And so it begins again

[nephthys_secret]

Yeah, so way back when I first started this blog it was to help me deal with the ME/CFS issues I was having. It's been a while since I I've blogged about anything but now seems to be the right time to pick it back up again. I'm scared, I'm angry, I'm frustrated and I'm pissed off. This isn't fair! All I ever wanted was to be a stay-at-home-mum. The

Comments

[daisynerd]

Oh hon, I'm so sorry to hear that you are having such a tough time. I think life very seldom works out perfectly as we plan, but I so understand how hard it is to adjust when things are forced on you instead of being able to choose them. You are in no way failing at being a mum. Shit just happens. As long as you keep loving Pip you will never be failing as a mum. It is very important to look after yourself, you are precious. The childcare sounds lovely and there are lots of advantages as you've mentioned. Is it possible to get some sort of external emotional support as well to try to reduce the stress this change will have on you and the ramifications for spoon depletion? Like a nice counsellor who would preferably make housecalls? I know therapy sounds terifying and pretty much everyone has had some awful experience with it at some time or other, but I've found that when I've been snowed under by difficult times finding the right person to talk to has made it easier to cope with everything

[mireille21]

Echoing what daisynerd said, I'm sorry you're going through a rough patch, been through a few myself :(
On the childcare front, I have to say that I had my reservations, but Josh started a half day a week at 4 months, and by around 15 months was up to 2 days. He *loves* it and there is so much that he can do there that is simple not an option here. Socialisation with other children of various ages, lots of different games and activities. I have become a big fan of quality childcare.
I also felt really bad that J got to watch more TV than I would have liked when I was pregnant (and ran out of energy by 2pm). I felt really really guilty, but some things are just unavoidable. He also gets a lot of Tv whenever he is babysat by the grandparents. We spent 10 days with them in September, and it has taken me htis long to wean him down to only an hour os so per day (and he still asks for Thomas first thing when he wakes), but just remember, it is only temporary.