. you're always right. fuck you. open your fucking eyes to reality every once in a while, it might do you good

[___554]

I can't believe I've let your words seep into me all day. It's a burden following me around. You type this mindless dribble on livejournal becuse you have no guts or just because this is the only way to put your words together in front of public to show the world I am a slut, or a bitch, but mostly to show the world you are a badass, or something along those lines. I'm done Alex. I'm done with everything. I've chased you for a half a year. 6 months. 180 days. Do you know how much of a mindfuck that is? But to say I'm heartless? To say I'm some slut who just wanted you to love me? I told you a countless number of times that if you were to ask me to marry you, I would haev said yes. Not anymore. I have seen this side of you. Blame everyone else. You can never hurt because of you, or some mutual cause. It's always everyone else, always. And if you can't point the finger to everyone else, it's me. Honestly, I don't care that you made this public. That could be to my advantage to show the world that I'm not this fucking little bitch you

[nepenthy]

Kerri no one reads my journal and i was pissed off about alot of things at the time, i dont think your a slut and i wish i never posted that but since i dont know how to work this site i kind of could not do anything about it but i understand you have the right to be mad and have this super public besides everyone has the right to know your story because you werent the bad guy you have made me the happiest person kerri i love you you are right i could not handle sertant things and i am sorry to put you threw pain i mean all this time i thought you were happy with how we had things and you know we both had good and bad days i wish i could delet it from my journal i really do the thing is i had to let anger out but the movies thing was not really towared you it was toward almost everyone and i understand your relationship with your mom i dont think she brine washes you and i dont playmind games with you kerr you know that i just have been fucked up over little and big shit and i blew up because it just is really hard not having you in